Oh my God, why am I shitting out of my mouth?
Jackson just laughs and for once it feels like someone is laughing with me and not at me, and I should just get on a bus and go right to hell because I’m ogling someone that isn’t my husband.
“I’m sorry. I’m just really tired. I haven’t slept since my son was born.”
Veronica grabs his hand and starts tugging on it. “Pway wif me. I have Barbies!”
“Veronica, no. Jackson probably needs to get back home.”
“I’d love to play Barbies with you, Veronica!” Jackson says at the same time.
He squats down to Veronica’s level and tells her to go get her Barbies and bring them out so he can see if she has the same ones his niece has. She’s out of the room before he even stands back up.
“You don’t have to do this,” I tell him.
“It’s fine, really. Why don’t you curl up on the couch and rest while we play Barbies.”
I stare at him again and I’m pretty sure my mouth is wide open in complete shock.
“I’m sorry, am I being too pushy? I’m kind of a stranger and I just asked if I could play with your daughter. Is that creepy?” he asks with a chuckle.
Is it creepy? Am I a horrible mother for wanting to take him up on his offer? I’m so God dammed tired I could fall asleep standing up right now.
Veronica runs back into the room, her arms full of every Barbie she owns, and she proceeds to grab Jackson’s hand again and pulls him down to the floor with her.
“Veronica, do you know about strangers?” Jackson asks her as he crosses his legs in front of him and picks up Malibu Barbie and starts making her walk around in circles on the floor.
Veronica nods her head and picks up her Ken doll, copying the same moves Jackson is currently using with his Barbie.
“Never talk to stwangers,” she replies.
“Right, never talk to strangers. Never go anywhere with anyone who isn’t your mommy or daddy either. We’re going to sit right here and play Barbies while mommy rests. You aren’t allowed to leave the house at all, okay? If me, or someone else tries to get you to leave, you scream at the very top of your lungs. Can you do that?” Jackson asks her.
Veronica proves she can by letting out a blood curdling scream, and we both wince at the sound.
“Very good!” Jackson tells her. He looks up at me and smiles and it takes everything in me not to hug him and cry because he's being so thoughtful. He had known exactly what I was worrying about and had made sure to calm my fears.
“Um, I’m just going to sit here. Don’t let me fall asleep,” I tell him as I sit down on the couch, curl my legs up next to me, and rest my elbow on the arm and watch them play.
“You’re fine. We’ll be right here getting Barbie and Ken ready for their wedding,” Jackson says with a smile as Veronica hands him Barbie’s wedding dress.
I sit there watching them for a few minutes in complete awe. This guy who has known me for all of five minutes took one look at me and knew what I needed. How in the hell has my husband, who has known me for years, not been able to do that?
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I'm having the best dream ever. I'm alone on a deserted island, and I'm sleeping. Just sleeping. No crying kids, no husband begging for sex…nothing but the sound of ocean waves and hours of uninterrupted sleep. I stretch my arms over my head, feeling around for the warm sand and instead, and grab onto the arm of the couch.
I sit up quickly and blink a few times, looking around in fear and wondering why I am asleep on my couch and I can’t hear Veronica or Billy. The living room has grown dark and there is a lamp on in the corner of the room so I know I must have been out for a few hours at least.
I jump up in a panic and am preparing to scream at the top of my lungs that my children are missing when I hear Veronica’s giggle from the kitchen. I run around the couch and across the room, stopping short when I get to the kitchen doorway.
“Hey there, sleepyhead! We decided to move our Barbie party into the kitchen so we didn’t disturb you,” Jackson says with a smile as he looks up from the kitchen table that’s now full of all of the Barbie crap that used to be on the living room floor.
“Mommy! Jackson let me take Barbie swimming!” Veronica shouts excitedly while she points to the sink that’s full of water.
“Hope you don’t mind. She wanted to fill up the bathtub but I thought the sink was a better idea. Oh and your son is still sleeping. I checked on him a few minutes ago.”
Where did this guy come from? Am I still dreaming? He can’t possibly be real.
“How long have I been out?” I ask, coming over to the table and kissing Veronica on the top of the head.
“About three hours,” Jackson replies, standing up from the table and sticking his hand out towards Veronica. “My lady, it’s been a pleasure playing Barbies with you this evening.”
Veronica giggles and shakes Jackson’s hand.
I walk Jackson to the door and stand there holding it open while he turns and pauses on the front porch, sticking his hands in the pocket of his jeans.
“I don’t even know how to thank you. I think I’m the one that was supposed to welcome you to the neighborhood by baking you cookies or something. You weren’t supposed to babysit my kids while I snored on the couch,” I tell him apologetically.
“Really, it’s okay. I didn’t mind. I watch my niece a few times a week so it was a piece of cake. Besides, it was too exhausting trying to do yard work in puddles of melted snow so it gave me an excuse to be lazy for once.”
He smiles at me again, and I have to force myself to swallow a few times so I don’t start to cry.
“See ya later, Jenny! If you ever need more sleep, you know where to find me. And I love cookies, so feel free to thank me with those sometime,” he says with a laugh as he jumps off of the porch and whistles his way across the street to his house.
I stand there watching him walk away and wonder if I’ve lost my fucking mind for even thinking about taking him up on his offer again. I haven’t felt this good or well-rested in years.
Chapter 18 – Vanilla Sex
Date night! Mother fucking date night! I’m so excited I almost pissed myself. Just kidding, I totally really did piss myself. Just a little. It’s all good. I've drank a lot of Pepsi this afternoon.
Jenny has been in the best mood ever this week, and I know it’s because she’s looking forward to this night as much as I am. I've just dropped the kids off with Carter and Claire with strict instructions not to call us unless one of the kids is bleeding from the eyes. And only if it’s a lot of blood, like, “Oh my God, so much blood!” If you’re just like, “Eh, some drops of blood from the eyes, nothing to get your panties in a bunch about,”’ don’t call me. I’ve already hidden Jenny’s cell phone in my pants so she has no choice but to give the meat whistle a little rub if she wants to check on the kids.
I've left Jenny at home to finish getting ready and because I know if she goes with me to drop the kids off, it would have taken at least an hour of her kissing them over and over and apologizing for leaving them and then kissing them both ten more times before we could even walk out the door. At least she doesn’t make too much of a scene when I leave our house with them. As soon as I see her eyes start to fill with tears, I do the whole, “Oooh look, a butterfly!” and then turn and run. I would have made it to the car too if Veronica wasn’t so slow. I need to practice some wind sprints with that kid for situations like this.
I get back home and pull into the driveway, and when I get out of the car, the new guy who moved in across the street is taking his garbage out and lifts his hand in a wave. I wave back and wonder if the dude even owns a shirt. Every time I’ve seen him outside since he's moved in, he’s been half naked. It’s a disgrace to the neighborhood. Especially since everyone on this street knows I’m the one who looks the best doing yard work without a shirt. Some people just don’t know their place.