“DL is most likely hanging you over Gunner’s head,” Mike said gently, then added, “Maybe Gunner doesn’t know. Maybe it’s what he needs to believe.”
Avery rested her forehead in her palms, blinked back tears. “I can’t believe . . . we did this to him. I did.”
She and Dare had pulled Gunner into their problems, into helping them find their father. Ultimately, finding Darius meant that Gunner had to face his own father. Because of that, Landon had rediscovered Gunner. Knowing she couldn’t have predicted the consequences did nothing to assuage her guilt.
Gunner stared out at the water, a bottle of whiskey and a shot glass next to him. Landon had had someone bring them by hours earlier, and Gunner hadn’t refused them.
The guy had stared at his head, whistled and then offered to come in and share the bottle with him, after staring up and down Gunner’s naked body.
Gunner just shook his head no and the guy offered his sister. Gunner just closed the door quietly. He’d gone numb the second he’d stepped onto this island, and no amount of pleasure was going to help.
He didn’t want to close his eyes because every time he did, he saw Avery. He realized he didn’t have any pictures of her, an old habit of never leaving a trail of people you loved for criminals to latch onto.
He’d never kept any of Josie either. But he had Josie’s tattoo on his arm, the same one he pressed herbs against now. An offering, a prayer, a call for protection he knew he didn’t deserve.
All the people you’ve helped in the meantime . . .
Didn’t matter, he told himself ruthlessly. He’d wiped karma out with a single bomb on a job the night Josie was killed and he’d pay for it forever. Just the way it was meant to be.
He’d tried to be a part of the tight family circle that Gunner couldn’t believe he was lucky enough to be a part of.
And you lied to them, time after time. As much as he told himself it was for their own protection, he knew that he’d been afraid they’d tell him to go to hell.
“What happened to you, son?” Mike asked, maybe two weeks later when Gunner was starting to get back on his feet.
Gunner looked him in the eye and started to make something up. Mike would believe it—and Gunner wished he could believe it too. Instead, he told the man, “I got out of something bad the only way I knew how.”
Mike nodded.
“I’ve got to get out of here. I won’t bring anything but trouble to you and your family.”
“I don’t believe that for a second,” Mike said.
Josie continued. “Besides, that’s what the ceremony was for. It cleared away the evil that surrounded you. Purified you.”
Josie said this as though everyone knew that.
“So what, I’m like new now?”
“In a way, yes.”
He’d gotten out of bed and nearly collapsed on her. She caught him, chided, “Come on, James.”
“How’d you know that?” Because if memory served, he’d been wearing cargo pants and nothing else, had no ID or money. Nothing else when Landon’s men dumped him from the car after beating him. Almost like a reverse gang ritual. He had no doubt they’d meant to kill him in one of the most painful ways possible.
“You told me,” Josie said simply.
She sat next to him on the bed and Mike asked, “Are they going to come looking for you?”
“Considering they dumped him in the middle of the swamp, I guess they figured local wildlife would take care of the body.”
“How long have I been here?”
“Two weeks.”
“And nobody’s come asking about me?”
“We’re pretty well insulated from strangers around here. Between the geography and the Cajuns, any outsider steps foot in this parish and it’s known before your shoe hits the dirt,” Mike said. “Which is how we found you.”
Chapter Eight
When Mike and Andy told her and Jem the story of finding Gunner barely alive in the bayou, Avery gritted her teeth together so hard her head ached.
“I don’t know how he was still alive,” Mike was saying. “He was . . . Jesus, I thought he was dead when the dog found him. Petey tried to drag him up the porch and then howled when he couldn’t.”
“Petey was a good judge of character,” Andy added. “He’d bitten over half the damned parish, but with Gunner, he wouldn’t leave his side, no matter how hard we tried to get him to leave the poor guy alone.”
Avery pulled the blanket farther around her shoulders and sipped at the strong coffee Mike had made. “Did he remember anything?”
“I think he remembered everything, but he didn’t tell us. Not then. Not until he’d realized he’d fallen in love with Josie. He came clean to us about his father and Landon then,” Mike said. “He’d been through hell. But he had a drive . . . after everything happened, we tried to convince him to go right into the military. I wish we’d convinced him.”
“He didn’t want to?” Avery asked.
“Partly. And Josie didn’t help. She wanted him here, with her. They were like two kids. I think it was the first time Gunner actually had a childhood.” Mike smiled as he remembered.
“They were good together,” Andy agreed, and then looked at Avery. “Sorry, hon—does this bother you?”
“No, it doesn’t. Anything that made Gunner happy . . .” She trailed off and Jem put a hand on her shoulder.
“We’ll get him back if I have to drag him by the hair,” he assured her.
She laughed a little, then pointed to Mike’s arm. “Did Gunner do any of those tattoos?”
He pointed to one. “This was one of his first. He learned from Josie.”
“I think I really would’ve liked Josie,” she said.
“You two are very different,” Andy told her. “But I think you would’ve been tight.”
That meant a lot to her. She felt as though she needed the dead woman’s blessing to move forward with Gunner.
“Gunner was a natural with the tattooing. He’s a great artist.” Mike pointed to the wall behind her. She turned to see a charcoal drawing of a young woman, hugging a dog and smiling.
Josie. So pretty. So young.
I knew he loved you because he drew you, Billie told her in so many words. And Avery would hold on to that with everything she had.
Josie was the first person Gunner had sketched since he’d moved to Powell’s island. He couldn’t have stopped himself if he’d tried, found himself scratching the pencil on paper, watching Josie playing with Petey. She hadn’t interrupted him, not until he put the paper down and stretched his cramped hands.
He’d drawn several versions of her, because he’d been rusty—and determined to get it right.
“It’s beautiful.”
“You’re beautiful. My art needs work. Been a while.”
“Why’s that?”
He didn’t tell her that killing people and art didn’t exactly go together. “I haven’t wanted to. Not until now.”
“I can’t really draw,” she admitted. “I can freehand things when I tattoo, but it’s basic stuff. Charms and things like that. But you’ve got talent.”
She’d known some traditional tattooing methods, using sticks and ink and man, were painful but beautiful, and she was also handy with the tattoo gun. Her mother had dated a tattoo artist when Josie was small and she’d taken to it easily.