“Thriss!” Shar scrambled over to her side. Ignoring her halfhearted protests, he hooked her by the arm and eased her to her feet. She stiffened at his touch, jerking away as soon as they reached the bank. Shar’s fears for her well-being persisted until he was satisfied that she sustained only scratches and bruises from her fall. He exhaled raggedly.
Assuming she would resist his help, Shar threw an immovable arm around her waist, guiding her inside the cavern where he’d left his pack. Thriss perched on a rock while he searched for a survival blanket or dry clothing. Teeth chattering, she crossed her arms over her chest, hunched her shoulders and shivered for warmth. Shar dropped down beside her and tended her wounds.
“You shouldn’t have come up here,” he said at last.
“I’m sorry,” she whispered.
As he mended her scrapes, her shivering evolved into trembling. A sob escaped her throat; Shar knew that she wept often. “Come here,” he said, drawing her onto his lap, wrapping her in his arms and pulling her tight against him. He rested his cheek in her hair and rubbed her back. Murmured words from an unknown place inside him settled her. Gradually, her ragged sobs ceased; she hiccupped a few times and then rested her face against his chest with a sigh. Her antennae brushed a ticklish spot beneath his chin.
He didn’t feel like laughing.
He became sensitized to her hands resting on the small of his back, the way she curved into him, molding her body against his. Taking her chin in his hand, he tipped her face up. For as long as he had memories, she was in them. Difficult, childish, lanky…sweet-smelling likechallorn flowers, hair gossamer soft and her eyes—her stormy eyes swallowed him. Exploring the velvet hollows of her throat with his fingertips, he felt her pulse quicken as he traced the edge of her collarbone with his thumb. He stared.
Thriss held Shar’s look, loosened the tie on her blouse, pushed back the wet, clinging fabric, pulling it down to puddle around her waist. He reached for her and hesitated, knowing her apparition would dissolve with his touch as it always did in his dreams. Until she placed his hand on her chest and he felt the warmth of her skin against his palm. Startled by her realness, he pulled away, wincing upon losing his connection with her.
I need her. He received this revelation with the same faith that allowed him to understand the revolution of planets and the nature of light.I need her.
He fumbled with his tunic. With shaking fingers, Thriss, too, clutched at his clothing, but her clumsiness matched his own. Pressing foreheads together they shared an awkward laugh. Hands linked, they yanked his tunic over his head and tossed it on the ground.
They pressed close, antennae touching, stroking, until trembling cascaded over them. He nestled her back against his chest, embedding each delicate vertebra into his skin; his hands settled on the slope of her hips, caressed the curve, and stroked the small of her back. She reached her arms behind her, drawing his face into her neck, knotting her fingers in his locks. All that he had been taught and warned about dissolved into languid twilight. She had been given to him, and he to her. And he accepted at last what elemental thing had been between them since their memories began.
A chime started Shar awake. His eyes opened and he found himself sitting in front off the main console of the Sagan.At last check, it had been close to dawn; now, it was four hours later. The vaguest sense that he was forgetting something lingered in the back of his mind.
“Model complete,”the ship’s computer intoned. “Image available upon request.”
“Display,” Shar ordered. Maybe seeing the model would help jar his memory about which of the three or four data files he’d been working on before he fell asleep. Sleeping was counterproductive, especially when his vivid dreams left him wondering what reality he was in.
I wonder if the others ever suspected. It isn’t like I wear a visible mark,he thought. Recollections of intimacies shared with Thriss often dredged up guilt. Though he’d never regretted the choice to initiate tezha,he knew Anichent and Dizhei would be hurt by their choice to go outside the bond. Not only because it was forbidden but also because their choice implied infidelity to the bond as a whole. Over the last six years, Shar had gradually recognized that he would eventually face consequences for breaking the covenant. Anichent would feel betrayed. Dizhei would fear for the stability of the bond. But Shar was confident they could surmount these obstacles. I’ve maintained strong, healthy relationships with all my bondmates,Shar reasoned. I love them all and I anticipate sharing my life with them for many years to come.
He considered this latest holographic model of Yrythny DNA. Since his trip to the peninsula, Shar had worked, day and night, processing the data by utilizing the Andorian gene-mapping strategies he was familiar with to develop models. Thankfully, he had enough Wanderer data to track the subtle nuances of their genetic drift. Houseborn information was spottier. The samples from the Assembly and those the Hebshu farmers had managed to collect from their Houseborn colleagues provided Shar enough reference points from the past with which to compare current data.
Identifying primary gene functions had been his first priority. Once the chromosomal architecture had been adequately mapped, Shar began tracking mutations and the consequences of those mutations. The computer had spent the night comparing Wanderer samples, synthesizing generalizations about where mutations occurred and what consequences resulted. If there proved to be a pattern, Shar would project future drift and see what conclusions could be drawn.
“Computer, display results from Yrythny data analysis ch’Thane Beta four.”
So far, the results hadn’t yielded many surprises. In the genes governing intelligence, both Wanderer and Houseborn Yrythny had equal potential. Similar results cropped up in areas of physical strength and health. More distinctions existed on the Houseborn side between Houses. What am I not seeing?Shar thought, frustrated. There’s something right here in front of me and I’m not seeing it.
“Shar?” Lieutenant Dax said, climbing through the entry hatch.
His nagging sense of forgetting vanished when he remembered the imminent trip planetside for Homecoming. “Yes, Lieutenant. I’m here.”
“We missed you at breakfast,” Dax said, clicking open a locker and tossing a shoulder bag inside.
“We?”
“We, Ensign.” Keren entered behind Dax, with Vice Chair Jeshoh bringing up the rear.
“Oh. I didn’t realize we’d have company, Lieutenant.”
“Keren and Jeshoh did chair the committees I worked with. It’s only fitting that they come as co-presenters. Besides, Jeshoh is House Perian’s favorite son. We’re VIPs when we travel with him.” Dax slid into the seat beside Shar. “How’s the research coming?”
Shar hesitated. He didn’t want to reveal any strategy Ezri might be still trying to protect.
“Speak freely, Ensign,” Dax said, evidently surmising his reservations “I doubt your study will change much at this point.”
Unfortunately, she’s right,Shar thought regretfully. “On the face of things, the data indicate that the Yrythny, generally, don’t have a lot to differentiate them. Statistically significant variations exist within the body of Houseborn data and the body of Wanderer data, but not between Houseborn and Wanderer.”
“See, Jeshoh, I told you that I was your equal,” Keren teased.
“You can say it, but I don’t believe it,” Jeshoh retorted.
“What’s next?” Ezri asked, thumbing through Shar’s results on her own viewscreen.