Danny looks nothing like Jack. Coloring and eyes, around the mouth, he is his mother’s boy. While Danny has noticed, he has yet to undertake any serious forays beyond the gender gulf. He has no serious friends of the fairer persuasion, though I have seen a few girls bat their eyes his way, lashes like Venus fly-traps. In his own way, while not effeminate, Danny was prettier than they were. The gyrations of MTV seem to hold no apparent allure. I have never seen him out-of-doors without a baseball cap, worn to the ears in the image of idols on trading cards from the fifties. By all appearances he has avoided the social disorder of American youth, the affliction of ‘cool.’ But he has paid a price. Danny suffers the immutable pain of not being one of the guys. His single attempt at socialization, a ride in a boosted buggy with the boys, was powered by peer pressures more combustible than anything in an engine block. And it ended with a sputtering backfire, in the glare of a flashing light bar and the harsh words of a father who for much of Danny’s life was absent. All things considered, I think Danny Vega would have been happier had he been born on a farm in a verdant field — sometime in the last century.
‘She said you went over to Dad’s, that something happened.’ The ‘she’ he is talking about I assume is Mrs. Bailey, who’s been fielding my phone. Danny is a lexicon of disjointed thoughts.
‘Julie’s inside.’ He offers this up without my asking.
‘I think she’s asleep,’ he says.
He doesn’t ask what happened at his father’s. Instead he’s off again on another wavelength, something about wax and a model he has to make, a project for school, he says.
I do a double take at four in the morning. Wax.
‘Your aunt used to use some for canning. I think there might be some in the garage,’ I say. ‘Can it wait till morning?’ I give him a large yawn.
‘Okay.’
‘When did you see your mom last?’
He makes a face, thinking back. ‘Three — or so. Maybe it was four.’
To Danny time is a fungible commodity. Like grain or pork bellies, any hour of the day can be traded for any other. He doesn’t own a watch.
‘She went out, said she’d be back.’
I give him a look, like — ‘And?’
‘She never showed up.’
This is not a usual occurrence, the reason the boy is here.
Laurel may be many things, but she is not a dilettante mother. Her few wayward evenings turned into early dawn, like the escapade with her confessor, I can count almost on the hairs of my palm. These infrequent lapses have occurred only when the kids were safely elsewhere. Laurel is not one to subject her children to the odious intrusion of quick alcoholic lovers or fortnight Lotharios.
I ask Danny if he’s eaten.
‘Some Froot Loops and a banana.’
‘You hungry?’ I ask
‘Sure.’
I wave him on into the house and forage in the cupboards of the kitchen for some crackers and a can of soup. These days I am not exactly a dietitian’s wet dream.
Mrs. Bailey has fallen asleep on my front room couch. I can see her through the open door of the kitchen, and feel the rattle of her snoring on the floorboards.
‘Where were you tonight? I called the house earlier, nobody answered.’ I put the can in the opener. It twirls like a carousel until the lid collapses.
He rolls his eyes, gives me a kind of dumb-kid smile.
‘Julie asked me to go over to a friend’s. She uses me,’ he says, ‘like for wheels. It’s not that I mind,’ he says. But I can tell he’s embarrassed, performing shuttle duties for his sister, who is two years younger, to her boyfriend’s house. Unlike her brother, Julie’s social plane is pressurized, and designed to fly in the stratosphere. She dates boys older than Danny, guys who think nothing of calling her at ten to have her over at eleven.
Julie is a honey-blonde, with blue eyes, good bones, and a feminine form that is ripening faster than her ability to reason. She is learning all too quickly that good looks, rather than good works, can often get you what you want.
The downsides, the temptations of excess and the price to be paid, still elude the telemetry of her radar. At thirteen she is the sexual equivalent of a toddler with a nuclear warhead. Were I Julie’s father, I would have my broker investing heavily in a nunnery.
I put the soup in front of Danny, no ladle, just a bowl, microwave hot. I draw up a chair across from him at the table.
‘There’s something I have to talk to you about.’
He’s spooning it down, looking up at me with doelike eyes. His cap is politely off, on the table next to his dish with crackers.
‘There was an accident tonight at your dad’s house. A bad accident. A shooting,’ I say.
He takes the spoon away from his mouth, and still holding it, rests forearm and utensil on the table. The spoon is shaking at its tip.
‘Is my dad all right?’ He’s looking at me wide-eyed.
With all the anguish of an open custody battle, and Jack’s short temper with the boy, Danny still cares about his father.
‘Your dad’s fine.’
He starts to eat again.
‘But Melanie is dead,’ I say.
He stops for a moment and looks at me, swallows hard. There was no love lost with Melanie, the usual friction of kids with a stepparent. But still I can tell that he is rattled by this news. To the young, life is an infinite, never-ending party. Even for kids like Danny, who live outside the loop of their peers, death is a vagrant who wanders another street. I had watched him at Nikki’s funeral. To Danny it was something surreal to have known someone, to have talked to and touched someone who was no longer with us.
‘How’d it happen?’ he asks.
‘They don’t know for sure. The police are still investigating.’
‘The cops?’ he says.
‘They investigate any cause of death that is not natural,’ I tell him.
‘Oh — I guess so,’ he says.
He’s back to the spoon. But I can tell things are rattling around upstairs under that mop of hair.
‘I guess Dad’s pretty shook up.’
‘You could say that.’
I don’t tell him that the police are looking to question his mother. He will find out soon enough. I can hope that in the interim, circumstances might conspire to put her in the clear. Little sense in worrying the kid until I know more.
‘Are you okay?’ I say. I’m eyeing him as this news goes down with the soup to be digested.
‘The wax,’ he says, ‘is it white, pretty clear?’
‘Emm?’
‘For the model,’ he says.
‘Ah. Yeah. In a block,’ I say. ‘A white block, as I remember.’
‘Will you help me find it first thing?’ he says.
‘Sure. Eat and get some sleep.’ Earth to Danny. The kid is off on a frequency of his own. What is left of my family is coming apart, and Danny Vega is worried about wax.
This morning I am running on adrenaline and something that looks like the discharge from the Exxon Valdez. I take a sip and my tongue curls like a slug in death throes. An hour’s sleep in a night can do funny things to your eyes. I wonder if maybe the sign over the little drive-in stall read ‘Esso’ instead of’ ‘Espresso.’
When I arrive, Harry Hinds is in my office, borrowing my morning paper. Harry has an office down the hall. We share a library and reception services and have talked about a partnership. It’s one of those things, we talk, but neither of us is willing to make the first move. Like Harry says, ‘Why ruin a good friendship with marriage?’
Hinds is almost twenty years my senior, a fixture in the legal community of this city. A balding head and a nose like Karl Malden’s, he has done some heavy-duty criminal work in his day, and now talks a lot about retirement. Those who know him well tell me that Harry has been talking about retirement since he passed the bar forty years ago. I have no doubt that when the end comes they will have to pry Harry’s dead fingers from his briefcase, which he packs like a portable office. For Harry there are too many psychic battles ahead to pitch it in. He now feeds on referrals from my practice along with a steady diet of his own clients and acts as my number two in heavier cases.