Bijoux was finally dead.
When they finished, they lay side by side on the dirt and listened to the cattle egrets trill overhead and the traffic lumber across the bridge going to Bryan/College Station. The air smelled of water and decaying vegetation and sex.
Chrissie dug a rumpled pack of Virginia Slims from the pocket of her denim skirt. She lit one and blew a plume of smoke sky-ward.
“I love you.” Tom ran his index finger in a circular pattern around one of her breasts.
She sighed and pitched her cigarette in the river. “Daddy always said don’t get lovin’ confused with screwing.”
Tom felt needles cartwheel across his intestines as the last of the meth ricocheted across his battered synapses. He tried to remember what sleep was like.
“But, baby. You said—”
“Bijoux’s gone.” Chrissie stood and brushed the leaves and dirt from her body. “Things’re different now.”
Tom tried not to cry as she dressed, an enormous fatigue making his limbs as heavy and stiff as tree trunks. His skin hurt and his vision turned black at the edges.
Chrissie buttoned her skirt and tramped up the muddy slope without a word.
He lay there for a few moments, thinking about Chrissie and the way she contorted her face when she had an orgasm, the sinews and tendons in her neck and how they came to the surface of her silky skin. He thought about doing her again and about the last hit of Ice, the crystalized amphetamine, in his briefcase in the car.
Tom scrambled into his clothes and ran after her.
Two minutes later he stepped off the path and onto the asphalt parking lot near the boat landing on the east side of the river. Bijoux Watson’s lemon-yellow Jaguar was the only car visible.
Chrissie stood by the front passenger door with her arms crossed, staring intently at the smudged and cracked windshield.
Tom walked over and stood next to her.
Explosive residue, blood and liquified body parts coated the inside of the glass.
Bijoux had been in the driver’s seat, a two-kilo package of what he thought was Mexican skag sitting between his legs, when Tom pressed the button, detonating the ten blasting caps nestled in the bag of Piggly Wiggly brown sugar. He and Chrissie had been thirty yards away, underneath a live oak tree with their cigarettes. Bijoux, a loan shark, pimp and dope dealer, was a rabid antismoker.
Tom said, “Guess we didn’t think this through.”
“No shit, Einstein.” Chrissie closed her eyes and pinched the bridge of her nose Town was ten miles away. They’d ridden here with the dead man to make the transaction, claiming the stuff was hidden by the river.
“What’s your plan now?” she said.
Tom opened the front passenger door of the car.
A rank wave of hot air that smelled like blood and feces hit his face, making him gag for a moment.
He took a deep breath and grabbed his briefcase, dislodging what looked like a one of Bijoux’s testicles. He plopped his carryall on the hood of the car, opened it and rummaged through the contents until he found the foil-wrapped nugget of methamphetamine. The pipe lay underneath some loan documents due at the title company a week ago, next to the Glock .40-caliber pistol he’d started carrying ever since he’d gotten tangled up with Bijoux Watson.
His fingers fumbled as he jammed the drug into the bowl of the pipe. With the battered Zippo his father had carried in Vietnam, he ignited the crystalized narcotic. Two big lungfuls and all the confidence, power and cojones on the planet coursed through his veins, as thick and fast and strong as the muddy waters a few hundred feet away.
Chrissie appeared at his side with a canvas bag she’d evidently found in the trunk. She opened it and pulled out a Ziploc sack full of dirty brown powder.
“Bijoux always traveled with a stash.” She licked her lips and produced a needle and a blackened tablespoon from the bottom of the bag.
Tom offered her the pipe.
She grabbed it and inhaled deeply. Then, she set about cooking a dose of heroin.
“Baby, don’t do that,” Tom said. “Shit’s bad for you, dirty needles and all that other stuff.”
“Don’t knock it until you’ve tried it.” She lowered her voice. “It makes sex incredible.” She pointed the needle at him. “Gimme your arm.”
Tom looked at the syringe and then at Chrissie’s face. Her eyes were wide with what he assumed to be anticipation. He wanted to say no, but because he had just ingested over a gram of primo Ice and had all the confidence, power and cojones in the world, he stuck his arm out.
Chrissie smiled, found a suitable vein and slid the needle in, giving him half the load. She then injected the rest into a blood vessel in her thigh. Together they sat on the grimy asphalt and leaned against the side of Bijoux Watson’s bloody Jaguar. Tom felt like there was nothing he couldn’t do, no task or challenge he couldn’t accomplish. Except for the fact he had no energy, he thought at that moment he could climb Mount Everest.
Chrissie fell against him and said that just as soon as they came down a little, she’d fuck him so hard his toenails would hurt.
Later, it could have been thirty minutes or thirty seconds, Tom heard the crunch of tires.
He opened his eyes as a county squad car pulled up and stopped a few feet from the Jag.
A deputy got out.
Tom recognized him and struggled to remember the man’s name. Dean something. Dean, Jr. had been in his wife’s Sunday-school class a couple of years ago.
“Tom? Is that you?” Deputy Dean squinted in the afternoon sun and leaned down to get a closer look. “Whole town’s looking for you. You ain’t been to the bank in three days.” The deputy rubbed one hand over his mouth, and his eyes got wide as he looked from Chrissie back to Tom. “You okay? What’s wrong with your pupils?”
Tom nodded and pushed himself off the ground, the uppers and downers in his system making everything deliciously hazy and warm and happy.
“Dean, it’s damn good to see you.” He enunciated each syllable with extreme precision. “The bank. Um, yes, the bank. The bank. They need these very important documents. At the bank. Very soon, Dean. Can you help me with that?”
Tom turned his back to the officer and reached inside the briefcase
“Uh, yeah, sure,” the deputy said. “Anything you need.”
Tom remembered the man’s last name. Chambers. Dean Roy Chambers, his wife and two children lived in a double-wide on nine acres just outside of town. Tom’s bank had made the loan.
“Who is she?” the deputy said. “Are you all right, ma’am?”
“She’s fine.” Tom turned and smiled.
Then he shot Dean Chambers in the cheek, about a quarter inch to the left of his nose, with the .40-caliber Glock.
The bullet was one of those fancy armor-piercing hollow-points the liberal gun-control freaks loved to whine about. It made a big hole exiting the back of the deputy’s head.
Chrissie snapped awake as the blast roiled across the empty parking lot.
“What the hell?”
“Took care of the issue, baby.” Tom squared his shoulders and sucked his gut in. “Goddamn, that’s what I’m talking about.”
“You fucking killed a cop.” Chrissie stood up, legs wobbly. “That ain’t taking care of no issues. That’s making new ones.”
“He’d seen us together, baby.” Tom stuck the gun in his waistband. His heart thumped a disco beat in his rib cage, whump whump whump. “Couldn’t do anything else. Besides, got us a ride out of here.”
“Ah, Tommy. You’re the greatest.” She staggered toward the cop car.
Tom grabbed his briefcase and ran after her. “I—I love you, baby.”
Why does any man begin an affair? Was it the impending fortieth birthday and the loss of vigor and sexual prowess traditionally associated with middle age?
Or was it the utter banality of living with the same woman for the past fifteen years, through the ups and downs of raising three children and a succession of overly precocious golden retrievers. Tom thought it something more profound, the need deep inside every male to experience one thing to the fullest, to nurture a spark into a roaring fire. To throw away the rearview mirror of life and press the accelerator to the floor. To be a man, dammit.