I called his name a few times, but he didn’t turn around to see who was chasing him. I caught up with him, splashing across the pavement. I grabbed his arm. He jerked away and gave me a shove that pushed me back two feet.
“I need to talk to you,” I said above the pounding rain.
My shoes were filling with water. So were my eyes and ears. My clothes were heavy with water. “When was the last time you talked to Lou Bennett?” I shouted at his back as he bent over to unlock his car.
He didn’t answer me. He just started to open the door. I probably wouldn’t have done it if I’d had to think it through. I rushed at him, slamming the door shut before he could stop me.
He moved so fast I wasn’t sure what he was doing, until an enormous hand clutched my throat, started choking me. I could hear people shouting as they realized what was going on. I managed to hit him hard on the side of his eye. His hands loosened enough for me to pull out of his grasp. Then he shoved me again. The wet surface of the street worked like ice. I skidded backward several feet, doing a silent comedy routine of wheeling arms and stumbling feet as I tried to stay upright. But it didn’t work. I landed on my butt, landed hard enough that I was stunned when my body slammed the concrete. I just sat there then getting wetter and wetter, watching him get into his Bonneville. My throat was raw from where he’d choked me.
I could have stayed there awhile, I suppose, but the cars honking for me to get out of the way made me change my mind. Getting soaked and choked was enough for right now. I wasn’t quite ready for getting run over.
I drank a beer and read about a third of Graham Greene’s It’s a Battlefield while I soaked in a tub of water so hot, they probably could have served me as an entree to cannibals. My cat Tasha kept me company by dozing on top of the clothes hamper. I had a Gene Pitney album blasting in the living area.
The hot water had taken care of my scratchy throat. By the time I’d climbed the rear steps to my apartment, I was sneezing. The sneezing was gone now, too.
I finished by taking a brief cold shower before grabbing my terry-cloth robe and going into the kitchen area and shoving a TV dinner into the oven. Sometimes they tasted better with the aluminum foil on. I tried not to remember Jane saying that after we were married, TV dinners would be banned forever from that misty sentimental mythic home we’d be building.
I ate as always in front of the TV set. There had been small anti-war protests across the country, the only one of note being in Berkeley. The local channels would be running the stories about Lou Bennett’s murder and the anti-war meeting that had preceded it.
I was shoving myself into T-shirt and jeans when the phone rang. These days, a call had a paralyzing effect on me. Maybe my heart even stopped for a single second. Would it be Jane? And if it was Jane, what would she say? And if it was Jane, what would I say?
A woman crying: “Have you talked to him?” I wasn’t quite sure who it was until she said: “This book idea is insane.”
When I realized who it was, I almost smiled. Was she finally seeing him as I saw him? “I’m not his lawyer any more, Molly.”
“They’ll convict him. He doesn’t seem to understand that.” Then: “I just worked up enough courage to call you now.”
“Didn’t he tell you that I’d talked to him?”
“He said he’d fired you.”
“Of course he said he’d fired me. It’ll make a better story for the book. I quit, is what happened. He’s going to get in so deep, he’ll never get out. He lives in a fantasy world, Molly.”
“But I love him so much. I don’t care how much he lies or cheats or steals.”
“He steals?”
“Just cars. And not all that often.”
“Ah.”
“You’re so judgmental, McCain.”
“Yes, I even thought that Hitler wasn’t all that nice a guy.”
“You and your sarcasm. Now you have to help him. You just have to.”
At least she’d quit crying. I decided to try and make her feel better. “I’m still working on the case. I think he’s innocent. But I’m not doing this for him, Molly. He’s a jerk.”
“He’s not a jerk. He’s artistic, and most people don’t know how to handle artistic people.”
Not much I could say to that. If bunco artist was a synonym for artistic, fine, he was artistic.
“Will you tell me the minute you find something, so I know he’ll be all right?”
“Sure, Molly. But there aren’t any guarantees.”
“But you and the judge always prove that Cliffie’s wrong.”
“There’s always a first time, Molly.”
“But you know he’s innocent.”
“I’ll do what I can, Molly. The best thing you can do is visit him as often as Cliffie will let you and bring him cigarettes and any food you can.”
“He wants to be a painter and actor and symphony composer, McCain. And I know if I just support him for a few years, he’ll be able to be all those things. That way he won’t have to, you know, steal stuff any more. We’ve already talked about it.”
Jamie had a bullshit artist who’d started a surfing band in Iowa, and now Molly had a bullshit artist who was going to rival Leonard Bernstein while also giving Brando and Gauguin a run for their money.
“I’ll get back to you, Molly.”
“I really appreciate this, McCain. I’m sure he’ll give you one of his paintings and it’ll be worth millions some day.”
“Uh-huh.”
“I can tell you’re sneering. But I’m serious. People will be falling all over themselves to buy his paintings.”
“That’s because they’ll be drunk. Blind drunk.”
“You’re so smug, McCain. That was probably one of the reasons I didn’t fall in love with you.”
“Because I’m smug?”
“Yes.”
“Good. I was afraid it was because I didn’t know Joan Baez.”
“God, you’re so childish. You don’t recognize a great artist even when you see one.”
“Molly-” But what was the use? I was just bitter because I looked on guys like Elmer Fudd and Turk as masterminds of a sort. Not only did they get women to give them sex and shelter; they got them to support them in their fantasy lives.
“Molly, I’m sorry about being such a jerk. You believe in him, and that’s good enough for me.”
“Are you setting me up for a joke?”
“Nope. I like you. We’re friends. So I want to help you.”
“Jeez, that’s really nice of you, thanks. And I shouldn’t have said that about you being smug. I mean for the reason I didn’t fall in love with you.”
“That’s all right.”
“I mean, technically I didn’t fall in love with you for other reasons. But there’s no point going into them now, is there? We’re friends and that’s all that matters. Thanks again, McCain.”
I had another Hamm’s and sat with my bare feet on the coffee table while cats Tasha and Crystal slept on my outstretched legs. I tried not to think about the “other reasons” Molly hadn’t fallen in love with me. But of course I did. Not fall in love with me? How was that possible?
Around seven thirty, the phone rang again. I reached behind the couch to the small table where I’d dragged it.
“I had dinner out tonight, Sam, or I would’ve told you earlier.”
It was my landlady, Mrs. Goldman, the one who looks like Lauren Bacall will at sixty. If Bacall is lucky.
“You got six or seven calls this afternoon. I was hanging laundry in the back yard. Somebody really wanted to get hold of you.”
Not Molly: she said she’d just worked up the courage to call earlier. I thought of my father. Six or seven calls. Had my mother been trying to find me?
“Well, whoever it was hasn’t called back. But I appreciate you telling me.”