“Then you must call me Roger.” His voice was a soft, almost musical tenor, very soothing. “I would like to start by thanking you for saving that poor woman and her child. Gail tells me that was typical of you, but I find it quite extraordinary. Risking one’s life for a stranger’s is something I can only imagine.”
His old-world courtliness probably enhanced the man’s reputation among his like-minded friends. But I sensed it was natural to him, and that he was no less sincere because of it. I responded in a similar vein.
“I’ve heard equally good things about you, including that you like a worthwhile fight.”
His smiled broadened. “I was better at it twenty years ago. I’m not sure how much fire I have left in me.”
For some reason, that brought me back to something he’d just said. “Why did you thank me just now? It almost sounded personal.”
Roger Betts glanced briefly at Gail, who told me, “Ground rules are this conversation is strictly off the record.”
I nodded without comment.
Betts turned his head to look out the window again and seemed to speak more to himself than to us. “I’m not absolutely sure we weren’t responsible.”
“You suspect someone?” I asked, startled.
“No, not a person,” he answered slowly, as if drained of all energy.
“More a general mood. I’m not one of those old men who claim the world’s going to pot just because my brain’s too fossilized to follow current events. I know violence and intemperance have been with us since the cave. But there is a stridency among some of my colleagues that exceeds mere enthusiasm. It’s the line dividing righteousness from self-righteousness which allows believers in the latter to turn their backs on common decency.”
“As in trying to kill people to throw blame on the resort? Are you saying someone in the TPL did that?”
He paled even further. “I merely think it’s a consideration.”
“I’m not trying to be contrary,” I told him, “but I don’t see the logic. People’re already whispering about sabotage and pointing the finger at you guys, not Tucker Peak. Surely, if this was done by a TPL member, he knew the risks of injuring someone and putting you in an even worse light was pretty high. So, why do it?”
Betts didn’t answer for several seconds and then finally admitted, “I don’t know, and I have no proof. It’s just that I can’t separate the two in my mind: our actions and such violence. I’ve seen one lead to the other too often in the past to ignore the possibility.”
I looked at him in a whole new light, suddenly filled with a sense of ambiguity. What was his game? Or was he just shouldering the guilt for the whole world’s collective ills?
Intrigued by the possibilities, I still wanted to introduce a bit of reality. I held up four fingers. “That lends itself to several scenarios-one of your people went off the deep end; someone did this to make you look bad; someone totally unrelated is indulging in a little terrorism and using your presence as a smoke screen; and, last but not least, nobody did it, because it was an accident. Do any of those sound more likely than the others?”
His response was elliptical at best. “I believe very strongly in the positions I take, and I am convinced that harm will come about as a result of Tucker Peak’s plans. But I am a nonviolent man, dedicated to harming no other living creatures. I would be devastated to learn that a cause I was associated with had taken to violence as a means of expression. I merely wanted you to hear that directly from me.”
I resisted being too judgmental, although what he’d just said sounded useless as well as self-serving, as if he were here merely to preserve his sainthood by hedging his bets. But Gail respected him, he’d served long and selflessly in his cause, and he was obviously feeling both his years and a sense of obligation. I decided to play him straight-for the moment.
“I hear it,” I said, “but from you only. Sounds like neither one of us knows what some of your colleagues might be capable of.”
His brow furrowed with concern. “I’m not sure what to do.”
“Keep me informed through Gail,” I suggested, heartened by the chance of forming an alliance within the TPL. “Not about what your plans are,” I added carefully. “You have a right to your ideas and to protest if you want. But if you discover that someone inside your group is endangering others, I’d like to know about it.”
He was silent for a long while and finally said, “This is not the first time I’ve been made such an offer, Joe. The police have always been canny to the ambiguity of social protest, and they’ve always been good at driving wedges in among us.”
I resisted reminding him that he’d broached the subject first. “I’ll put it to you differently, then,” I said instead, grateful I didn’t have to deal with him on a regular basis. “You and I have now met. You’ve checked me out and drawn some conclusions. You also know how to contact me if need be. I’ll let you look to your own conscience to decide if that need ever comes up.” I reached out and shook his hand again. “That okay with you?”
He nodded and smiled, giving me a wink so slight I wasn’t sure I’d seen it. “You’re very good at this, Joe Gunther.” He then raised an eyebrow at Gail. “Careful around him.”
I stood beside Gail at the window, watching Roger Betts drive away in an old Buick, ironically spewing a thin plume of oily smoke. “Frustrating son of a bitch,” I said, slipping my arm around her waist. “He actually winked at me when he left.”
“He’s no fool,” she agreed. “He plays that fuzzy-wuzzy angle like a violin. It forces people to meet him more than halfway. He wasn’t bullshitting you, though, and he was impressed with you personally.”
“Oh, right. I’m sure that’s what the wink was all about-a sign of respect.”
She looked up at me. “He’s eighty-nine. You know that?”
“You mentioned he was pushing ninety. I hope I look as good.”
“I hope you’re even alive.”
I dug a finger into her ribs and she spun away, ending up sitting on the edge of the bed, laughing. I sat down next to her. “Thanks for setting this up, by the way. It was one of the stranger conversations I’ve had in a while, but at least it makes me feel I have another set of eyes where I need them.”
“Who do you think messed with that chair?” she asked, placing her hand on my thigh.
“Don’t know. The lack of a clear motive really bugs me. If it was sabotage, I can’t see who benefited.”
“Maybe it’s totally unrelated-a pissed-off employee.”
“Yeah, we’re looking into that. We’ll figure it out soon enough. Whoever did it’ll probably get restless and try something else.”
A moment of silence fell between us. “What about the other things you’re looking into?” she asked vaguely.
I was struck by something in her voice, having nothing to do with her question. “You okay?” I asked.
She sighed. “To be honest, I’m not sure. I’ve been staring at a lot of walls lately. How’re we doing, Joe?” She sounded suddenly wistful.
I leaned back a little to get a clearer view of her face. “The two of us? I’m okay. What’s up?”
She gazed out the window before answering. “I don’t know. I’m having a hard time figuring out if I’m doing the right thing.”
“Working for VermontGreen?”
“That, and living half my life in Montpelier, away from you. It’s been a crazy few years, you have to admit. I can’t tell if I’m making sense anymore.”
I could sympathize with her there. Watching her rebuild her life after being raped at the point of a knife several years ago had been an emotional roller-coaster at times. But not a directionless one.
“Well, not to sound trite, but are you happy at what you’re doing?” I asked.
She looked at me, her expression hopeful. “I think I am. I mean, I know that politicians aren’t really normal. They’re mostly needy and ego-driven, and some of them aren’t bright enough to light the inside of a fridge. But I love the energy of their world-the deal-making, the laws that result from it. I hated it all when I was young and looking in from the outside, but I can’t get enough of it now. I really do believe it’s one way to make a difference. Sort of a logical extension of what brought me up here in the first place, and why I got so active when I was a selectman in Brattleboro.”