“I am very sorry.”
I removed my hand and looked at him. His fierce dark gaze was boring into me, and his hands were trembling. “Oh, hey. Like I said. You couldn't have known. You got rid of it, right?”
“I did. I—”
“Never mind. I don't care if I never see the thing again, and I sure don't want to know what you did with it. Also, we're going to Tiffany's to pick out a new one, right?” “If you wish.”
“You look like hell.”
“I was. . . terrified for you. I was certain she would kill you. And I was useless. Worse than useless. I could hear what was happening but could not help. I—”
“Come here,” I said. “Have I mentioned I missed you like crazy?”
“Not that I recall.”
“Well, I have. Missed you like crazy, I mean.” I was tugging at his shirt, and buttons were flying all over the place. “Place just isn't the same without you. And hey! Next time the Big Bad lures you out of the house, maybe you could leave a note?”
“Or even text message you,” he agreed solemnly I was frantic to get his clothes off, frantic to touch him, feel him, taste him. I heard cloth tear as I got his shirt off, broke his belt buckle, tore at his pants.
I gripped his hips with my knees and knelt down to have a bite or two. Or three. Oh boy, oh boy, oh boy!
“Oh boy,” he groaned.
It was so fucking fine to have him in my house, my bed. It was everything I'd missed and then some. It was a dream come true.
(For me as well, my own.)
And oh, it was so good to feel him against me, his hands on me. I pulled at him until we were both sitting up, me still on top, and we kissed hungrily, as if we couldn't get enough air. Or enough of each other. He pushed and I went over. . .
.. . and then I pushed, and I was back on top again.
Mine, I thought.
Yours, he agreed.
I straddled him to get closer, to take him inside of me, and rode him with great delight, staring at the ceiling while his fingers dug into my hip bones. He nipped at my fingers, and I swooped down to kiss him again.
Oh, Sinclair.
Elizabeth . My own, my queen, my dread queen. Wait a minute. Are we—?
I beg you. Do not destroy the moment with a rude gesture or thought. But we're— Yes.
You can— Yes.
I love you.
Yes. Oh, yes. Right.. . . .. there.
Chapter 40
“Here comes the bride,“ I hummed, slipping into my shoes. ”All dressed in white. (And red.) Here comes the bride, back from the dead. (Again.)"
“That song blows.” Jessica leaned over my shoulder to freshen her lipstick with my mirror. “And don't get me started on your singing voice.”
“Cured your cancer and all I get is grief.”
“Hey, I didn't make you cure me. By the way, is it just me or is everyone still freaked out about what you did the other night?”
“Yeah, well. I'm not exactly sure what it is I did.”
“Neither are Sinclair or Tina. That's why it's driving them nuts.”
“Not to mention Michael and the others,” Antonia piped up, coming into the dressing room without knocking, as was her habit. “They're gonna walk soft around you for a while. Heh. Oh, and bimbo? Next time you've got two dead guys in coffins and me in a cage, lively and ready to kick ass, let me out first! I could have helped you with that rotten monkey Marjorie.”
“I'll keep it in mind.”
“Least now I know what the fuss is all about,” she muttered, waving away Jessica's offer of a mascara wand. “Running around as a wolf is fun .” She fussed with her lapels and managed only to hopelessly rumple her ruby jacket. “But you know? I haven't had a vision since the one indicating Sinclair shouldn't go to Marjorie's alone. I wonder if I can still see the future.”
“Well,” I said, feeling uncomfortable, “if you can't, and you miss it, I'm sorry. I didn't—”
“Can it, Betsy. I'm not bitching. Just wondering.” “Will you hold still?” Jessica demanded. Her suit, a twin to Antonia's, was sapphire blue. “You're all rumpled.”
“And you're all annoying, but I'm putting up with that shit, aren't I? I'm here in the middle of monkey rituals, aren't I?”
“Shut up,” I said warmly.
Tina rapped on the door, then poked her head inside. “It's almost time, Majesty. My! You're breathtaking.”
“It's true,” I said modestly. Tina was in the same Vera Wang suit as Jessica and Antonia, except hers was buttercup yellow. With Tina's teeny frame and big dark eyes, and cascades of blond hair, it worked.
Everything worked. It was my day, and everything worked.
I sighed happily and applied more blush. “Hey, did Sinclair talk to you about the new job?”
“What new job?” Jessica asked.
“We need a new librarian,” I told my reflection, and grinned. “The last one came down with a slight case of death.”
“I have many responsibilities here in the mansion,” Tina said. “I will have to consider this very carefully.”
“Crissake, when don't you consider everything very carefully?” Antonia yawned and—I wasn't sure how she did this without moving—rumpled her suit jacket again.
“But the chance to get my hands on all those tomes. . .” Tina was practically drooling. “The opportunity for pure research alone makes it a tempting prize.”
“Yeah, yeah. Tempting. Betsy, lighten up with the Peach Parfait or you'll be all slutted out.”
“Here, let me.” Jessica snatched the blusher from my hands and grabbed a tissue with the other hand. She rubbed my cheeks, and for an awful moment I thought she was going to spit on the Kleenex.
“Hmm,” Tina said. That was all, just, “Hmm.”
“How can you screw up blush?” Jessica was bitching. "You make it look like you're blushing. Then you stop.
“Hmm.”
“Will all of you bitches just leave me alone?” I cried.
“The warning cry of the Raptor Bridal Bird,” Antonia snickered.
“Look how snotty you got since you found out you are able to turn into a wolf.”
“And when your boyfriend remembered how to read. Oh, and that he has a master's in math.”
“That's it!” Tina cried, startling all of us into shutting up. “You never feed, Majesty, compared to us you never feed. So you're always hungry. Always. You think that's how it's supposed to be. For you, hunger is as much a state of the mind as it is of the body. So when Marjorie was killing you, your instinct wasn't to reach with your teeth. It was to reach with your mind! ”
She was on her feet, screeching that last.
Antonia stared. I stared. Jessica corrected my blush.
“Um. Excuse me,” she muttered, smoothing her skirt.
My mom poked her head in the room. “Are you ready?”
“Yeah,” Antonia replied.
“I think she was talking to me,” I said.
“Oh, yeah, like it's all about you.”
“Today it is. Let's do it!”
“You may kiss the bride," Judge Summit informed us, and Sinclair was too glad to comply. He'd done a remarkable job of concealing his boredom during the brief ceremony, though his dark eyes had gleamed at the sight of me in my gown.
The guests (all the usual suspects, plus the Wyndhams) clapped politely and, as we went back down the aisle, tossed little paper hearts instead of rice.
“They're throwing paper hearts? At vampires?” Sinclair bitched.
“Oh, hush up and try to enjoy the moment.”
“But why didn't you tell me you thought there'd be a problem with Sinclair going to see Marjorie?" I asked while the others devoured the chocolate cake (with raspberry filling!) and I tried not to drool. Too bad solid food made me barf.