A disturbance in the outer office kept me from thinking up a retort. There were some subdued screams, some scuffling of heavy shoes, the sounds of some running feet as applicants got away. The outer door to Sara’s office was flung open.
Framed in the doorway, breast high, floated the Swami!
He was sitting, cross-legged, on a hotel bathmat. From both front corners, where they had been attached by loops of twine, there peeked Auerbach cylinders. Two more rear cylinders were grasped in Lieutenant Murphy’s strong hands. He was propelling the Swami along, mid air, in Atlantic City Boardwalk style.
The Swami looked down at us with aloof disdain, then his eyes focused on the old man. His glance wavered; he threw a startled and fearful look at the cylinders holding up his bathmat. They did not fall. A vast relief overspread his face, and he drew himself erect with more disdain than ever. The old man was not so aloof.
“Harry Glotz!” he exclaimed. “Why you ... you faker! What are you doing in that getup?”
The Swami took a casual turn about the room, leaning to one side on his magic carpet as if banking an airplane.
“Peasant!” He spat the word out and motioned grandly toward the door. Lieutenant Murphy pushed him through.
“Why, that no good bum!” the old man shouted at me. “That no-good from nowhere! I’ll fix him! Thinks he’s something, does he? I’ll show him! Anything he can do I can do better!”
His rage got the better of him. He rushed through the door, shaking both fists above his white head, shouting imprecations, threats, and pleading to be shown how the trick was done, all in the same breath. The new lieutenant cast a stricken look at us and then sped after his charge.
“Looks as if we’re finally in production,” I said to Sara.
“That’s only the second one,” she said mournfully. “When you get all six of them, this joint’s sure going to be jumping!”
I looked out of her window at the steel and concrete walls of the factory. They were solid, real, secure; they were a symbol of reality, the old reality a man could understand.
“I hope you don’t mean that literally, Sara,” I answered dubiously.
POTTAGE
by Zenna Henderson
However far-fetched telekinesis or anti-gravity, or both, may be to you or me, Clifton’s story has the real feeling of personal experience. He was a personnel man; and he has also, as a long-time resident of Southern California, made an extensive personal study of virtually every kind of claim for psi, from crackpot cults and mystic fakes to the serious investigations in parapsychology now being conducted in several universities.
Miss Henderson, likewise, writes of what she knows. She is a schoolteacher, currently working in Europe for the U. S. Army. As for her “People,” and their special powers and problems: I have read everything she has written about them—and they seem a great deal more real to me than, for instance, Eskimos or Equatorial Pygmies. (This is the third or fourth story in the “People” series. A book-length collection is now being prepared for publication—soon, I hope.)
You get tired of teaching after a while. Well, maybe not of teaching itself, because it’s insidious and remains a tug in the blood for all of your life, but there comes a day when you look down at the paper you’re grading or listen to an answer you’re giving a child and you get a boinnng! feeling. And each reverberation of the boing is a year in your life, another set of children through your hands, another beat in monotony, and it’s frightening. The value of the work you’re doing doesn’t enter into it at that moment and the monotony is bitter on your tongue.
Sometimes you can assuage that feeling by consciously savoring those precious days of pseudo freedom between the time you receive your contract for the next year and the moment you sign it. Because you can escape at that moment, but somehow—you don’t.
But I did one spring. I quit teaching. I didn’t sign up again. I went chasing after—after what? Maybe excitement—maybe a dream of wonder—maybe a new bright wonderful world that just must be somewhere else because it isn’t here-and-now. Maybe a place to begin again so I’d never end up at the same frightening emotional dead end. So I quit.
But by late August the emptiness inside me was bigger than boredom, bigger than monotony, bigger than lusting after freedom. It was almost terror to be next door to September and not care that in a few weeks school starts— tomorrow school starts—first day of school. So, almost at the last minute, I went to the placement bureau. Of course it was too late to try to return to my other school, and besides, the mold of the years there still chafed in too many places.
“Well,” the placement director said as he shuffled his end-of-the-season cards, past Algebra and Home EC and PE and High-School English, “there’s always Bendo.” He thumbed out a battered-looking three-by-five. “There’s always Bendo.”
And I took his emphasis and look for what they were intended and sighed.
“Bendo?”
“Small school. One room. Mining town, or used to be. Ghost town now.” He sighed wearily and let down his professional hair. “Ghost people, too. Can’t keep a teacher there more than a year. Low pay—fair housing—at someone’s home. No community activities—no social life. No city within fifty or so miles. No movies. No nothing but children to be taught. Ten of them this year. All grades.”
“Sounds like the town I grew up in,” I said. “Except we had two rooms and lots of community activities.”
“I’ve been to Bendo.” The director leaned back in his chair, hands behind his head. “Sick community. Unhappy people. No interest in anything. Only reason they have a school is because it’s the law. Law-abiding anyway. Not enough interest in anything to break a law, I guess.”
“I’ll take it,” I said quickly before I could think beyond the feeling that this sounded about as far back as I could go to get a good running start at things again.
He glanced at me quizzically. “If you’re thinking of lighting a torch of high reform to set Bendo afire with enthusiasm, forget it. I’ve seen plenty of king-sized torches fizzle out there.”
“I have no torch,” I said. “Frankly I’m fed to the teeth with bouncing bright enthusiasm and hugs PTA’s and activities until they come out your ears. They usually turn out to be the most monotonous kind of monotony. Bendo will be a rest.”
“It will that,” the director said, leaning over his cards again. “Saul Diemus is the president of the board. If you don’t have a car the only way to get to Bendo is by bus—it runs once a week.”
I stepped out into the August sunshine after the interview and sagged a little under its savage pressure, almost hearing a hiss as the refrigerated coolness of the placement bureau evaporated from my skin.
I walked over to the quad and sat down on one of the stone benches I’d never had time to use, those years ago when I had been a student here. I looked up at my old dorm window and, for a moment, felt a wild homesickness—not only for years that were gone and hopes that had died and dreams that had had grim awakenings, but for a special magic I had found in that room. It was a magic—a true magic—that opened such vistas to me that for a while anything seemed possible, anything feasible—if not for me right now, then for others, someday. Even now, after the dilution of time, I couldn’t quite believe that magic, and even now, as then, I wanted fiercely to believe it. If only it could be so! If only it could be so!
I sighed and stood up. I suppose everyone has a magic moment somewhere in his life and, like me, can’t believe that anyone else could have the same—but mine was different! No one else could have had the same experience! I laughed at myself. Enough of the past and of dreaming. Bendo waited. I had things to do.