She had picked up the handset and pressed numbers as she spoke. For a moment, the room fell silent as she listened to the instrument.
“This is Dr. Nilson, Mr. Green’s doctor? May I speak to Mr. Drummond please? It’s important.
“Mr. Drummond? Dr. Nilson. Mr. Green tells me you wanted him to bring you a letter to establish that he had seen me. I hope this call will do instead.
“Fine. I’m having Mr. Green hospitalized, Mr. Drummond. I don’t believe that his problems are very serious, but after such an extended absence, I consider it advisable.
“I can’t make a definite promise, Mr. Drummond. Perhaps around the end of the month, perhaps somewhat later.
“I don’t know. My professional opinion is that he will be ready and able to return to work when he is released, but that’s opinion, and not fact.
“Of course. Good-bye.”
She hung up, and for the first time he was conscious of her perfume, a slight flowery fragrance more suited to a young girl. “Mr. Drummond asked me to convey his good wishes to you, and his hopes for a speedy recovery. You work for a very enlightened company, Mr. Green, one by no means oblivious, as so many are, to the demands of humanity. I hope you appreciate it. You will have heard me tell him that I believe your hospitalization need be only a short time, and that I expect you to be able to return to work upon your release. I said those things because you had wisely chosen to remain silent, a hopeful sign.”
He said, “Thank you.”
“I can’t visit you every day in the hospital; my schedule is too crowded for that. But I will try to see you there three or four times a week. I hope to find you progressing, and I’m certain I shall.” She nodded to the men, who helped him to his feet.
He said, “I don’t think this is necessary.”
“But I do, and you must defer to my opinion.”
The words broke out, though he struggled to bite them back. “This will keep me from finding Lara.”
“It will certainly prevent you from looking, Mr. Green. I hope that soon we’ll be able to show you how pointless it is to look, just as it would be pointless to look for Cinderella.”
One of the white-uniformed men said, “Come on,” in a voice that was soft and even gentle. There was a tug on his arm.
He said, “All right,” and as he spoke, the telephone rang.
Dr. Nilson picked the handset up. “Oh, hello, Lora … No, I’m not angry. I know how trying it can be.”
They pulled him out of the office and closed the door firmly behind him. “Now walk.”
He did, down the stairs and out the back of the building. A small white ambulance—actually a van sporting red emergency lights—stood at the curb. One of the men opened the side door for him. He went in, and the man followed him. The other man got into the driver’s seat.
When he sat down, the first man slapped him hard on his left ear, the blow like an explosion at the side of his head. “That’s for kicking my knee,” the man said. “I want you to know.”
He could scarcely make out the words for the ringing that filled his head, but he nodded.
“We like it when they fight and yell,” the man told him. “It’s the yellers and the cussers that come out first—anybody tell you that. People like you still got some pepper in them, they don’t just knuckle down, they say, hey, I’m gonna get out of this place. Only if you kick and hit, you’re gonna get hit back.”
He nodded again and said, “I understand.”
“Only not ’cause I explained it to you. ’Cause I hit you, that’s why.”
“All right.”
“Don’t you kick me no more, and I won’t hit you.”
He asked, “Did you know Lora?”
“Dr. Nilson’s receptionist? Sure.”
“What was she like?”
The man shrugged. “White girl, so I didn’t pay her a whole lot of attention. No big tits or anything like that. Once in a while you get white girls that like blacks, only not too often. We’d joke around a little. She wasn’t stuck up.”
“Was she beautiful?”
“She ain’t gone.”
“Yes, she is. She quit suddenly and cleaned out her desk.”
The man looked skeptical. “Dr. Nilson had her on the phone when we left. Probably she’ll come back.”
He nodded and asked again, “Was she beautiful? Is she?”
“You want her to be, man?”
“I guess I do.”
“Then she was. Like, big blues and one of those china-doll faces, you know?”
The driver said, “Green.”
He answered, “Yes?” and the first man asked, “What you mean?”
“That Lora woman has green eyes, fool.”
“Don’t pay no mind to him,” the first man said. “He’s crazy. Now, you want out of that jacket?”
He had somehow expected that the hospital would be in the city. It was not, but in the suburbs, set among rolling lawns and beds of daffodils just coming into flower. The wind had a bite to it, yet was fresh and clean in a way winter winds never were. When he saw there were no bars on the windows, he said, “This doesn’t look like a mental hospital.”
“It isn’t, man. It’s just a regular hospital, and they do babies and triple bypasses and all like that. See, that way if people ask where you was, you can just tell them where like you was swearing in court, ’cause you might have had your appendix out. See?”
He nodded. They went inside, where one man talked briefly to a receptionist who motioned them toward an elevator. On the ninth floor (he was careful to note which button had been pushed) the same man conferred much longer with a nurse at a desk. When their conversation was over at last, the man said, “Now we gone take you to the lounge. I told her you’ll stay there nice and not make no trouble. You do it, hear? ’Cause we got to leave you there and go on back.”
He nodded again. He had nodded so often now that he had lost track of the number.
Although the lounge was clean, he missed the freshness of the spring wind. He tried to open both windows, but they would not open; when he examined their frames, he saw that the glass was very thick. There were seven varnished chairs in the room, and a low, varnished table supporting a stack of old magazines. After a time, it occurred to him that Lara’s picture might be in one. He picked up a magazine and began to page through it.
He was on his third when a weary-looking bald man came in and sat down. “You like to read?” the bald man asked.
He shook his head.
“I do. I’d read all the time, if it weren’t that my eyes give out. Then I have to go off and take care of my patients.” The bald man chuckled.
“What do you read?”
“History, mostly. A little fiction. Of course I have to read the medical journals. We subscribe to Newsweek, The New Yorker, Psychology Today, and Smithsonian. My wife always reads them, and sometimes I do too.”
He said, “I’d like to see some movie magazines. I don’t suppose that impresses you very much.”
“More than you might think,” the bald man told him. “Most people don’t read at all.”
“Books always seemed like a waste of money to me.”
“You’re careful about money?”
“I try to be.”
“But you’re in the hospital, now. Hospitals are extremely expensive.”
“The store’s paying for everything,” he explained. He felt a sudden thrill of fear. Was it?
The bald man got out a notebook and a Cross pen. “What day of the week is this?”
He tried to remember and could not. “Wednesday?”
“I’m not sure myself. Do you know the date?”
“April sixteenth.”
“Do you know why the store’s paying for your treatment?”
“That’s the policy,” he said.
“But why do they feel you need treatment?”
“Because I was gone so long, I guess. Nearly a month. No, over a month.”