Our construction site was on the dark side, but we lived in dormitory pods on the bright side of the terminator. We worked in shifts, of course. Which is why I’m alive when twenty-three of my people are not.
It was about an hour before shift change and I was in our cafeteria having breakfast with the crew that would be going out. I planned on going out with them. I often did. And I always did whatever tasks the shift supervisor assigned me, even if I am a prince. A prince must set an example, don’t you think?
Suddenly, in the middle of the meal, we felt a great trembling in the floor beneath us. Water glasses rattled; salt shakers fell over. Without a second’s thought, every man and woman there kicked back chairs and ran to the equipment chamber where Vac/suits were stored. We dove into the suits, grabbed extra oxygen tanks, jet packs, Mayday beacons, whatever we could fill our arms with; then we piled into the airlocks in a rush to get out in the open.
Outside, we were just one of many construction crews evacuating their dormitories, stumbling about in confusion, trying to keep our footing on the quaking surface. Every band on my helmet radio was clogged with cries of panic. I tried to shout against the noise, but couldn’t make myself heard. In exasperation, I clicked it off and searched the sky, hoping to see one of the supply ships docked close enough that a jet pack could bridge the gap. But instead I saw the cause of the disturbance.
The entire dark side of Heaven had split in two, as if we stood on a giant bird, a roc, that was unfolding its wings. The wings rose up higher and higher over the horizon, strong and graceful, the ebony of night now glittering in the sunlight; but as the wings moved, their speed and strength tossed off my workers like seeds scattered across a field. The nightclubs, the carousels, the roller coasters…all wrenched apart as their foundations slid along with the motion of the wings. Gravity seemed to have gone wild out there: some buildings flew off into space with my people; others lodged themselves at the hinge point where the wings met the body.
Hundreds of people were thrown into the emptiness of the abyss. We formed rescue parties, retrieved those we could. Of my workers we found nineteen: seven alive, twelve dead in their suits. Another eleven have not yet been found. Teams still search—none of us believes the missing are alive, but it’s horrible to think of a friend’s body drifting forever in blackness.
And the explanation for this all? It took fifteen hours to get anything out of Laughing Dragon. Then the president’s wife—his wife! the man couldn’t face us himself—made a statement that the wings had been opened up to expose more collector cells to the sunlight. The management regretted this had happened without warning. Notices were supposed to have been sent around but were inadvertently misplaced.
All a lie. I’ve paid a few bribes, and no one, inside or outside Laughing Dragon, knew what was going to happen. Anyway, why would they open the wings when it would cause such damage to their own park? No, someone made a mistake, someone very high up or very well protected, and that person must be made to pay.
Reasonable damages for the next of kin? Do you think my people weren’t insured? The next of kin will be paid handsomely, and if the insurance company wants to reclaim its money from Laughing Dragon, it can file its own suit. I want damage, man, not damages! Make them know they’re dealing with something they can’t control.
VARIATION J: LION
(LAMENTOSO MA DOLCISSIMO)
(SADLY, BUT VERY SWEETLY)
CONTACT: SEPTEMBER 2078
Oh, my darlings! I wish it could be said that your father died a man.
My grandfather once said to me, “Boy, a man is not a man until he walks with a lion.”
And my grandmother said, “Oh, William, that was long ago.”
“No,” he answered. “Long ago, it was said a man had to kill a lion. But guns made killing easy. Too many lions died. Now, no more killing. Walk with the lion. See him. Learn what a man is not. Hear the voice of that which is stronger than you.”
“What nonsense,” my grandmother muttered. “If the boy ever does meet a lion, he’ll find running is better than walking.”
But my grandfather looked me in the eye, pointed a swollen-knuckled finger at my nose, and said softly, “A man is not a man until he walks with a lion. Maybe a leopard or a cheetah will do too. Or a male rhinoceros…but not a female! And elephants don’t count either—they’re strong, but now they’re tame as dogs.”
Thus, my grandfather. He died when I was still young…before I thought to ask if he had walked with a lion.
The only lions I have ever seen were mechanical. There’s one back at the amusement park. On a merry-go-round. Ride a lion, ride a unicorn, ride a laughing dragon!
I bolted the lion in place myself. I pushed past the prince so I could do it with my own hands.
He probably thought I was trying to impress him with my enthusiasm. I think the truth was I was trying to impress the lion.
I’m getting cold. I wonder if I’ll freeze before I suffocate or the other way around.
I could take off my helmet and finish it quickly. But there’s always the chance if I hang on, someone will find me before I die.
Besides, most of these helmets are designed to lock in place when there’s no air pressure outside.
Can you hear my thoughts, children? Noliwe? Jobe? Mamina?
The night my father died, I was asleep an ocean away…and I dreamed of a great plain dotted with every kind of tree in the world. The air was full of the smell of lilacs and the ground had a thick springy cover of pine needles and magnolia blossoms. If I reached up, I could pull down cherries or oranges, even calabashes—whatever fruit or nut I thought of, it was right there. Then my father was there too, and we walked together under the trees, saying nothing. I wanted to hold his hand the way I did when I was a boy, but I knew I couldn’t.
“Son,” he finally said to me, “they tell me I have to eat a leaf off every one of these trees. It’s going to take a long while, and some of them are going to taste mighty bitter.” He smiled. “Well, as penances go, I expected a lot worse. It’s nice here, isn’t it?”
“Did you ever walk with a lion?” I asked him.
He shook his head. “Lions are scarce these days,” he said. “You never know, though.” He looked around at the forest. “Lots of places here a lion could be hiding. I’ll be checking them all out.”
When I left him, he was still walking under the trees: walking slowly, enjoying himself. More relaxed in death than he’d ever been in life.
I believe I really was talking to him.
Can you hear me, children? I don’t know what time it is where you are. I hope you’re dreaming.
Lately, I’ve had a recurring dream of standing on the deck of a tall ship on a still night sea. There are many people with me. I feel as if we’ve been becalmed a long time; but as I watch, wind fills our sails, the mast groans and the canvas snaps taut, and everybody is clambering up to the rigging, laughing, letting out the sails, starting to sing a song of great rejoicing that we’ll soon be speeding toward our destination again.
Children…are you dreaming?
It’s as quiet as a forest here. Soft static on my helmet radio, that’s all. For a while, I could hear everyone shouting at each other back on Heaven, but I’m out of range now.
From where I drift, Heaven is eclipsing the sun. Behind Heaven, the sun’s corona is wild with prominences.
Heaven has a fiery mane.
Why can’t I stop thinking about lions? I could just as easily say I’m walking with the constellation Leo. If I knew which one it was.
No, I’m walking with Heaven. And Heaven is just a carousel lion: something someone built.