It was odd, I reflected, that part of me didn't feel any older than on the day I'd left here with my diploma. Since then I'd entered a profession I'd never given a prior thought to; I'd dealt with people and situations that would have made that graduate's flesh creep; I'd often been in extreme danger, had coped as best I could with violence and death, had even been forced to kill a man. I was more cynical, more judgmental, more prone to anger. But deep inside there was a wistful, yearning part that still felt twenty-three years old.
The changes in Berkeley were contradictory, too. The old landmarks remained, but interspersed among them were new buildings and a fair number of trendy shops and restaurants. The quiet, somewhat funky town of my memory has become chic these days: home of the Gourmet Ghetto, pioneering frontier of the New California Cuisine. The university, while still a major player, is no longer the only game in town. On the streets where you once mainly saw students on bicycles or in beat-up basic-transportation vehicles, you're now just as likely to spot well-heeled executive types in BMWs. Of course, the direction of progress has not been totally upscale: as I reached the edge of campus and went to turn left on Shattuck, I was momentarily taken aback by an enormous McDonald's. Not everyone in Berkeley, apparently, is a gourmet.
Luke Widdows had told me his house was on a section of Walnut Street a block from a shopping complex called Walnut Square. I found it-two-storied, white clapboard, wrapped by a wide porch-and parked in the driveway as directed. His office, he'd said, was in the carriage house out back. I followed a meandering dirt path through a vegetable garden to the smaller structure-shabbier than the main house, with a steeply canting roof. When I knocked on the screen door, Widdows answered immediately.
He was a slender man with curly brown hair and a fluffy beard, dressed in khakis and a blue T-shirt. There was an openness in his manner that I liked, and he seemed so glad to see me that I guessed my arrival had saved him from some distasteful task. He ushered me into a room with a paperstrewn desk and a pair of comfortable old armchairs, offered coffee, and went to fetch it.
"The nice thing about working out here," he called from the next room, "is that there's a small kitchen. I don't need to go to the main house if I don't want to. Which is a blessing, because I rent a couple of rooms to students who like loud music. Do you take anything in your coffee?"
"Just black."
"Me, too."
Widdows returned and handed me a large mug, then sank into the opposite armchair, eyeing me with frank interest. "Private detective, huh?" he said. "How'd you get into that line of work?"
"I got a degree in sociology from Cal."
He laughed knowingly. "Mine was in journalism."
"I'd say that's a bit more practical."
"Not much. In journalism, there's no teacher like hands-on experience."
"Well, obviously you've acquired that."
"All of it the hard way." He spoke without bitterness or self-pity; whatever his trials had been, they seemed to amuse him. As he slouched in the chair, one leg thrown over its arm, bare foot dangling, I glanced at the chaotic desk and computer setup-reminders of the work I was probably interrupting.
I said, "I don't want to keep you from anything pressing."
"You are-and I'm delighted. This morning I couldn't get any of the Jumble-that word scramble in the paper-so I know this is going to be one of those days when I won't be able to string the parts of a sentence together. You wanted to know about Perry Hilderly?"
"Yes. I understand he worked for you at New Liberty."
"If you could say that any of us really worked. Perry was a reporter. Investigative, I guess you could loosely term it. He couldn't write worth a lick-I had to rewrite most of what he turned in-but he was a Movement figure, had contacts with people who might not otherwise have talked with reporters."
"How long was he at the magazine?"
"He started in sixty-eight, after he left Berkeley."
"And he lived in San Francisco then?"
"Somewhere in the lower Fillmore district, I think. A lot of Movement people did back then-it was cheap, and they could get in touch with the 'real people,' as we were fond of calling minorities."
"And he went to Vietnam in sixty-nine?"
"Spring, it was. He came to me, said he was burned out and disillusioned with the Movement. He wanted to see firsthand what the war was all about. We didn't have the funds to pay him, but we struck a deal that if he paid his way, we'd supply press credentials. So off he went."
"And what did he report on?"
"He hadn't so much as delivered a line of copy by the time the magazine folded." Momentarily Widdows looked regretful. "That was my fault, I'm afraid. My draft board was after me-this happened about a month after Perry left for 'Nam-so I took what I thought was the easy way out and split for Vancouver. The magazine never had strong management after I left."
Now I eyed him with interest. Strangely enough, I'd never met anyone who had moved to Canada to avoid the draft. "From the way you phrase it, I take it the 'easy way out' wasn't?"
"Not really. Draft resisters weren't all that welcome up there. There were simply too many of us, and not enough jobs. Not enough commitment to the country for the Canadians to accept us. And a lot of us got homesick-I know I did. I came back here under the amnesty program. Wrote a book about my experiences that did well enough that I could buy this house. I'm pretty apolitical these days; mainly what I write is gardening books and articles. You saw my vegetables?"
I nodded, thinking that Luke Widdows was as much of a victim of the turmoil of the war days as those who had gone to Asia and fought.
"Where did you first meet Perry?" I asked.
"Here in Berkeley. I interviewed him for a couple of articles in the Daily Cal."
"Can you tell me something about the people he was close to?"
"You mean like the other leaders of the FSM?"
"Let me give you some names, see if they were friends of his. Thomas Y. Grant?"
"Where have I-isn't he the attorney who was murdered in the city last night?"
"Yes."
Widdows's eyes widened. "You're working on that?"
"A related matter."
"I see." He seemed intrigued by my reticence. "Well, as near as I recall, the first time I ever heard of Grant was when I unfolded the paper this morning."
"What about David Arlen Taylor-D. A. Taylor?"
"Oh, sure. He was a close friend of Perry's, probably his closest."
"And Libby Heikkinen?"
"Taylor's girlfriend."
"What about Jenny Ruhl?"
"Ruhl. Ruhl. Yes, I remember her. Tiny girl, long black hair."
"And chance she was romantically linked with Perry?"
"Oh, I don't think so. Perry liked women, but he was basically shy around them. He wouldn't have taken up with someone like Jenny."
"Why not?"
"How can I put this without-Jenny liked men, in quantity. For a while, around sixty-four or five, she was living with a guy, a real sleazebag hanger-on. One of those guys who was just in Berkeley for the sex and drugs and rock and roll, as they used to put it. Then he disappeared from the scene about the time she turned up pregnant. She had the baby, and I guess she put it up for adoption. After that she just drifted from guy to guy, never staying with anyone very long."