He turned to her, attacking her mouth as she groaned loudly. She thrust her tongue between his lips, and he broke away from her mouth, moving down her neck just to get her tongue out of his mouth. He was panting, and she likely thought it was arousal driving his gasping and lurching breaths. Hardly. But he yanked the straps of her slinky top down her shoulders, sucking on the skin of her neck. She tasted like perfume, and he wondered for a moment if he could get drunk off her skin.
“Oh, God, Darren. Please fuck me.”
He was absolutely going to fuck this woman.
Chapter Twenty-Eight
She showed up the next morning, dreading walking through his door. Her night had been filled with nothing but pain, and she was kicking herself for letting her mind go to a place where she and Darren could actually be something more than enemies. She’d not expected him to ask her out or anything, but she sure as hell didn’t expect to come face-to-face with this part of his life.
What the hell did she expect? Did she think the man was celibate? No! He’d not hidden that fact. The half box of condoms and the tube of lube in his nightstand said it clearly enough. He’d all but kicked her out after the other night. She’d challenged him on his intent with her, and he hadn’t appreciated it. Why the hell would he? There was an empty wine bottle in the sink and two glasses. The house otherwise looked fairly normal . . . that was until she walked into the bedroom.
The bedding was in disarray, and it was quite obvious two bodies had slept there. The sight of his bed alone caused a gut reaction that she couldn’t stifle. She sank to the side of the bed and started to cry. It had always hurt to know what he did with other women because she’d always wanted to be the woman. But they didn’t have that relationship, and that was as much her unwillingness to go there as it was his to some extent, but this was different. They obviously still didn’t have that relationship, but it wasn’t for lack of want, at least not on her side. He knew damn well she wanted him, and the fact she didn’t have him obviously still had the power to hurt like a razor to the skin.
She cried like a pathetic child until her pain had turned to anger. When he suddenly walked through the bedroom door, he gave her anger an outlet he likely hadn’t bargained for. She stood, the tears still sitting on her lower rims and more streaked and drying on her cheeks. He glanced at her, and his brow flinched in what looked like pain for a moment. It couldn’t possibly be, seeing as he’d left his bed this way for her to see. He walked casually to his dresser, grabbing his wallet that he’d obviously forgotten, and by the time he turned back around to leave, her face was a scrunched-up snarl of fury.
“Good morning, Bailey.” He spoke casually as though she wasn’t standing in front of him with tear-streaked cheeks. His expression was cool and calm, though there was no escaping the tension in his jaw.
“Fuck you.” She was seething as she spoke through her snarling mouth.
“No, I don’t think so.” His voice was taunting, and he walked casually by her toward the bedroom door. “Wash the bedding, please.” To say those words hurt was an understatement. They stabbed so hard she had to force her throat to relax enough to get air, but then the fury hit again, and she regrouped. This man was not going to destroy her.
“I want to play a game.” Her voice was lower than normal. Her head was only lifted high enough to keep her eyes on him. She looked like a ravenous animal ready to attack; more than that, she felt like a ravenous animal ready to attack. He rounded toward her, still expressionless.
“Still think I owe you some words, do you?”
“I don’t give a fuck about your words, but I’ll be damned if I don’t share mine.” She was practically spitting as she spoke, and when she took a step toward him, she shared the only thing she had left to give. “Utterly cruel. . .” She took another step. He watched her with an almost amused expression on his face, but he couldn’t control the tension in his jaw, and it gave him away. “Hateful.” Another step, and she watched as the tension spread to his neck. “Pathetic.” Another step, and now she could see his jaw clenching and releasing over and over. His nostrils flared, and the muscles of his neck were strained so hard she thought they might snap. His face was still cold and completely controlled, but he was losing it, and she didn’t need him to say a word to see it. “Hollow.” She was standing right in front of him now, peering up into his now livid dark and dangerous eyes. “Dead.”
“I hate you.” He looked like he could barely speak through his gritted teeth and tight jaw. She wasn’t offended by his words. She’d already hit her offense limit for the morning, and he was only saying it because she’d won.
“Well, then, you and I have something in common.” His brow flinched in confusion before he could stop the reaction. “We’ve both been on the receiving end of your hate. Whadya say? I’ll forgive myself if you forgive yourself. Dare ya.” He stared at her. He was panting, and his eyes glossed as he looked at her. He swallowed over what looked like a golf ball he couldn’t get down, and then his breath left him in a pained rush.
He turned from her and walked away, saying nothing. She’d gotten to him, there was no question. But he’d not given in. His defenses were locked in place, and after she heard him drive away, she crumpled to the floor and sobbed again. The entire encounter had exhausted her, and she ended up falling asleep on his bed for an hour before she finally climbed up, stripped the bedding, and tossed it in the wash.
She called Michelle and gave her the blow-by-blow while Michelle locked herself in her office. She occasionally hollered to some unknown interruption that she was on an important business phone call and to leave her alone.
“Girl, you have got balls as big as the state fair grand champion-winning bull or pig bull or the pig equivalent to a bull or whatever . . . That was a fail, wasn’t it?”
“Yeah, it was a fail. But I saw the largest bull exhibit once, and them are some big ass balls. So, I got the meaning, and I’ll take that as a compliment.” Her tension was finally melting to some degree. She was hurt. More than hurt, but she’d stuck up for herself, and God, she needed that.
“Listen, I gotta go. Apparently the business stops running when I lock myself in my office for an hour. Oh, hey, we have a cashier spot opening up soon. It’s yours if you want it.”
“Oh, Michelle. I’ll think about it, but honestly, I think I would hate working for you.” She was actually a bit serious when she said it because in truth, she didn’t want any strains on the only friendship she had. Didn’t mean she wouldn’t think about it. But then, she was starting to think about Memphis too. She hadn’t agreed to stick around so she could be emotionally tortured by him, and promise or not, after the night before and the morning she’d had, she didn’t feel like she owed him much of anything.
“Okay. Don’t forget about the Summer Kick-Off Festival this Friday. We’re going.”
“Tell me again why we celebrate a completely made-up holiday in the middle of June by setting off fireworks three weeks before the Fourth of July?”
“Surplus in the budget? I don’t know.”
“I’ll see you then.”
She took Macy for a long run that afternoon. She pushed through more miles than she likely had any business going, and when she got back, she fed Macy and left for the day. There was no way in hell she’d be sticking around to see him today. There was actually no way in hell she’d be putting herself in his path at all anymore. She really wanted to reach him, soften him, see if there was any way he could ever forgive her. But she was giving up, and that was a sad thing to admit.