“I guess she found herself, ’cause now she’s suing for full custody, claiming I can’t support her precious children on my salary and that I’m neglecting them.”
“If her children are so precious to her, why’d she walk out without so much as a good-bye, leaving you with two toddlers and a mountain of her debts?” Dusty couldn’t understand how anyone could leave those girls.
“She said I was undervaluing myself and my education by settling for the museum job instead of teaching at a university. I know she never understood the total lack of glamour in faculty politics.”
Monica didn’t deserve him or Sharon and Suzie.
Dusty wished she had a place to sit. The office didn’t have a second chair.
“Will you accept the full-time teaching job at the community college? It pays better than the museum.” Dusty knew to the penny how much it paid. She’d turned down the position when the college offered it to her based upon her academic work and the application her parents had filled out in her name-without telling her because they knew she’d never do it herself.
Her stomached roiled at the thought of facing classrooms full of students every day.
But Joe would thrive there.
“I may have to. That would leave you in charge here. I wouldn’t trust anyone else to love this museum as much as I do.” He grinned at her. “Think how much fun you’ll have working with the county commissioners, the tourists, all the grant committees, designing field trips for school children, teaching special classes for teacher in-service days…”
Dusty ran out of the tiny room, bile burning in the back of her throat. Her hands grew clammy. The moment she cleared the doorway to the basement, her breathing eased. Two steps down into the cool dimness, her stomach settled. She hastened back to her dirty potsherds.
She barely noticed Thistle playing jacks with the girls in the lounge. They hummed an almost familiar tune that followed Dusty all the way to the bottom of the stairs.
Dum dee dee do dum dum.
It reminded her of her favorite music box, broken for fifteen years now. But not quite.
Four
“WHAT HAPPENED TO DUSTY?” Thistle asked no one in particular.
The young girls kept bouncing their little ball and collecting the oddly shaped metal stars.
“Oh, some bully beat the crap out of her in the schoolyard about a billion years ago,” the blonde teenager replied, just returning from her tour. She shooed the children into their father’s office.
“Everyone in town knows that story,” snorted the darker girl. “One of the advantages of living in a small town. We all know each other’s dirty laundry.”
Gossip! Thistle wiggled with excited anticipation. Good gossip provided food for Pixies when pollen was rare. But were these girls reliable gossips?
She eyed them closely: exact opposites, tall and fair, short and dark, heavily made up and bare-faced, careful embellishments of lace and jewelry to the blonde’s pioneer costume, the other’s stark and prim. Yet they seemed joined at the hip, true friends. Like Thistle and Dusty used to be.
“Pretend I’m not from around here,” Thistle prodded the girls. “Pretend I was born and raised by wild Pixies in The Ten Acre Wood.”
Both girls giggled. “If it was The Ten Acre Wood, then you were raised by pirates. More barbaric and unlettered than Pixies. Pixies have better manners,” M’Velle said.
“What about Dusty?” Thistle prodded before the girls went into a gigglefest about childhood games. “I know she was really sick for a while, but I thought she got over it.”
“She beat the cancer with chemo and a bone marrow transplant, but her mom insisted on homeschooling her even after she got better. They always eat organic, take their shoes off at the door, and wash their hands like a hundred times a day. Dusty tutored us last summer, but she did most of it by email. I’m Meggie, by the way.” The blonde tossed the words over her shoulder as she reached inside the icebox for a cold drink. She didn’t clean off the can top as Dusty had.
“And I’m M’Velle,” the brunette with milk-chocolate skin added. “Ms. Carrick takes books from the library around to old folks in town who don’t get out much. And she helps her mom organize Garden Club meetings and stuff, again by email. The old folks, and those of us who work at the museum, may be the only people she sees face-to-face.”
“Her mom went ballistic over the cancer thing,” Meggie took up the story. “Blamed the school system for letting Dusty ‘catch’ it when her scrapes and bruises from a playground dustup didn’t heal. As if you can ‘catch’ cancer.” She rolled her eyes in disgust.
“Sounds like guilt to me,” M’Velle snorted. “Mrs. Carrick blames herself for not being able to protect her child from cancer, and then she couldn’t heal her because she wasn’t a perfect bone marrow match. Anyone who has passed high school biology knows that a full sibling has the best chance of being a match.” M’Velle rolled her eyes. “Ms. Carrick plays in the dust down in the basement rather than face reality. And her mom encourages it because she’s still afraid she’ll catch something from another person that will kill her precious baby girl.”
“You know, if Ms. Carrick got out more, she’d learn a few social skills and feel less awkward in public. She’d learn to talk about something-anything-but history and this museum,” Meggie said quietly. “She tells us all the time that practice makes perfect. She should take her own advice. Maybe she’d make a few friends if she took the trouble to go find them.”
Thistle hummed a bit of displeasure into the tune that clung to the back of her throat. Dum dee dee do dum dum.
“What she needs is a date with a bunch of people. Have a few laughs with a guy before she goes on a solo date,” Meggie said.
Thistle wandered around and around the room, her gaze flitting from this to that. Starshine! She missed her wings.
“She needs more than a few laughs. She needs to find someone she can take a mating flight with,” Thistle mused. The music inside her soared in memory.
“A what?” both girls asked in chorus.
“In Pixie, when you fall in love, the truly, deeply, forever kind of love, you both fly up to the tallest branches of the Patriarch Oak in the center of The Ten Acre Wood, the one with mistletoe. Then the female flattens her wings, the male grasps her from behind, and they plummet downward. His wings will slow the flight, but aren’t strong enough to actually fly them both. The girl has to trust him to get her to the ground safely.” Thistle settled on the floor in a corner with her legs crossed. Her middle ached so badly she couldn’t stand up anymore. Her internal music died on a sour note.
“Before you can love that deeply, you have to be friends. There’s responsibility in friendship.”
“Wow! That sounds like the best kind of love ever.” Meggie’s eyes glazed over, lost in a dream.
“Wouldn’t it be easier to face each other, so both of the Pixies can support the flight?” M’Velle asked. She sounded a bit bewildered.
“Oh, that’s fun, too,” Thistle brightened a bit. “But the other, the mating flight depends on that deep and abiding trust. You have to trust the man with your life as well as your heart and soul. He completes you, and fulfills you. There’s nothing else like it.”
“What a beautiful metaphor. Pixie love. I’ll have to use that expression, start a new fad,” Meggie said dreamily, still lost in her imagination. “Maybe I’ll write a story about it.”
“Sounds like you’ve had one of those kinds of relationships.” M’Velle’s eyes narrowed in scrutiny. “What happened? I mean why did the police drop you off here with nothing but a borrowed T-shirt to wear? Seems to me, if you had a guy you trusted so much, you should have called him rather than Dusty Carrick.”