Her body had no reservations left, and her heart had only one. She turned over and straddled Gaby. They kissed, and Cirocco began to stroke her.
"I can't say I love you and be honest about it, because I'm not sure I'd know what it felt like with a woman. I'd die defending you, and your welfare is more important to me than any other human being. I've never had a friend as good as you. If that isn't enough, I'll stop."
"Don't stop."
"When I loved a man, once, I wanted to have his children. What I feel for you is very close to what I felt then, but it doesn't have that. I desire you... oh, so bad I can't even express it. But I can't say for sure that I love you."
Gaby smiled.
"Life is full of disappointments." She put her arms around Cirocco and pulled her down.
For five days the wind howled outside. On the sixth, the thaw began, and lasted until the seventh day.
it was dangerous to go out during the thaw. Chunks of ice came crashing down from above, making a terrible racket. When it stopped, they emerged, blinking, into a world that was cool, and shining with water, and whispering to them.
They worked their way out to the top of the nearest tree, heard the whispering grow louder. As the smaller branches began to bend beneath their weight, they entered a gentle rain: big drops falling in slow motion from leaf to leaf.
The air in the center of the column was clear, but all around them, as far as they could see, the walls were wreathed in rain- bows as the melted ice worked its way down through the foliage to the new lake on the spoke floor.
"What now?" Gaby asked.
"In. In, and up. We've lost a lot of time."
Gaby nodded. "I don't mind, you know that, as long as it's where you're going. But would you tell me once more-why? "
Cirocco was about to say it was a stupid question, but realized it was not. She had admitted to Gaby during their long incarceration that she no longer believed she would find anyone in control at the hub. She did not know herself when she had stopped believing it.
"I made a promise to Meistersinger," she said. "And now I have no further secrets from you. Not one."
Gaby frowned. "A promise to do what?"
"To see if there is anything I can do to stop the war between the Titanides and the angels. I didn't tell anyone about it. I'm not sure why. "
"I see. Do you think there's anything you can do?"
"No." Gaby said nothing, but continued to search her eyes. "I have to give it a try. Why are you looking at me like that?"
Gaby shrugged. "No reason. I'll just be curious to know your reasons for going on after we find the angels. We will he going on, won't we?"
"I suppose so. Somehow it seems like the right thing to do."
CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
The world was an endless series of trees to climb. Each was a variation on the same problem, as different as snowflakes, yet with a numbing sameness. What communication was needed to get through them could be accomplished by hand motions and grunts. They became a perfect tree-climbing machine, one body moving forever upward. They climbed for twelve hours at a stretch. When they camped, they slept like the dead.
Below them, the floor opened and a sea of water fell over Rhea. It remained open for a few weeks, then closed when the roof opened and the frigid winds blew once more, forcing them to take shelter. Five days of darkness and they were out again, and climbing.
They were six days past their third winter when they saw their first angel. They stopped climbing, and watched him watching them.
He was near the top of the tree, indistinct through the branches. They had beard angels walling before, sometimes followed by the sound of giant wings flapping. Still, so far, Cirocco's knowledge of angels was limited to one frozen moment when she had seen one impaled on a Titanide spear.
He was smaller than Gaby, with a huge chest and spindly
arms and legs. He had claws instead of feet. MS wings emerged just above his hips so that in flight he would be prone with the same amount of weight on each side of the wings. Folded, they reached over his head with the tips trailing below the branch he perched on. The flight surfaces on his legs, arms, and tall were neatly folded.
Having noted all those differences, Cirocco had to admit that the most startling thing about him was his humanness. He looked like a child dying of malnutrition, but it was a human child.
Gaby glanced at Cirocco, who shrugged, then motioned for her to be ready for anything. She took a step forward.
The angel shrieked and danced backward. His wings unfolded to their full nine-meter span and he poised, beating them lazily to remain on branches too thin to hold his weight.
"We'd just like to talk to you." She held out her hands. The angel shrieked again, and was gone. They could bear the roaring of his wings as he gained altitutde.
Gaby looked at Cirocco. She raised one eyebrow and made a motion with one hand, questioningly.
"Right. Up"
"Captain."
Ciracco froze instantly. Ahead, Gaby was jerked to a stop as the rope between them grew taut.
"What?" Gaby asked.
"Quiet. Listen."
They waited, and in a few minutes the call came again. This time, Gaby heard it, too.
"It couldn't be Gene," Gaby whispered.
"Calvin?" As soon as she said it, she recognized the voice. It was oddly changed, but she knew it.
"April. "
"Right," came the reply, though Cirocco had not said it very loud. "Talk?"
"Of course I want to talk. Where the hell are you?"
"Below. I see you. Don't come back."
"Why not? Dammit, April, we've been hoping you'd turn up for months. August has been going crazy." Cirocco was frowning. Something was wrong, and she wanted to know what it was.
"I come to you, or not at all. You come to me, I fly away."
She perched in the small branches, twenty meters from the two women. Even at that distance Cirocco could make out her face, exactly like August's. She was an angel, and Cirocco was sick.
She seemed to have trouble speaking. There were long pauses between sentences.
"Please do not come closer. Do not move in my direction. We can talk this way for only a short time."
"Surely you don't think we'll hurt you?"
"And why not? I..." She stopped, edging away.
"No, I suppose not. But I could no more let you approach than I could hold my hand in a fire. You smell wrong."
"Does it have to do with the Titanides? "
"With what?"
"The centaurs. The people you make war with."
She hissed and backed away. "Do not speak of them."
"I don't think I can avoid it."
"Then I must leave. I will try to return." With a loud cry, she plunged through the leaves. They heard her wings for a short time, then it was as if she had never been with them.
Cirocco looked at Gaby, who sat with her feet dangling. Her face was somber.
"It's awful," sirocco whispered. "What happened to us? "
"I was hoping she could give us some answers. Whatever it was, it hit her the worst. Worse than Gene."
She returned a few hours later but could not answer the questions that mattered most. it appeared she had not even been thinking about them.
"How should I know?" she said. "I was in the darkness, I woke up, and I was as you see me. It didn't matter, and it doesn't matter now."
"Can you explain that?"
"I'm happy. No one wanted me or my sisters. No one loved us. Well, now I don't need it. I am of the Eagle clan, proud and alone."
Cautious questioning brought out what it meant to be of the Eagle clan. It was not a tribe or association, as April had seemed to imply; rather, it was a species within the genus angel.