I come to with a searing headache. It feels like someone drove a spike through the back of my head.
I groan and sit up. The lights from the ceiling lamps are as bright as ever. Too bright, in fact. They make my headache worse. I can’t stand my new light sensitivity.
I look at the pillar, then suppress a shudder as my fingers brush the collar at my neck. It’s still there, of course. Did I expect anything else?
I wonder in a distracted sort of way what time it is. I wonder how long I’ve been in this room. Without a window to let sunlight in, it’s impossible to tell.
I don’t think it’s been more than a day, though. I don’t smell, for one. Two, I haven’t had the need to use the bathroom yet.
With that thought comes a sudden, unstoppable urge to urinate.
Shit! I look all around me. Does the man just expect me to piss on the floor?
While defiling the pristine tiles might seem like a small act of defiance, I’m not a pig. And I’m not that desperate. Yet.
I remember the two jars and run to the empty one. When I pick it up, I see it for what it really is.
Not a jar, you idiot. A chamber pot.
I use it and then carry it as close to the perimeter of my prison as I dare. I do not want another electrical shock.
I spot the letter I never finished reading on my way back. Just the memory of the flowing blue ink is enough to make a shiver crawl down my spine.
I make myself sit down and look at the rest anyway. There might be vital information in the words.
...Tomorrow, you will receive a contract outlining my expectations for your behavior. Compliance with my desires will grant you progressively greater freedoms. Child-like resistance will be met with apathy and a degradation of previously-earned freedoms.
Today, you entered my home as a guest. When you sign our contract, you become my property.
Always, I expect my property to perform to the highest standards.
You will remain undisturbed for the next eighteen hours as you ruminate on your available options.
Do not disappoint me.
- J.S.
“J.S.” Something about those initials tickles the back of my mind. The letters look like a signature, but what’s more, one that I’ve seen before.
But where? I try thinking back, racking my brain for it. The familiarity is vague, but undeniable. It’s a little like running into a former classmate whom you haven’t seen in five years and who’s lost a lot of weight. You feel like you should recognize her. Only after you start talking do you remember from where.
The rest of the letter flies over my head. It’s obviously from a lunatic. What kind of sick mind would call me a “guest”? That’s a generous euphemism. The collar might as well be leashed for all the freedom it provides. “No physical barriers” to my leaving? Hah!
I don’t want to think about the implications of the contract. I won’t sign it. I will never become someone else’s property.
I’d rather die first.
All at once, the lights go out.
The sudden darkness unnerves me. I stand up and wave my arms. “Hey! Hey, I’m still here!”
Nothing. Like a blind woman, I grope for the safety of my pillar. When my hands find it, I turn around and slide down its cold, smooth surface.
My butt hits the ground. After a moment of staring into darkness, I lower my head. My stomach growls, reminding me how long it’s been since my last meal. I was provided water. Does that mean I’ll get food, too?
With nothing but my thoughts for company, I draw myself back to my memories, trying to summon the strength I once had.
Chapter Seven
(Eleven years ago)
The noon sun is high above me, beating on the forest with its unforgiving rays. I’ve been shoveling for hours. My nails are black and my hands are covered with dirt. My fingers are numb, and my arms feel like lead weights. Both my shoulders burn.
I look at the pile I’ve built up. It’s right underneath the hole.
Still not high enough, I think.
I scoop up another handful of dirt and painfully labor it over.
My stomach rumbles. I’m so hungry.
But even hunger has taken its rightful place behind my desperate need for water.
“Have to keep going,” I mutter to myself. “Can’t stop now.”
My whole body is exhausted. My ankle seems even more swollen. I can’t put so much as an ounce of weight on my left leg without whimpering.
I’m scared that, even if I pile the mound high enough to pull myself out, I won’t have the strength left to get to the lake house.
But I have to try. I know that.
I want to sit and rest. It would be so nice, just for a few moments. But, I don’t. I’m afraid if I stop moving, I’ll never start again.
So, I dig, scooping the dirt with my bare hands, then carrying it back to the ever-growing pile.
Hours go by. The sky turns red. The sun starts to set. I can’t spend another night down here.
I look at my pile. It’s already up to my waist. But my feet sink when I step onto it. I still can’t reach the floorboard.
“Lilly! Lilly!”
The male voice is so faint that I think I imagine it at first. Then it comes again.
“Lilly? Lilly!”
My heart swells and relief splashes over me like ice water.
“Here!” I cry out. My throat is so parched and my voice so weak that I barely hear myself. “Here!” I try again.
“Lilly? Lilly!”
The voice is getting fainter. Alarm fills me as I realize he’s going the wrong way.
I clamber to the top of the mound and fill my lungs with air.
“HERE!”
I wait. And wait some more. My chest heaves with anxiety. Did he hear me? Why doesn’t he answer?
“HERE!” I scream. “I’m down here! Help me! I’m here!”
I can’t hear my name being called anymore. Nothing breaks the silence except the rustle of wind through the trees.
A crushing pain explodes in my chest. The man did not hear me. He will not come.
I fall to my knees. I try to blink away the tears, but I can’t. My despair is too great.
My entire body shakes as I start to sob. He did not find me. He did not hear me.
“Lilly!”
The voice comes from right above me. I look up, and see Paul’s face. For a half-second, I think it’s a mirage. But when he reaches down, and the shadow of his arm is cast along the floor, I know he’s my savoir.
“Give me your hand, child!” he urges.
I lift one trembling arm up as high as I can, fighting through the tearing pain it causes my shoulder.
His hand grasps my forearm with a grip as strong as iron.
“I’m going to get you out,” he promises. “Can you stand?”
I nod, dumb with amazement.
“Give me both your arms. I’m going to lift you up. Ready? Three, two…”
Chapter Eight
(Present day)
My eyes shoot open in the dark.
Paul rescued me? No. No, that can’t be right.
Falling into that cellar was a defining moment of my young life, because I saved myself. I remember building the dirt pile. It’s been a long time since I thought about it, but I was always certain that I was the one who got myself out.