As he walked back to deal with paperwork (there was always paperwork) he heard a soldier on the wall begin to sing, and then others joined him:
The air felt unnervingly still all the rest of that day. Towards evening a thunderstorm finally came, surging from the south, sheets of lightning shattering the sky. A heavy, percussive rain fell, filling the cisterns and wells, making muddy lakes in the courtyards, while thunder rolled and boomed. It passed, as storms always passed.
This one continued north, boiling away as quickly as it had come. A low, late-day sun returned, shining red down the wet ravine that led to Kuala Nor. The storm explained his day-long feeling of brittle tension, Commander Lin decided. He felt better for the realization. He preferred when there were explanations for what occurred—in the sky, on earth, within the loneliness of the self.
Their path trended downwards out of the mountain foothills, to grain fields and hamlets, and eventually through a low-lying marshland south of the river. This was tiger country. They posted guards the one night they chose to camp between posting stations, heard the creatures roaring, but never saw one.
There was some tension between the soldiers and the woman, but no more than might be expected. Wei Song kept mostly to herself, riding at the front. That was part of the problem—her taking the lead—but once Tai realized that, he turned it into an order he gave her, and the men from the fort accepted it that way.
She kept her hair tightly coiled, her posture alert. Her head was always moving as she scanned the road ahead and the land to either side. She said almost nothing at night, at campfire or the inns. There were enough of them—seven, well armed—that they hadn't feared to light a fire when they camped, though there would be bandits in this countryside, too.
As they descended, riding east, the air felt heavier to Tai. He had been in the mountains for so long. One morning he caught up to the woman, rode beside her. She gave him a glance, then looked ahead again.
"Be patient," she murmured. "Chenyao tonight, or early tomorrow at the latest. The soldiers can surely tell you the best house for girls."
He saw—couldn't miss—the amusement in her face.
This did need to be dealt with. At least it felt that way to him.
"But how would it satisfy you," he asked earnestly, "if I slake my passion with a courtesan, leaving you to weep, unassuaged, on some marble stair?"
She did flush. It made him feel pleased, then slightly contrite, but only slightly. She had started this, in his room back at the fort. He knew who had to be behind what this one had said then, about women. Was it normal for Rain to have confided in a hired bodyguard the intimate nature of the person she'd be protecting?
He didn't think so.
"I will manage to control my longing," the woman said, looking straight ahead.
"I'm sure you will. You seem well-enough trained. We could have the others wait, take a short ride together past those trees..."
She didn't flush again. "You'll do better in Chenyao," she said.
They had entered more densely populated country. Tai saw mulberry trees and a path leading south towards a silk farm—the buildings were hidden behind the trees but a banner was visible.
He had spent three weeks on one of those, years ago, obscurely curious. Or without direction, more accurately. There had been a period in his life when he was like that. After his time in the north, beyond the Long Wall. Some things had happened to him there.
He remembered the sound in the room where the silkworms were kept on stacked trays and fed, day and night, hour by hour, on white mulberry leaves: a noise like rain on a roof, endlessly.
While that happened, in that time of needful, important perfection, the temperature was controlled, all smells were prevented from entering the room, all drafts of wind. Even lovemaking in chambers nearby was done without sound, lest the silkworms be frightened or disturbed.
He wondered if this Kanlin woman knew this. He wondered why he cared.
Shortly after that, a fox appeared at the edge of the trees, alongside the road to their right.
Wei Song stopped, throwing up a quick hand. She turned in the saddle, eyed the animal. One of the men laughed, but another made a gesture averting danger.
Tai looked at the woman.
"Surely not!" he exclaimed. "You think it a daiji?"
"Hush! It is beyond foolish to name them," she said. "And which of us do you think a fox-woman would be here for?"
"I don't think she'd be here at all," Tai said. "I don't think every animal seen by the woods is a spirit-world creature."
"Not every animal," she said.
"What next, the Fifth Dragon appears in a red sky and the Ninth Heaven falls?"
"No," she said, looking away.
It was unexpected, that this crisp, composed Kanlin Warrior would so obviously believe in fox-woman legends. She was still watching the fox, a stab of colour by the woods. It was looking back at them, Tai saw, but that was normal. Riders were a possible threat, needed to be observed.
"You should not be so careless, speaking of spirits, naming their names," Wei Song said softly, so that only Tai heard. "We cannot understand everything about the world."
And that last phrase took him hard, sent him spinning back a long way.
The fox withdrew into the woods. They rode on.
The only other time he'd been in command of cavalry had been north of the Wall, on campaign among the nomads. He'd led fifty soldiers, not just five riders, as now.
Command of a dui had been more than he deserved, but Tai had been young enough to feel that his father's fame and rank had simply opened a doorway for him to show what he could do, what he honestly merited. He'd welcomed the chance to prove himself.
He didn't want to dwell on it now, all these years after, but being among soldiers again, riding in open country towards a changed life seemed to make it inevitable that his thoughts would drift.
That time among the Bogu had begun the changes in his life. Before that, he'd thought he knew what his course would be. After, he was shaken, unsure. Adrift for a long time.
He'd told what had happened, how it had ended, as best he could. First to his superior officers, and then to his father when they were both home. (Not his brothers: one was too young, the other not a confidant.)
He'd been permitted to honourably resign rank and post, leave the army. It was unusual. Going to Stone Drum Mountain some time later had been a useful, perhaps even an appropriate next stage, though he doubted the Kanlin masters on the mountain saw it that way, since he'd left them, too.
But after what had happened on the northern steppes that autumn, it had not been considered unexpected that a young man would want to spend time searching for spiritual guidance, discipline, austerity.
Tai remembered being surprised that his military superiors had believed his northern tale, and even more at the hint of understanding among them. Understanding was not seen as a strength, let alone a virtue, in the higher ranks of the Kitan army.
Only later did he realize that he and his men might not have been the first or the only ones to encounter some terrifying strangeness among the Bogu. He'd wondered over the years about other stories; no one ever told him names, or what had happened.