“Yeah,” he said. “Yeah, she was. But I don’t want to put any more of my family in the firing line right now. Do you?”
I shook my head slowly, haunted again by the image of Isabel crouched against the fence as bullets passed overhead to strike her parents. No. I could not risk her. Luis was a target, but so was I, and I could not guarantee the child’s safety.
“May I call?” I asked.
Luis took out his cell phone, dialed a number, and turned away to speak in Spanish. After a moment he handed the phone to me.
“Cassie?” Isabel’s voice was bright and hopeful, and I felt warmth grow inside me in response.
“Cassiel,” I automatically corrected her, but my heart was not in it. “I’m here, Ibby.”
“Where are you?”
“Close,” I said. “I’m watching over you.” I had a sickening memory of saying the same thing to Angela. Empty promises.
“I thought you left us. I thought you went away.” Her brightness dissolved into tears. “Mama and Papa can’t come home anymore. Can you?”
“Yes,” I said softly. “Yes, I can. But, Ibby, you must be patient. I’ll see you soon, I promise.”
“Okay.” She was a brave child, and she mastered her tears into wet snuffles. “I love you, Cassie.”
Human words. Human emotion. It felt too large for my chest, this feeling, too heavy with meaning. “Be well,” I whispered. “I will watch over you, Isabel.” I meant it.
I hung up the phone and handed it back to Luis, whose dark eyes were full of understanding. “She’ll break your heart,” he said. “I know.”
Our fingers brushed, and then I walked away to my small, silent room.
I slept very little, tormented by the memories of Manny and Angela lying dead, by the haunting sounds of Isabel’s tears, by the touch of Luis’s hands as he healed my injuries. These things were anchors, weighing me down. As a Djinn, I had been weightless, and without ties or cares, and that seemed far away now. Unreachable. All around me, the sounds of the human world roared on, and I found no peace within or without.
Morning found me awake and exhausted. In the light of the bathroom mirror, I was sallow, haggard, and the whites of my eyes were as pink as my hair. I shed my clothing slowly, dropping it piece by piece to the clean tile floor. As human bodies went, mine seemed overly tall, overly thin, barely softened by the rounded breasts and hips. My skin was of a fine, almost featureless texture, and it glowed pale under the harsh lights.
I am Djinn,I told my reflection. My reflection strongly disagreed.
The shower’s beating hot water restored me somewhat, and I wearily contemplated the problem of my dirty clothing. I would need to buy new garments eventually. These—even the leathers—had suffered during the night’s adventures. I had more, at the apartment the Wardens had provided. . . . But I knew, even without Luis loudly reminding me, that I should not return there. Home.It was not, though, and never would be. I had only one home, and it was far away, unreachable.
A careful pulse of power restored my clothes to a wearable state, removing grime, stains, smells, scrapes, and tears. I donned all the required pieces, including the leather, and used the motel’s drying device to return my hair to its usual flyaway puffball state.
And I waited, as Luis had instructed. The hours dragged by. I read the holy books provided in the drawers next to the bed, and was both pleased and annoyed—pleased that humans held their history in such high regard, and annoyed by translational inaccuracies.
Television proved to be something I was grateful I could turn off.
When the telephone rang, finally, I grabbed at it with eager relief. “Yes?”
There was a pause, a long one. “Cassiel?” Luis’s voice, and yet not his voice at all. I sat up slowly, hardly aware I had done so. There was something tired and awful in his voice. I looked at the clock beside the bed.
It was one in the afternoon. “Luis,” I said. “You have been to the funeral home.” That combination of words continued to strike me oddly.
“Yeah,” he said. His voice sounded slow and deep, as if every word seemed an effort. “About you. The Wardens have bigger problems than you right now, and the Djinn do, too. I’ve been trying to get anybody, up to Lewis, and it looks like we’re on our own.”
“I am no longer hunted?”
“Not by the Wardens. There are barely enough of us left in place to hold things together, much less go running around trying fight crime.”
“And the police?”
“I pulled a favor from the lead detective on the case—I knew him, from the old days. You’re off the hook. There’s no body, so they’re listing Sands as a missing person.” He paused. When his voice returned, it sounded very quiet and very vulnerable. “I picked out coffins. The funeral mass will be in a couple of days.”
“Funeral mass,” I repeated. “In the church?”
“Yes, in the church, where else would you have one?” he snapped, and I heard the harsh rattle of breath on the phone’s speaker. “Sorry. I’m just—me and Manny, we stuck together for a lot of years. Our mother died when we were kids, and Pop went a few years back. It’s just us, Angela’s family, and a bunch of cousins I barely know in Texas. I’m just feeling alone.”
“Can I leave the motel?” I asked. I was aware that I should say—something. But I had no notion of what comfort sounded like, among humans, and I did not think he would welcome it, not from me.
“What? Oh yeah. Yeah, sure. But watch your back.” I heard the scrape of metal—the brakes of a large vehicle, I thought—and Luis said, “I’ll be at Manny’s house. I have to go through things, start figuring out what to do for Ibby.”
“Is something wrong with Ibby?”
“It’s just that the court’s going to have to award guardianship to me for me to keep her. My lawyer says that’s just a formality if Angela’s parents don’t contest it.” He didn’t sound certain of that. “It’ll hurt her if this comes down to a fight.”
Once again, I had no wisdom to offer. Something within me was tired of all the drama, all the emotion, all the humanityof it. That part of me continued to whisper, ever louder, Walk away, Cassiel. You are eternal. They are ghosts in the wind.
Perhaps they were, but if I walked away, they would haunt me.
“I should go see Isabel,” I said. “I promised her.”
“Come over here first. I want to go with you.”
He sounded so quiet, so unhappy, that I felt it necessary to agree. When the call ended, I slid the room key into an interior pocket of my jacket, locked the door, and left without a backward glance. My motorcycle—still gleaming and largely unmarked—glittered in the sunlight a few spaces down. Keys . . . I searched my jacket pocket, found nothing. They were not in the ignition slot.
They’d fallen out at some point. I smiled slightly, touched my fingertip to the ignition, and willed the machine to life. The engine growled, settled to a low, contented purr, and I realized another thing that I had somehow lost during the evening’s festivities: my helmet.
The constant wind tugging at my hair was a new sensation, and I liked it. I liked the blast on my face, the sensation of flying without walls. I attracted stares, of course—why wouldn’t I?—but that was no longer an issue. My nerves prickled as I passed a police car, but they gave me only a flat, assessing glance and did not pursue.
I pulled to a stop in front of Manny’s house and silenced the engine. The street, as always, seemed quiet. There was rarely anyone to be seen in yards or on the sidewalks, even children. The windows, I realized, were all barred. Doors were blocked by wrought-iron gates.
It was a neighborhood of fortresses and fear.
I knocked on the door, and Luis opened it. He took a single second to look at me, and then nodded and turned away, walking into the living room. I closed the door behind me and followed.
In the bright light slanting in the windows, Luis looked infinitely tired. Older than he had only yesterday. He sat down at the table with a pile of papers and idly shuffled through them.