To prove I’m not dense, I waved the waitress back. “That’s bloody brilliant, Meryl. You should have some hot, spicy chicken tenders. In fact, let me order and pay for them.”
She winked and lifted her glass. “Excellent. I don’t usually like ad-libbing, but that’s good. Anyway, given what I know of the cultural context of the Old Irish, and this ogham spell looks Old Irish in form, I’d say death-place is a kenning for Mag Mell.”
She downed the remainder of her beer as the waitress arrived. “Another round, please, and I believe the gentleman is adding onion rings to his order.”
I added onion rings to my order. “Why Mag Mell?”
She shrugged. “It’s a place-name kenning from the text position, and given that you found it at a painful murder scene, the type of otherworld would be the opposite of pain. Mag Mell-the plain of joy-where the dead living is easy. Plus, it’s Samhain. Murderers aren’t very creative about their timing.”
Impressed, I shook my head and smiled. “You really are brilliant.”
She stood. “Yes, well, now I have to pee. When I come back, remind me to tell you about the time I killed Liddell Viten.”
She walked off into the crowd. My entire body felt like it was sinking into the chair. I couldn’t speak when the waitress served our order, but stared at the food and wondered what to say when Meryl came back.
Meryl returned, took an onion ring, and chewed it with a caustic smile.
I licked my lips. “You talked to Keeva.”
She shook her head and gazed up at the ceiling. “No, I didn’t. I got several messages from you and a request from macNeve to send the Ardman file to Murdock. Whatever could have occurred in the complex mind of Connor Grey for him to be calling me so frantically?”
“Why are you acting so offended?”
She narrowed her eyes. “Are you going to tell me you weren’t going to ask me about it?”
I felt like a schoolkid caught skipping out. “No, but I don’t know why you’re making me feel guilty about it.”
She piled some chicken on her plate. “You’re right. You shouldn’t feel guilty about asking. You should feel guilty about being passive-aggressive. You could have left a message about it or asked me when we first sat down. Instead, you do this ‘please, please, call me’ crap and ‘aren’t these interesting runes’ crap when I know damned well all you really want to do is ask about how I killed someone.”
I reached across and grabbed her arm as she was stabbing a chicken tender. Someone might call me brave. “Hey! Knock it off! You are being so out of line right now. First off, I’ve been calling you since before I knew about Viten. And second off, excuse me for respecting the fact that you know a helluva lot more about runes than I do.”
She tried to pull her arm away. I made her work at it before releasing her. “You don’t know anything, Grey. All I’ve ever done is my job, and I don’t think it includes watching coworkers injured, or killing an escaped prisoner, or getting attacked by flying knives, or feeling like I did something wrong because I happened to be in the wrong place at the right time and helped stop a major interdimensional meltdown.”
I stabbed my finger at the table. “You work for the Guild, Meryl. It’s in your job description under ‘other duties as necessary. ’ ”
She threw herself back against her chair. “That’s not even funny.”
I still had my fingertip jammed against the tabletop. I took a deep breath and let my hand fall flat. “Why are we arguing?”
Meryl rubbed her hands up under her bangs. “You’re right. It’s not your fault. It’s the Guild’s. I’m just tired that after all these years, I’m still looking for recognition. That place owes me, big-time.”
I put a sickly-sweet smile on my face. “I can’t fault them. Your attraction for me started because of our mutual disgust at the Guild.”
She leaned her head on her hand and popped a piece of chicken in her mouth. “Now that’s funny.”
“Tell me about Viten so we can drop it,” I said.
She toyed with a water ring on the table before looking up at me. “There’s not much to tell. I was in my office alone. It was just after I had been promoted, actually.”
“That’s recognition,” I said.
She shrugged. “Sure, if getting the job only because the chief archivist left is considered recognition.”
“Anyway…”
She smiled grudgingly, which faded. “Anyway, I heard a scream, then I heard essence-fire. When I reached the door, I saw a body in the elevator and two more down in the hallway. I didn’t know if they were alive or dead. Coming toward me was Viten. I didn’t know his name then. In fact, I didn’t think he was the attacker. He seemed so calm, I actually thought he was some kind of security guard coming to evacuate me. He acted like he didn’t see me. I asked him what was going on. All of sudden he grabbed me by the neck. My body shields came on, and he started to lose his grip. I could feel him charging essence into his hands.”
She took a deep breath. “I grabbed him by the head and let loose with everything I had.”
She frowned, playing with the water rings.
“You essence shocked him,” I said.
She met my eyes. I saw no doubt, no trauma. Just the direct stare of someone who had done something to survive. “If I had to do it again, Grey, I would do it exactly the same.”
I nodded once in agreement. I had been there, too. You did what you had to do to get through. “I’m sorry. It’s not just morbid curiosity, you know. I have a murder investigation, and I need to cover all the bases.”
“I get it. You need to work on your delivery,” she said.
I fussed with an onion ring to avoid making eye contact. “So, I was worried you weren’t returning my phone calls.”
“Yeah, sorry about that, too. It really has been crazy.”
I played my index finger across the back of her hand. “Yeah. Yeah, sure. I thought, you know, after…”
A slow smile cut across her face. “Oh, shit. It was a day-after call, wasn’t it?”
I hoped I wasn’t blushing. She’d never let me forget it. “Yeah.”
She leaned across the table and kissed my cheek. “Thank you. That was sweet.” She settled back and began eating again.
“That’s it?” I asked.
Her eyebrows went up. “What?”
“Meryl, we had sex.”
She nodded. “I was there, remember? I’m not going to turn into some kind of call-me, call-me chick, if that’s what you’re worried about. I’m not holding you to anything for it.”
I took a deep breath. “What if I want to be held to something?”
Her face became unreadable. “We had a moment, Grey. We needed each other. It was good for both of us, but I don’t want it to get blown out of proportion.”
I nodded, knowing I was nodding too much and feeling stupid. “Sure, sure. Fine.”
She took my hand in hers. “Will you stop? Geez, we’re not virgins here. Lighten up.”
I forced myself to smile. “Okay. I don’t want to play games.”
She lifted her beer, and a vicious curl came to her lip. “I wouldn’t think of it.”
I had no idea why I wanted to be with this woman.
CHAPTER 15
The Boston Police Area B station house down on West Broad-way had the look of a grizzled survivor. Even though the Boston P.D. paid my bills more often than they knew, I never felt welcome at the station house. I worked on cases because they didn’t. I helped close cases they couldn’t. They tolerated me because of Murdock, but I was under no delusion they liked me.
As if to demonstrate the point, everyone in the detective bullpen managed to be on the phone as I waited at the counter. A full fifteen minutes passed before someone offered to track down Murdock. He appeared in the hallway and motioned me to follow him. He opened the door to a dingy conference room with a table, a few scarred wooden chairs, an empty watercooler, and peeling paint. An open file box sat on the table.