“You look handsome,” she said. Ben Harkavy, bartender and handsome alley cat, the kind that rubs against your leg, then hops a fence and disappears.
Ruby and Cora, who loved Ben in a way that reminded Molly of her feelings for her father when she was a child, a reverential physical ownership, threw themselves at him for a double piggyback. Molly gently pushed them aside so she could give Ben a hug. Her arms around his neck, her face on his coat still cold from the outside air, she felt herself relax. Ben was a good boy. Ben was healthy and dear and safe in her arms. And with Ben here as well as Freddie, at last she would be able to make some order in her parents’ lives.
“The cavalry,” she murmured. “Thank god.”
“You miss me?”
“God, yes.”
“Don’t make him feel guilty,” Joy said. “Your mother doesn’t like it that I miss her.”
Ben hugged his grandmother and said, “You can miss me, too. Instead of missing her. I don’t mind.”
“I miss you the most,” Cora said.
“You’re just his cousin,” said Ruby.
“So are you.”
Ben squatted down and pulled them to him, one in each arm, and the apartment was boisterous and gay. Coco and Molly had used the dessert plates for the salad, but Joy found she didn’t mind. The children were playing a game that involved pulling the tablecloth as hard as they could, but she didn’t mind that either.
“To Mom and Dad,” Daniel said, raising a glass of wine.
Aaron gave a bloodcurdling howl.
“Grandpa,” said Ben, jumping up, kneeling beside Aaron. “What happened?”
“What are you talking about?” Aaron said.
Molly saw Ben go white. He had not seen too much of his grandfather in the last year, and when he had, Aaron had always managed to simulate conversation.
“Grandpa forgets sometimes,” Ruby whispered to Ben.
He smiled at her. “Thank you.” But he was obviously shaken.
“What’s going on?” Aaron said, looking around with wild eyes. He swatted Ben away with his enormous white hand. “Off your knees, soldier.” He caught Molly’s eye. “I’m fine,” he said. Then that awful sound, again.
By the time Molly brought out the apple pie, the sound had taken on an alarming volume and pitch.
“What do we do?” Molly said.
“Joy, what should we do?” Coco said.
“Mom, has he ever done this before?” said Daniel.
“Aaron,” Freddie was saying, “where does it hurt?”
“I don’t know what you’re talking about,” Aaron said.
Joy had not spoken. The room looked blank to her, as if it had emptied. The sounds were muffled. Except for Aaron’s. He was hazy beside her, enormous, ashen, opalescent. But the sounds he was making were not.
“Aaron, eat some pie,” she said. How stupid: Eat some pie. But it was all she could think of. She shoveled some pie onto a fork and held it to his mouth. “Delicious pie.”
Aaron opened his mouth and allowed her to tip the pie in. He chewed. He smiled. He swallowed. The noise stopped.
Joy looked up at her family and smiled, though she could hardly breathe.
“Pie,” she said.
Then the sound began again.
* * *
As Molly steered Aaron and his walker through the lobby, the doorman said Pow! Pow!, pretending to box. It was his favorite doorman, Ernie, but Aaron did not say Pow! Pow! back. Ernie looked solemnly at Molly as he opened the door, then he hailed a cab. Aaron’s long, lanky body, always so thin and flexible he seemed to be made of pipe cleaners, was now stiff and unyielding. He sat on the seat of the cab, his legs out, feet still on the pavement. The doorman went around to the other door and tried to pull him over by his shoulders, sliding Aaron across the seat. His legs stuck straight out the door now, feet in the air above the street.
The driver got out, and he and Joy tried to bend Aaron’s legs while Molly watched them as if she were witnessing a natural disaster, struck dumb, stuck in place.
“Well, hold my bags, at least,” Joy said.
Molly took the three heavy bags.
“No problem, no problem,” the taxi driver was saying. “Slowly, slowly.”
We are in a cab, Molly texted Freddie. The coffee is decaf, in case anyone asks.
Getting Aaron out of the taxi was even worse. The driver, a wisp of a man who said he was from Bangladesh and had a grandfather and knew how to respect the old, was holding him up beneath his armpits. Joy and Molly each took one arm, but Aaron began to sink to the ground, slowly, inexorably, the stiffness gone, as if he were melting.
“I can’t, I can’t,” Aaron said.
“Nice man, do not give up,” the taxi driver said. “For the sake of the nice ladies, do not give up.”
Aaron’s knees buckled, he was squatting, held up only by the two women and the determined driver. He sank lower and still lower, until Joy, shaking beneath the weight, was sure she would have to let him sink to the ground.
Just at that moment, two enormous arms wrapped themselves around Aaron, lifting him easily.
The two arms belonged to a security guard who was even taller than Aaron and far bigger, a muscular giant of a man. He held Aaron aloft, dangling him, Aaron’s feet just touching the ground.
“We forgot your shoes,” Joy said in horror. Aaron was wearing bedroom slippers. He was out on a cold rainy day in his bedroom slippers. “Your shoes, your shoes,” Joy said.
“Mom, it’s okay, he won’t need them, it’s the hospital…”
“Your shoes, Aaron. I’m so sorry.” It was all Joy could see, his large feet, clodhoppers he always called them, brushing the pavement in the wool cable-knit sock slippers with deerskin soles. He hated them, but they kept him warm and they weren’t slippery. “Oh, sweetheart, you hate these slippers. But why, Aaron? I ordered them from Hammacher Schlemmer…”
“He’ll be in bed, Mom. It’s okay.”
Another security guard came running out with a wheelchair and Aaron was folded awkwardly into it. He was so weak he was not even moaning now. But his feet in their warm slip-resistant slippers were off the sidewalk, placed on the footrests by the two security guards, one guard per foot. Seeing the men handling the big feet, seeing each foot on its footrest, made the slippers seem less out of place, and Joy recovered herself.
“There you are, Aaron,” she said, holding his hand. “There you are.” She ran her other hand along the arm of first one guard, then the second, as if she could gather strength from them, Molly thought. Or for good luck, the way people stroke a talisman.
“You came to our rescue,” Joy said. “And on Thanksgiving!” She looked around at the gathering, the first security guard an African-American, the second a giant as pale as Putin, clearly Russian, both towering over the Bangladeshi taxi driver and over her, a Jewish lady, and her daughter, a lesbian lady.
“New York is so cosmopolitan,” she said as they wheeled Aaron in after more effusive thank-you’s. “Isn’t it, Aaron? We’ve always liked that. Aaron, do you want to be near the window while we wait? We can people-watch.”
10
Daniel went to the hospital at lunchtime. He ate a sandwich, a very old-fashioned sandwich, he noticed — bright white bread, a few slices of pink boiled ham, a slice of orange cheese, a piece of pale iceberg lettuce, mustard the vivid yellow of newborn baby poop. The sandwich was a little stale, but comforting, and he wanted to be comforted. His father, the man who sang sea shanties in stormy weather, the tall, skinny father who’d swung his son onto his shoulders as if he’d been a scarf, this man of his childhood was lying in a hospital bed looking like another man entirely. Except for the beard. But even that was uncharacteristically shaggy.