“Yes. I’m on my way to Rotary Club right now, and I’ll spread the word. A lot of the women there have known Celia for years, and they’ll know who should be notified of the funeral arrangements.”
“Okay. I’ll talk to you tomorrow.”
“Give her our best.” His mother disconnected, and he stared out at the darkening woods beyond the window for a moment before returning to the living.
Bailey stood just as he approached. “I’m going to bed.” Her voice was as catatonic as her expression, and Michelle hugged her before she stumbled away. They watched her climb the stairs, and when she was out of sight, they sat.
“Michelle, I hate to ask, and if there’s someone else that can go, that’s fine. Hell, I’ll go if you tell me where. But we’re going to have to find a burial dress for Celia, and. . .”
“I can go. I’ll leave tomorrow morning. Bailey will need some clothes anyway. I’ll grab her key from her purse.” Michelle stood and turned toward the door, but she stilled and turned back. “What are your intentions with her?”
He thought for a moment before responding. “That’s more up to her than me at this point. I want her here. And not just Savoy here. Here. My home here.”
“What’s changed?”
“What hasn’t?”
“Her mother dying shouldn’t be the reason you want her to stay.” He didn’t even try to respond. It wasn’t something he was even willing to try to wrap his head around at the moment. She grabbed the keys quickly and let herself out. He bounded up the stairs two at a time and entered his bedroom, ready to curl up next to her. He didn’t intend to find his bed empty. He checked the bathroom before he returned to the hallway. He found her curled up in the spare bedroom, staring at the wall. He wasn’t happy she’d chosen to come in here rather than his bed.
He sat beside her, and she peered up to him. “Please come to my bed.” Her brow wrinkled, but she didn’t argue. She stood, and he led her silently to his bedroom. He crawled in next to her, and she faced him. He kissed her lips, and she kissed back. It was the most response she’d given him.
“I don’t know what I’m supposed to do anymore.” Her voice was lurching, and the tears in her eyes were so desperate it hurt. It was panic. She was just lost, and she didn’t know how to find herself. “What do I do now?”
He wanted to say move in, be with him, let him take care of her, but he had no idea how far to push it with her. “Right now, you rest. You don’t need to figure anything out tonight.”
That seemed to pacify her for the time, and she snuggled into his chest. She fell asleep, and he watched her. He brushed the hair away from her face and kissed her brow. He studied every ounce of soft, pale skin on her face. She moaned quietly in her sleep, and he ran the palm of his hand down the side of her face, feeling the smooth, unblemished skin glide like corn silk under his hand, and then he said it. He meant it, but he was also trying it on for size. “I love you.” She murmured incoherently in her sleep, and he closed his eyes, drifting away with her.
Chapter Forty-Eight
When her eyes opened, he was there beside her, breathing quietly as he slept. It was sunny outside, and Macy was sitting beside the bed staring at her. She reached over Darren’s body and scratched the top of Macy’s head. When she pulled her hand back, his eyes were open.
“Hi.” Her voice was hoarse and her throat scratchy from crying the day before. He kissed her on the lips.
“Hi. How about I start a bath and make us some coffee.” She nodded. He climbed from bed still fully dressed, and she realized she was too. She was a bit foggy on everything that had happened the day before. Her mother had died. That was about all she knew with concrete certainty. He walked to the bathroom, returning moments later as she heard the bathtub faucet start. He left the room, and she sat on the side of the bed for a couple minutes, staring at the floor. She felt like a statue. She felt nothing at all at the moment. She knew it wasn’t true. Her heart was breaking, but at the moment, she just felt numb. She should probably enjoy it while it lasted. She wasn’t stupid enough to think the pain wouldn’t come back.
He returned with a couple cups of coffee, and she followed him into the bathroom. He set them both on the wide rim surrounding the large soaker tub, and when he turned to her, he reached for the top button of her dress. He undid each one and pushed the dress off her shoulders to pool at her feet. As he reached around her to unclasp her bra, she looked up to him. They stared at one another for many long seconds, and it wasn’t until her eyes dropped to the floor between them that he finished unclasping her bra. He finally slid her underwear down her hips before helping her into the bath. She was back to silence.
He undressed quickly and sank in across from her. He watched her as he started kneading the soles of her feet. His touch was so perfectly gentle, and she stared at his chest as her body relaxed into his touch. There was nothing at all sexual about it, though his body was aroused. It wasn’t difficult to see through the still water between them, and when he caught her looking, he cleared his throat. She sipped her coffee, and she stared. She had no idea what else to do with herself.
“My mom would like to take you to Jepson’s this afternoon to meet with Bill. Are you okay with that?” He watched her. He seemed nervous. “Michelle is going to Memphis to pack some clothes for you and to find a burial dress for your mom.” She wasn’t responding, and she knew she should. He looked so uncomfortable, and who wouldn’t be? This couldn’t be an easy conversation to have with anyone. “We were thinking a graveside service, perhaps the day after tomorrow.” Her eyes sank to his enlarged arousal, and he cleared his throat again. She just stared, imagining what it was like to make love to him. She wanted that. Something that felt good. Something that hurt in the right way. “Bailey, please answer me.”
She finally looked up to his eyes, and she nodded. “Thank you.” Her emotions were out of reach, and she couldn’t seem to connect what she was supposed to be feeling with how she was behaving. She pulled her feet from him, and he looked at her hesitantly. He seemed so nervous, and she really didn’t intend to make him feel that way. She crawled into his lap, and when he scooted forward and wrapped her legs around his waist, he sighed and nuzzled his mouth against her neck.
She lost track of time, but when he finally drained the tub, she was a prune and the water was cool. She lifted her head from his shoulder, and he smiled gently at her. It was a small smile, and she tried to return it, but her mouth hurt.
“Tell me what you’re thinking?”
She looked at his mouth as it moved. His lips and the shape of his mouth reminded her so much of Jess. It was a pretty mouth. His teeth were straight and white, and she could barely see them past his lips as he spoke. She touched his mouth, trailing her fingers across his lips. He liked to touch her lips. He’d done it many times since her return, and she thought she knew why. There was something incredibly intimate about a mouth. His lower lip was tugged slightly to the side as her finger passed over it, and she watched. She could feel his arousal flexing and twitching between their bodies. He’d made no move to touch her in that way, and she wasn’t sure what to think about it. Of course, she couldn’t seem to figure out how to feel about much of anything at the moment.
“Bailey?” Her eyes flashed to his. He’d asked her something, but she had no idea what. “Sweetie?” Her brow was wrinkled in confusion. She could feel it pinched up as she tried to remember what he’d asked.