“Well, first let’s find out who you really are. Right now, you’ve forgotten everything, but when you remember, you’ll probably discover that you have a family who misses you and is going crazy trying to find you.”
Purdue shook his head firmly. “No, I think it’ll be worse if I remember things. I’m better off forgetting.”
“Why do you say that?”
The boy didn’t answer. He chewed a fingernail and looked scared.
“Purdue? Did you remember something?”
His blue eyes opened wide, and then he nodded.
“What is it?” she asked. “What do you remember?”
“Voices.”
“What did they say?”
Purdue closed his eyes. He put his hands over his ears, as if he were trying to block out the noise from somewhere. “You saw what he did to her. Make him scream.”
Lisa shivered. “Who were they talking about?”
“I don’t know.” He opened his eyes again, and his gaze pleaded with her to help him.
Lisa reached into her pocket and removed the spent cartridge she’d found in the boy’s jeans. She put it on the table where he could see it. “This was in your pocket. It came from a gun. It came from somebody firing a bullet. Do you remember where you got this?”
He stared at the brass, and she could feel the fear rising in his body. “No.”
“Is that really true? Or are you just too scared to tell me?”
He was silent, biting his lip.
“These voices you heard,” she went on. “Did you see the men who were talking? Do you know who they were?”
“Police.”
“Did they have guns?”
“Yes.”
“What else do you remember about them? Did any of them fire their guns?”
He was quiet again. Lisa got up from the chair and came around to the other side of the table and sat next to him. “It may be scary, but you’re going to have to trust me. We can figure out the truth together, but I need your help. Tell me what else you remember.”
He tried to talk, but he choked up, as if he was about to cry. Then he sniffled and wiped his face.
“Fingers,” he said in a low voice.
She stared at him in confusion. “Fingers? I don’t understand.”
“Somebody’s fingers were lying on the ground,” he told her. “The men cut them off.”
8
Laurel had told her to stay home, but Lisa couldn’t do that, not after what she’d just heard from Purdue. She wasn’t going to stay in the dark, and she wasn’t going to wait in the house until the police officers from the previous night appeared on her front porch again. She needed to know what was going on.
“You and I are going to get some answers,” she told the boy. “Are you up for that?”
“I think so.”
“Okay then. The first puzzle we need to solve is exactly how you got here last night. We’re going to work our way backward. That means taking a little drive around the area and seeing if you remember anything. Got it?”
“Got it.”
They left the house together and headed across the driveway to her garage. Lisa unlocked the garage door and threw it open on its metal rails. Her pickup was inside, still wet from the previous day’s downpour. She undid the flatbed door to let the standing water drain. Inside were bags of sand, a dirty shovel, road salt, a handful of sodden two-by-fours, and an emergency roadside kit in a red plastic shell. In rural Minnesota, you always had to be prepared for the possibility of getting stranded on the back roads far from any help.
Lisa relocked the truck bed and opened the passenger door. “Hop in,” she told Purdue.
The boy climbed inside, and Lisa shut the door behind him. She wore her white down vest, and she patted the pocket to make sure her Ruger was safely zipped inside. Then she got behind the wheel and backed the truck out of the garage.
When she reached the highway, she could see for miles. It was just after daybreak on a misty morning, and there was nothingness in every direction. Out here, the earth was flat all the way to the horizon, where the gray land met the gray sky. Railroad tracks paralleled the highway, but there were no trains coming. Telephone wires stretched between an endless series of poles that lined the road like crucifixion crosses. The scrub brush shook in the fields as the wind blew, making a dull kaleidoscope of gold, rust, and washed-out green. She could see small stands of trees huddled together in the far distance. Turning right, the highway led to the border not even half an hour away on the road to Winnipeg. Turning left took her south through places like Strandquist and Newfolden on the way back to Thief River Falls.
The nearest town to her was Lake Bronson, one of those roadside towns that was over almost before it began. It was still several miles north. A river squiggled through the town streets and widened into a lake in the state park two miles east. She’d lived in this area for over a year, but she still didn’t know the town well. It wasn’t home to her. No place was home anymore.
Lisa pointed toward the railroad tracks. “Do you remember coming this way? Across the train tracks?”
The boy shook his head. “No.”
“What about the highway? Did you hike along the highway at all?”
“No, I told you, I came through the fields behind the house.”
“All right. There aren’t any roads that head directly that way. I’ll find the next crossroad and come around on the other side. If anything looks familiar to you, you let me know, okay?”
“Okay.”
Lisa headed north. She drove for a mile, seeing no farms or other vehicles coming or going. The clouds spat on the windshield, enough that she had to run the wipers occasionally. Unlike Laurel, she didn’t like the noise of the radio distracting her. She preferred silence when she drove. The only sounds were the hum of her tires and the shudder of the wind speeding out of the northern plains.
When she spotted a driveway leading across the railroad tracks to a mobile home sheltered inside a grove of birches, she slowed the truck so the boy could take a look. “What about there? Do you remember that place?”
“No, I don’t think so.”
“When the truck stopped, were you near a house? Or was it a trailer like that one?”
“A house, I think. It was dark and rainy, and I couldn’t really see. I don’t remember very well.”
“That’s all right. We’ll keep going.”
Lisa accelerated again. The telephone poles sped by beside them. A solitary truck carrying a load of timber passed going the opposite way. Not long after, she reached an intersection at a single-lane dirt road. There were no structures and no traffic nearby, just two empty roads cutting across each other. She turned right, traveling past farm fields that had already been plowed over for the winter season. Fall colors painted the trees that grew along the ribbon of a creek.
“So you write books?” Purdue asked, breaking the silence.
“Yes, I do.”
“What kind of books?”
“Thrillers.”
“You mean like where people get killed and stuff?”
Lisa smiled. “Sometimes.”
“Is it hard to write a book?”
“It’s very hard.”
“So why do you do it?”
She found herself slowing the pickup, watching the furrows of black dirt in the fields. “Well, I don’t really have a choice. That’s how my brain is wired.”
“What do you mean?”
Lisa pointed out the window. “What do you see out there?”
“Nothing.”
She pulled the truck onto the shoulder. Her wheels splashed through the puddles as she drifted to a stop. “No, seriously. Tell me exactly what you see.”
Purdue folded his arms together as if he were working on a school assignment. “I see tire ruts, like from a tractor. Mud, because it’s been raining. Bits of old cornstalks. Evergreens way far down on the other end of the field. A little bit of smoke going up in the sky, like somebody has a fire. Is that right?”