"No."
"Robinson Crusoe?
"No."
"Why not?"
I was about to tell her that it was only six months since I had learned
to read properly, but checked myself in time.
"I haven't got them."
"What form are you in?"
"I'm not in any form."
"He's a traveller," said the old lady, coming back. "Ninety-eight point
seven. He was footing it to Turkestan. Treat him nicely, Katya."
"Footing it? What d'you mean?"
"What I say. He hoofed it all the way."
In the hall, under the mirror, stood a little table, and Katya drew a
chair up to it, settled herself in it with her head resting on her hand and
said, "Well, tell me about it."
I had no desire to tell her anything-she gave herself such airs. If we
had made it and got to Turkestan that would be a different matter. I
therefore answered politely, "Oh, I don't feel like it. Some other time
perhaps."
The old lady put bread and jam in front of me, but I declined it,
saying, "I told you I did it for nothing."
I don't know why, but I got upset. I was even pleased that Katya had
reddened when I refused to tell her my story and made for the door.
"Come, come, don't be angry," the old lady said as she saw me out.
"What's your name?"
"Grigoriev, Alexander."
"Well, Alexander Grigoriev, goodbye, and thank you."
I stood for a while on the landing, trying to make out the name on the
doorplate. Kazarinov ... no, it wasn't Kazarinov...
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"N. A. Tatarinov," I read it out suddenly.
Gosh! Tatarinov, Nikolai Antonich. Our Head. This was his flat.
CHAPTER FOUR
MORE FOOD FOR THOUGHT
We spent the summer at Silver Woods, just outside Moscow, in an old
deserted house which had lots of little passage steps, carved wooden
ceilings and corridors that unexpectedly ended in blank walls. The
whole place creaked-the doors in one key, the shutters in another. One
large room was boarded up, but even in there something creaked and
rustled, and suddenly there would come a measured rattling sound like
that of a little hammer in a striking clock tapping without striking the
bell. In the attic grew puffballs and foreign books lay scattered about
with pages torn out of them and covers missing.
Before the Revolution the house had belonged to an old gypsy
countess. A gypsy countess! How mysterious! It was rumoured that
before she died she had hidden away her valuables. Romashka searched
for the treasure all through the summer. Puny, big-headed, he prowled
around the house with a stick, tapping and listening. He tapped at night
until he got a clip on the ear from one of the older boys. At thirteen he
was determined to get rich. Whenever he spoke about money his pale
ears would begin to burn. He was a born treasure-seeker—superstitious
and greedy.
Lilac grew thickly round the tumbledown arbours. Statues lined the
green paths. They were quite unlike those Greek gods. Those had been
remote, with white sightless eyes, whereas these were people, just like
us.
Life was good only at the beginning of the summer, when we first
moved into Silver Woods. Afterwards things got worse. They all but
stopped feeding us. Our children's home was put under a system of
"self-supply". We caught fish and crabs, we sold lilac at the stadium
when anything was on there, and simply helped ourselves to anything
we could lay hands on. In the evenings we lit fires in the garden and
roasted what we had bagged.
Here is a description of one such evening—they were all much alike.
We are sitting around our fire, tired out, hungry and ill-tempered.
Everything is black with smoke-the mess-tin, the sticks from which it
hangs, our faces and hands. Like cannibals getting ready to devour
Captain Cook, we sit in silence, staring into the fire. The smouldering
brands suddenly blaze up and fall apart, and a cap of curling, dark-red
smoke, hangs over the fire.
We are a "commune". The whole children's home is divided into
communes. Foraging on one's own is a hard job. Each commune has its
chairman, its own fire and its own reserve supply—whatever has not
been eaten that day and is left over for the next.
Our chairman is Stepka Ivanov, a fifteen-year-old boy with a smooth
mug. He is a greedy-guts and bully whom everyone fears.
"What about a game o' knuckles?" Stepka says lazily.
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All are silent. No one cares to play knuckles. Stepka is sated, that's
why he wants to play.
"All right, Stepka. Only it's dark, you know," says Romashka.
"Know where it's dark? Get up!"
There was nothing our chairman liked more in the world than to play
knucklebones. But he cheated and everyone knew it. All except Valya
and I sucked up to him, especially Romashka. Romashka even lost to
him on purpose so's to keep in with him.
If you think we were roasting some dainty gamebird over our fire you
are mistaken. In our mess-tin, seized in battle from the kitchen, we were
cooking soup. It is real "soup made from sausage stick", as in the fairy-
tale which Serafima Petrovna had read to us during the winter. The
difference, if any, is that while that soup had been made from a mouse's
tail, ours had any odd thing put into that came to hand, sometimes even
frogs' legs.
And yet it wasn't a bad summer. It had stuck in my memory not
because we were poorly fed. I was used to that. I don't remember ever
having had a decent meal those days. The reason I remember this
summer was quite a different one. It was then for the first time that I
gained a sense of self-respect.
It happened at the end of August, shortly before we went back to
town, and around one of those fires on which we were cooking our
supper. Stepka all of a sudden announced a new procedure for eating.
Up to now we had eaten from the one pot in turn, spoon by spoon.
Stepka started, as chairman, then Romashka, and so on. But now we
were to tuck in all together while the soup was still hot, the quickest
getting the most.
Nobody liked the new arrangement. No wonder! With a chairman like
ours no one stood a chance. He could wolf down the whole pot in no
time.
"Nothing doing," Valya said with decision.
This was greeted with a hubbub of approval. Stepka slowly got up,
dusted his knees and hit Valya in the face. It was a smashing blow that
sent the blood gushing over his face. It must have got into his eyes too,
because he started to wave his arms about like a blind man. "Well,"
Stepka drawled, "anyone else asking for it?"
I was the smallest boy in the commune, and he could have mopped up
the floor with me, of course. Nevertheless I hit out at Stepka. All at once
he staggered and slumped down. I don't know where I had struck him,
but he sat on the ground blinking, wearing a sort of thoughtful
expression. The next minute he was up and made a rush at me, but now
the other boys took my part. Stepka was thrashed like the cur he was.
While he lay by the fire, howling, we hastily elected another chairman—
me. Stepka, of course, did not vote. In any case he would have been in a
minority of one, because I was elected unanimously.