"Aah, leave the poor bastards be. They're probably scared out of their minds."
"So what the hell? I've been scared for as long as can remember, and with good reason. I'm going to t* front and get myself some food."
Dacker defiantly started toward the head of the line. After only a moment's hesitation, the others followed, even those who hadn't agreed with him. As the troopers elbowed their way to the front there were a couple of protests from the new recruits, but these were quickly silenced by glares from the longtimers. One of the mess orderlies was less easily intimidated. He set down his ladle and returned Dacker's angry stare.
"You men get back in line or you don't get served."
"Say what?"
"You heard me."
Dacker leaned forward so his face was very close to the orderly's. "Now you listen to me, dickhead. Not more than sixty minutes ago I was in combat, almost overrun by chibas. In another sixty minutes, I intend to be fast asleep with a full belly. Are you telling me that I've got to waste my precious downtime waiting on line while a bunch of pussy-assed new meat get their chow in front of me? What were you doing an hour ago, watching the soup on a burner?"
The orderly stood his ground. "The rule here is first come, first served, no exceptions. So you heroes can just get to the back of the line."
"Can you imagine the disaster area we could make out of this place?"
"Can you imagine what will happen to you if you start anything in here?"
"So what can they do? Shoot us? We'll be back in combat tomorrow."
There was complaining back down the line that quickly built in volume to curses and catcalls. No food had been served since Dacker and the others had walked to the front of the line, and the line was getting impatient. A supply overman emerged from the rear kitchen area.
"What the hell's going on here? What's the holdup?" A steel plate that covered more than half of his forehead indicated that he was a wounded combat veteran who had been placed on light duties. The head injury made his speech a little strange, but there didn't seem to be anything wrong with his thinking. "You men just in from the bush?"
"Damn right we are."
He glanced at the orderly. "Go ahead, feed 'em and get the whole bunch out of the way."
The orderly started to protest, but the overman stopped him with a look. "Just get them out of here."
Dacker grinned. "Just get us out of here."
The orderly scowled but started slopping out the food.
As Hawk walked back down the line with his full tray, he couldn't help looking into the faces of the new intake. Poor little bleeders. They were like blank pages waiting to be written on. Sure, they were afraid, but that was it-no marks, no scars. Their skins were smooth and unblemished, and there was nothing in their eyes but ap- prehension. He thought back to when he had been like that. It seemed like a lifetime ago.
The sun dropped behind the hills, and the river valley sank into deep shadow. The lights came on around the perimeter. The minutes after sunset were the darkest of the whole half night. Then the huge parent planet would start to rise beyond the opposite horizon. At first the giant world was nothing more than a thin luminous band, a second horizon with a slight curve on the leading edge. Rapidly, though, it grew and grew, filling up the sky with its enormous bulk and casting a bright twilight over the jungle that turned the fungus ghostly pale. The planet was an expanse of parchment-yellow banded with strips of red, orange, and purple that slowly twisted and rippled and spiraled into great ponderous vortices as they were driven by the unimaginably violent storms that tore through its deep, dense atmosphere.
The night sounds began, dominated by the booming moan of the big green lizards. The big lizards seemed to make a nocturnal practice of raising their long necks to the sky and baying at the planet. It wasn't an unusual sight to see four or five of them, with necks intertwined and heads raised in unison, moaning together as a group. Above and around their bellows, the smaller creatures shrieked and howled. One particular species-nobody was quite sure which because nobody'd actually seen it-had become a particular favorite of the ground forces. It made a croaking noise that could be approximated by the word "walleye." Isolated troopers had taken to duplicating the cry. With surreal bravado, they'd yell back into the night.
"Walleye!"
"Walleye!"
Already the call of this jungle campaign was echoing around the perimeter. "Walleye."
"Walleye."
With Dyrkin giving out the details, none of the old-timers had pulled guard duty. When he'd finished eating, Hark found that although exhausted, he wasn't ready to sleep. He wanted to be on his own for a while. That was also something of a luxury. He slipped on his mask, not bothering with his helmet, and wriggled out of the bubble. He felt a little dizzy-Renchett and Kemlo were inside the foxhole sharing a small vial of totally illegal sweet gas. He turned his back on the big planet. It tended to hang over everything like a great psychological weight, and the last thing Hark needed was any kind of additional burden. He walked slowly as far as a parked crawler and sat down on one of its rear treads. To the east, there was a red glow beyond the hills. It might have been an erupting volcano. This young planet was made even more unstable by the clutching gravity of the big mother. On the other hand, it could have been flying wings, firestorming a section of jungle. Somewhere on the perimeter there was a brief chatter of fire. Hark looked around but didn't react in any other way. There had been a time when he. would have jumped and grabbed for his weapon. Now he waited until he was called. The hell with it. It was probably just some piece of new meat shooting at shadows.
It was all becoming a matter of time-time in the jungle, time lying in a foxhole trying to sleep but not to dream. The passage of time was marked by the missing faces, all the faces that had started together but had vanished one by one. There was no point in pretending that he wouldn't one day become one of those faces. That was the ultimate matter of time. He wished that some bootleg had surfaced in the temporary camp. Sweet gas didn't do it for him, but alcohol could be trusted to take him away from the war for some unconscious minutes.
"Feeling like baying at the moon?" Dyrkin had come silently around the side of the crawler.
Hark shrugged. "Haven't gotten around to it yet, but there are times when it feels tempting."
The walleye creature croaked, and there was a chorus of shouts from the perimeter. Dyrkin shook his head. "At least you haven't started hollering 'walleye.'"
"I never did think it was a good idea to start advertising my position."
'There are those who just have to do it. I guess it helps convince them that they exist."
"I never had that problem."
"You mind if I sit down?"
"Help yourself."
Dyrkin sat next to Hark on the tread and produced a small metal flask. "You want a belt?"
Hark nodded. "Sure do. You want to step inside? Renchett and Kemlo are getting out of their brains in our foxhole."
Dyrkin shook his head. "We can drink out here as long as you don't breathe in."
In one smooth motion, he flipped up his mask, took a pull on the flask himself, replaced the mask, and handed the flask to Hark.
Hark repeated the process with equal skill; then he swallowed and shuddered. "Bootleg gets worse and worse."
"I hear they're making it from fungus and defoliant." "It tastes like it."
Hark passed the flask back, and Dyrkin took a second swig. For a while they sat in silence, then Dyrkin passed the flask again.
"You know something?"
Hark shuddered again. "What?"
"You've come a long way since that first day on the messdeck when I beat you up."
"I guess I have." Hark thought for a moment. "I've wondered about that. How come you picked on me?"