Eric pulled out of her and got shakily to his feet. He looked down at us with something like contempt, then went to the chair and sat down.
I knew then that he was done. Whatever hold he'd had over her-whatever respect she'd felt for him-was over and done with. Ellen stayed pressed against me, her lips locked against mine. I felt Eric's semen running down over my balls, still warm from her body, but Ellen didn't even seem to notice it. She only had eyes for me.
She began to fuck me, moving her bruised and battered body over me, squeezing me inside and drawing me into her. It was all over now. All the deals had been made; all the debts had been paid. Now it was just her and me fucking, feverishly intent on sucking the joy from each other's body.
I grabbed onto her ass and began to guide her up and down, faster and faster, making her ride me like a jockey in the home stretch. I began to fuck up into her with a strength I didn't know I possessed, knocking the breath from her body and mashing her pussy flat in my frenzy of possession. Ellen held onto me for dear life, her arms wrapped around my head as if in danger of being thrown off, and soon I was pistoning up into her with terrible speed, my loins smacking against her with an obscene slapping sound.
"Oh fuck!" I shouted, not caring who heard. "I'm coming, Ellen! I'm coming!"
"Yes! Yes! Yes!" she screamed and then covered my mouth with hers, pressed herself against me as I exploded into her in a ripping, ferocious orgasm, conscious of nothing but Ellen's body trembling on top of me.
When it was over, I was drained. All the anguish, the shame, the tension and fear-everything was just drained out of me. Ellen still lay on top of me, gasping for breath.
Eric stood up and said, "Fine. I guess you'll want to go home with him then. Just leave me the keys to the shop."
He offered us another drink, just to show us there were no hard feelings, but we declined. There was no point in staying.
It would be nice if Ellen and I had run away together and lived happily ever after, but life's not that simple. She couldn't leave the store, and a divorce would have been expensive. She did go home with me that night, the first of many nights, and our romance turned into something beautiful-odd, but still beautiful.
We often talked about that night, and I asked her whether she'd known what was going to happen back at their place, whether she'd known about the three-way. Her answer was yes, she'd known. She'd agreed to it, in fact. She wasn't comfortable cheating on her husband, but she had no qualms about cheating with him. She was a remarkable woman.
She still went into the store, and Eric remained a friend, or maybe associate was a better word. He'd taken to combing through the estate sales and flea markets for old records hunting for another big find, so I never had the heart to tell him that I'd had that Robert Johnson record in my possession from the start. That would only have queered the deal.
I AM NOBODY’S
Prologue
“I don’t know what to do.”
“Don’t look at me, it’s not my decision.”
I rolled my eyes at him. “Very helpful.”
“What do you want from me? I’m not going to beg you to stay.”
“I never asked you that!” I felt my voice rise again and forced myself to calm down. He had a way of making me lose control. Sometimes it could be good, very good indeed, especially if we were together in bed. But other times, like now, I just really wanted to hit him. “Never mind,” I finally replied before leaving the room.
“You’re such a dickhead.”
Noah glared back at me and quickly left the room.
“That went well.” Kade’s eyebrows rose.
“Shut up,” I snapped back. Rubbing my tired eyes, I sat down in a corner of the dressing-room. Fuck, fuck, fuck. I could never get anything right!
“What’s going on?”
“Nothing that concerns you, Kade.”
“It does if it has an impact on Noah’s performance.”
I laughed, the sound sharp and brittle. “Do you really think this is going to affect him? You know him better than that surely.”
He sighed, his hand grabbing mine. “Why do you stay with him?”
“I don’t know.”
He nudged my chin with his free hand and our gazes locked. I felt my eyes widen at the intensity in his. Uh oh. Time to run.
I tugged my hand free, jumped up from my chair and ran out of the room.
This wasn’t good.
It’d taken me a while but I’d finally understood why I was still in this situation.
Why, even if Noah was driving me nuttier by the minute, I was still sharing his room.
The ex-girlfriend who didn’t want to cut free.
It was pathetic.
And it was all his fault.
Chapter One
“Do you really think I can’t see what’s happening?”
“Uh?” I looked up from my book. I was sitting against the headboard, Noah sprawled at the end of the bed as he played some kind of video game. “What?”
His eyes never leaving the plasma screen in front of him, he said, “I see the way he looks at you.”
“I have no idea what you’re talking about.”
“Don’t lie to me, baby. I know you better than anyone else on this tour.”
“Considering we were together for six months, I sure hope so,” I commented before focusing on my book once again.
“I won’t hold it against you.”
That was it. I sighed and dropped the book onto the bedspread next to me. “What the hell does that mean?”
He pressed ‘pause’ on his joystick and turned around to face me. “If you want to fuck him,” he licked his lips and added, “I won’t mind.”
I gasped but remained silent for a moment, unable to find a suitable response.
“You’re joking, right?”
He shook his head. “Nope. I can see he wants you. And we’re not together anymore after all.”
“You wouldn’t mind if I had sex with Kade?” I was past incredulous.
“Nope. It’s your life.”
I looked at him, taking in the boy I’d come to love and hate. He appeared unfazed, making me realize he’d obviously thought about this. “I don’t get it.” I really didn’t.
“What’s not to get? You want him, right?” He didn’t even wait for my approval before he added, “Why don’t you go see if he’s in his room?”
“Now?”
“Sure.” He looked at what I was wearing. “Just change your clothes first. Wear something sexy. And put on some make-up-he likes make-up.”
I blinked. This was just too weird. Why was Noah pushing me into his friend’s bed all of a sudden? And why in hell wasn’t he at least a little bit jealous? “You don’t seem to mind.”
He shrugged. “I told you. We’re over. You can do whatever you want with whomever you want.”
“Even Kade.”
“Yup.”
That’s when I realized something else. If I slept with Kade, Noah would be able to sleep with whomever he wanted too.
Of course.
God, I really was stupid.
He just wanted to be free to screw a groupie or two with no guilt.
And just because I wanted to make his life difficult, I’d ignored his advice and gone back to my book. He’d growled a few times, made a few scathing remarks but I’d kept on ignoring him and he’d grown bored of it after a while.
I’d turned the lights off an hour or so later and climbed into bed. He’d joined me some time during the night, his body nearly touching mine.
I knew what he wanted. After that fateful day, when he’d decided we were over, we’d tried going cold turkey. Except that doing nothing after so many months making love several times a day had proved too much-for the both of us.
So here I was, still hanging on. Still in his bed.
It was torture being with Noah like this. Because a part of me still loved him. The part he hadn’t crushed when he’d told me all those things. How I wasn’t enough. That it wasn’t fun anymore. That he wanted something else from his life.