"And you didn't bother to tell us?" Sir Caleb asked.
"Stingy lad wanted her all to himself, he did." Kurtz snorted. "Royalty, eh?"
"It was her decision to tell," Sir Gavin said. "It still is."
The memory of the day's events brought a gasp to her lips-or was this a new day now? — Khai had stabbed her. And she'd stabbed him back. Was he dead?
Achan!
She sat up. Fiery pain stabbed her side and she cried out.
A shadow shifted on the wall. Sir Eagan rose from a chair in the corner of her room and walked toward her. "Lay back, Vrell. You've been stabbed, though I suspect you remember."
"Achan is in trouble."
Sir Eagan stopped beside her bed. "Achan is here. He is wounded and moving slow, but he shall recover."
Vrell sighed. Praise Arman.
Kurtz stepped into the doorway and grinned. His lengthy stare made her uncomfortable. She pulled the blankets to her chin. She should lie down, but what if she could not sit up again? She wanted to go to Achan. He might need care.
"Kurtz, would you leave us a moment?" Sir Eagan asked.
Kurtz straightened. "Why would I do that, eh?"
"So I can check my patient's wounds.
Vrell stared at Sir Eagan with wide eyes. He did not smile but held her gaze.
"Bah," Kurtz said. "Nothing I haven't seen before, eh?"
Vrell's cheeks warmed.
"Stand guard outside," Sir Eagan said.
Kurtz growled and pulled the door closed behind him.
Sir Eagan sat on the edge of her bed. "Removing your gown was necessary to treat your wound. Forgive my invasion of your privacy. Sir Gavin insisted I not call a woman healer."
Vrell looked down at the bulges at the end of the blanket that were her feet.
Sir Eagan went on. "As I worked on your wound, I could not help but notice you do not bear this mark of the stray as Achan does. I have a theory, my lady, that might offend if I am mistaken. But if I am not…well…I must know. Might you be Lady Averella Amal of Carmine?"
Vrell's eyes swelled. "Sir Gavin told you?"
He grinned. "Nay, my lady. My strength has always been observing. Since the day we met, I knew you were not a man and most definitely not a stray."
"How?" Vrell thought of how Jax mi Katt had said, You do not smell like a man.
"You are elegant. Even when you try to be clumsy it is gracefully done. Your skin is fair, clearly not lived a lifetime of hard labor in the sun. You are petite, and I have never met a boy of fourteen who was not all arms and legs. You could not stomach being in the room where Achan was bathing. And though you sometimes try to doctor your speech, having lived my whole life as heir to my father's household, your highborn tongue is hard to hide.
"Of course, there is also the fact the duchess and I are…old friends. There are parts of you that look very much like her." He reached out and cupped the side of her face with his hand. "And parts of you that look…"
Tears flooded Vrell's eyes. It could not be as she had suspected. It could not.
He lowered his hand. "Have no fear, my lady. I mean you no ill will. Only, would you not be safer in your mother's household?"
Vrell released a shaky breath, thankful Sir Eagan had not voiced her fear. "Sir Gavin said we travel to Carmine next."
"And what of Achan? Does he know your real name?"
Vrell shook her head. "Please do not tell him. I never meant to deceive him so. Prince Gidon-Esek-he wanted to marry me, to control Carm. I would rather have died than marry him for any reason. Mother helped me hide in Walden's Watch with Lady Coraline."
"My aunt."
"Oh!" Vrell wrinkled her nose, mind spinning. "But…is she not younger than you?"
Sir Eagan nodded. "Life is funny that way sometimes."
"Yes." How could Vrell be so calm? Talk so easily to Sir Eagan? He was practically a stranger, yet-dare she think it? — maybe so much more. A peaceful calm compelled her to go on.
"The Kingsguards took me from Walden's Watch to train under Master Hadar. I was trapped until Achan came. I fled with him and the knights into Darkness. I knew he suspected something. My lies were becoming too complicated for him not to catch on. He is quite smart when he is using his head."
Sir Eagan raised his eyebrows.
Vrell pulled her hand to her lips. "Oh, I meant no disrespect. But Achan often gets so caught up in his plans, he becomes obsessed."
Sir Eagan nodded. "It is a trait his father had as well. Both blessing and curse."
Vrell studied the thick weave of her wool blanket. "Achan told Sir Gavin that I was hiding something. Sir Gavin cornered me the second night of our journey and demanded the truth or he would leave me behind."
Sir Eagan scowled. "Horrible brute."
Vrell cracked a smile. "He was only doing his duty. And once I confessed, Sir Gavin was a great help."
Sir Eagan chuckled and patted her hand. "It is hard to imagine Gavin as your only confidant. How awkward it must have been for you all these months."
"Yes. Yes, it was awkward, but…"
"You love Achan."
Sir Eagan simple declaration brought a rush of heat to Vrell's head. An overwhelming ache seized her at the memory of his kiss, his intense eyes, the way he'll held her in his arms. "No, my lord. I… betrothed…" Her voice cracked. "Bran Rennan of Carmine." Tears swelled in her eyes. Bran did not love her, if he ever really had. Could anyone really? She was so plain and skinny, with a voice like a mule.
She continued trying to convince Sir Eagan, distract him from his train of thought. "Bran squires for your brother, you know. He and Sir Rigil are both working in Carmine."
"You do know Achan loves you?"
Vrell sniffled. "You are mistaken, my lord. He is like a brother to me." Achan was simply confused. Soon he would meet a beautiful woman like Tara or Gren. One the knights would approve of. Then he would forget about Vrell.
Sir Eagan offered a sympathetic smile. "When Achan returned, he limped outside your door, bleeding all over the floor, until the hops tea I forced him to drink bested him." Sir Eagan took her hand again. Calm stretched over her body like another blanket. "Will you not miss your brother when you are home and he moves on?"
"It matters not." Tears overflowed Vrell's eyes and coursed down her cheeks. "I will not let him think I betrayed him or did not trust him."
"Forgive me, my lady, but is that not what you have been doing all along? Why not confess?"
"Because I…I did not want to be one more liar in his life. I know it is deceitful. Please, I beg you. Let him know me as Vrell Sparrow, a stray girl who simply refused to be anyone's mistress. And let him meet Averella Amal in another life."
"If that is your wish, my lady, I promise to hold your secret safe. Though I have never found secrets make life easier."
"That is my burden to bear."
"Very well." He squeezed her hand and let go. "I will take you home myself. Tomorrow, if you are feeling up to the ride."
Tears flooded Vrell's eyes. "You would do that?"
"Yes. I would very much like to see your mother again. It has been far too long."
Vrell stared up at Sir Eagan. Could he also be suffering from a secret long kept? She wanted to ask if he was her father, but did she really want to know?
Regardless, the words would not come.
"Achan will shadow my mind, I suspect. I can do nothing to hide from him."
"There is a way, actually. I could teach you the trick, though it will not work forever. He is too strong. Eventually someone will teach him the way around our trick." He stood. "Tomorrow, my lady, I shall teach you. For now, try to sleep. You must rest if we are to travel."
"Please do not tell Achan we are leaving."
"Sir Gavin will have to know."