I could not go forward. There is no need,the Djinn part of me said. Their essences are gone from the shells. This is human ritual. You have no part of it.
The human part of me didn’t want to grieve again, and I knew that it would, once I took that last step.
I turned away, walking quickly. Other tragedies were unfolding here, families shattered, bonds broken, promises unkept. I am not human. I have no part of this. No part.
I was almost running when I reached the front door.
I stood in the stillness of the evening, watching the last rays of the sun fade behind mountains, and breathing in convulsive gasps.
“Hurts, doesn’t it?” someone said from behind me. I turned. I’d heard—sensed—no approach, neither human nor Djinn, and for a moment I saw nothing except shadows.
Then he stepped forward into the fading light. I had not known him in human form, but I recognized the Djinn essence of him immediately. He was a brilliant flame on the aetheric, a burst that exploded out in all directions and immediately hushed itself into utter stillness.
His name was Jonathan, and he was dead.
I fell to my knees. I didn’t mean to do so, but surprise and awe made it inevitable. I’m imagining this,I thought. Jonathan is dead and gone.
“Yeah, you keep on telling yourself that, Cassie. Can I call you Cassie? Ah, hell, I’m going to, so get used to it,” he said. He looked very, very human at the moment—tall, lean, comfortable in the skin he wore. His hair glinted silver, and his eyes—his eyes were as dark as the hidden moon. “Guys like me don’t exactly die. We sort of—get promoted.”
Jonathan had held the reins to power for all the Djinn for thousands of years. I had not loved him, but I hadrespected him—if nothing else, because he had commanded respect from Ashan, and Ashan had never been stupid enough to directly challenge him. There was comfort in Jonathan, and there was also dangerous intensity, cleverly concealed by his all-too-human manner.
But he was dead.He had to be dead. We had all felt it. His passing had shattered the entire Djinn world into pieces.
“I don’t—” My voice sounded very odd. “I don’t understand. You can’t be here—”
He flipped that away with a casual gesture. “Yeah, not staying, just passing through. Got things to do. So. How’s the world? Never mind, I know the answer. Always teetering on the verge of disaster, right?” He studied me for a second, and extended his hand. “Get up, I don’t like people on their knees.”
When I accepted the touch of his hand, it felt real. Warm and human. I held it for a moment too long before I dropped it. “Everyone believes you dead.”
“Good. Meant that, actually. It was time for me to move on, and there was no way to do it without giving up my spot in the great organizational tree of life. Like I said, I’m just passing through, so I’ve got no stake in things anymore. But I thought I’d drop in to say hello.”
“Why?”
“Why?” he echoed, and his eyebrows quirked up. “Yeah, I see your point; we weren’t exactly close. I was the boss, and I was too human for your taste. We call that irony, by the way, down here in the dirt.” He let that sink in for a moment, then smiled. “You realized what you’ve been given yet?”
“Given,” I repeated, and I heard flat anger in my voice. “What have I been given?” Everything I s” E"1e had once possessed had been ripped away from me. I’d been givennothing.
From his thin-edged smile, he knew what I was thinking. “You’ve been given a chance.”
“Chance. What chance? I have been cast out, crippled, forced into human skin. I’m hunted and despised. What chanceis this?”
“Something most Djinn never get,” said Jonathan, who had been born in mortal flesh only a few thousand years ago, and yet seemed far older than I. “A chance to learn something completely new. A chance to shed your old life and form yourself in a different body, a different shape, a different direction. You’re a blank slate, Cassiel, that’s your chance.” He didn’t blink, and I saw the flicker of stars in his eyes, endless galaxies of them, an eternity of possibilities. “Or just a chance to screw it all up, all over again. Anyway. You’re here for a reason.”
“I’m here because Ashan cast me out.”
He shook his head. “Something bigger than Ashan is in play, Peaches. You’ll figure it out. You always did have logic on your side, even if you were as cold as space. You have a battle ahead of you. Just thought I’d shake your hand while I could, and tell you good luck.”
Something rippled in the sky above us, like heat above a road, and Jonathan looked up sharply. His human body flared into light, pure white light, and I sensed the flash of steel-sharp wings as I covered my eyes.
I could see him even through closed lids and concealing fingers—a man-shaped bonfire, coursing with energies I couldn’t touch, couldn’t even identify.
Jonathan had gone far beyond the Djinn, into something that was legend even to us.
“Got battles of my own to fight,” his voice said, in a whisper that came shockingly close to my ear. “Think about what I said, Cassiel. Think about your chance. Remember how it feels to feel. It’s important.”
The light intensified into a burning pressure on my skin, and I turned my back, crying out, as those mighty wings carried the being who had once been the greatest of the Djinn up, out, away.
“Cassiel?”
Luis’s voice. I whirled, shaking, and saw him standing in the doorway, watching me with unmistakable concern. There were marks of tears on his face, but he seemed . . . peaceful.
“Something wrong?” he asked. He hadn’t seen.
Jonathan wasn’t visible, not to him.
I couldn’t begin to explain. I shook my head and wrapped my arms around myself, trying to control the chill I felt. I had been in the presence of something so great that I’d felt so small beside it, and it made me wonder—it forced the question of what else the Djinn didn’t know, couldn’t imagine.
Of what I had once been, and might still become. A chance, he’d said. But a chance to be what? Do what?
“It’s okay,” Luis said, and put his hand on my shoulder. “It’s good that you cared about them.”
Manny. Angela. He thought my tears were for them—and, in a way, they were, for all the chances wasted, for all that was unknown.
I took in a deep breath and nodded. “I did,” I said, and heard the surprise in my voice. “I did care.”
Luis put his arm around my shoulders and steered me back into the funeral home, and with his hand in mine, I went to look for the last time on the first two human friends I had known.
I went to say good-bye.
I was surprised by how many people came to the viewing. Greta, the Fire Warden with the scarred face, came to pay her respects and talk quietly with Luis for a moment. She glanced toward where I sat at the back of the room, and for an instant I thought she would speak to me, but she changed course and shook hands instead with Sylvia, who sat remote and quiet near her daughter’s coffin.
Some came with flowers. Some cried. All felt uncomfortable here, in the presence of such massive change.
No one spoke to me.
At eight o’clock, the funeral director with the sad face came to me to whisper that it was time to close the viewing.
Luis was shaking hands with the last few visitors when the doors at the back opened again, and five young men walked in—Hispanic, dressed in casual, sloppy clothing. Glaring colors, baggy blue jeans topped by oversized sports team jackets, all for either UNLV or the San Francisco 49ers.
Four of them were nothing: followers. Killers, most assuredly, with jet-black eyes and no hint of conscience behind them.
But it was the one in front I watched.