Ryan didn’t say anything.
“Then you work on me some more,” Denise said. “What do you have in mind? I mean, how do you get any of it out of me? Unless maybe we got married. Jesus, there must be an awful lot in this.”
“A hundred and fifty thousand,” Ryan said. “You were going to get half, but the way they’re thinking now, you don’t get anything.” As he said it, he felt better. But it was a little late and not doing much for Denise at all.
She was saying, “A hundred and fifty thousand dollars? Bobby owned something worth that much?”
“It’s stock,” Ryan said. “I don’t know what kind, though. His dad put it in his name when he was born and it’s been going up ever since.” He watched her thinking about it. “That’s a few bottles of wine, isn’t it?”
She looked at him. “You really AA, or is that part of your bullshit?”
“I wasn’t looking for you when I went to that meeting,” Ryan said. “I needed to go. You said your name, I still wasn’t sure. You remember talking to me in the bar?”
“Virgil mentioned it. I’m not sure.” She started to rise, then sat back again and put her hands on the wooden chair arms to pull herself up. She went into the hallway and came out again, looking at the floor.
“I can’t find my goddamn shoes.”
“Where you going?”
“Out.”
“Why don’t you go to bed? I mean it.”
“You mean shit.” Denise went into the kitchen then and turned on the light. “There you are,” she said to her sandals.
Ryan went over to the door and put on the chain lock. She came out, taking her purse from the counter, and stopped, looking at the door and then at Ryan. When she moved toward the door, Ryan stepped in front of her.
“Come on, what’re you going to do, tie me up?”
“Think about tomorrow,” Ryan said.
“Think about tomorrow. It sounds like a fucking soap opera. Get out of the way.”
“If you go to bed now,” Ryan said, “not have any more, you’ll be in pretty good shape.”
Maybe. She was having trouble with her balance. Her eyes, narrowed at him, were glazed. She was past thinking or listening or reasoning. If she told him she hated him or wanted to kill him, he’d believe it.
“I’m going out,” Denise said. “You stop me and I’ll have all the more reason. You said it, I didn’t. All the more reason to feel sorry for myself. Right? You’ll be responsible for it, you sneaky son of a bitch.”
“I’ve changed my mind,” Ryan said. “I don’t give a shit what you feel, you’re going to bed.”
He grabbed her, pinning her arms to her body, and dragged her, twisting against him, into the bedroom.
Denise stopped fighting. She said, “All right, leave me alone.” She stood by the double bed, weaving slightly.
“Get undressed,” Ryan said.
Denise looked at him, closing one eye. “Now we’re horny, huh? I’ve been wondering when it was coming. All the times you’ve been here, I was thinking, I don’t know, maybe he doesn’t have any balls. Is that your problem, Ryan? No balls, huh?”
He left the room as she spoke, crossed the small hallway to the bathroom, and looked in the medicine cabinet for aspirin. There was a small bottle of Excedrin. He had to go to the kitchen for a glass of water. When he came back to the bedroom, Denise had her slacks off and was pulling the navy-blue sweater over her head. Ryan looked at her compact little can in the white panties. Good thighs, slender; but very pale. She needed sunlight on her and clean air. Ryan thought of Florida again, the second time that day, this time seeing the two of them, tan, walking along a sundown empty beach.
“Fucking sweater,” Denise said, inside the navy-blue folds. It was caught on her bracelet. She pulled the sweater free, dropping it, and was looking at him again. Ryan handed her two Excedrin tablets and the glass of water. She took them without a word and handed the glass back to him, staring again with her glazed expression.
“I’m gonna stay here tonight,” Ryan said.
“Uh-huh.” She was unbuttoning her blouse now, working down from the top.
“I’ll be in the other room.”
“You’re not going to sleep with me?”
He moved to the bed and pulled the madras spread and sheet from the pillows. “No, but I’ll tuck you in,” Ryan said.
“Was that tuck you said?”
“Be nice, okay? Get in bed.”
“How nice? Hey, Ryan…”
When he looked at her she opened her blouse to show her breasts for a moment and let the blouse fall closed again. They were small breasts, but good ones.
“What do you say, Ryan, you want to fuck?”
He walked around the foot of the bed to the door.
“Hey, I thought you were gonna tuck me in.” She pulled the blouse off, hooked her thumbs in the waist of the panties, and pushed them down. When she tried to step out, she stumbled against the bed. Ryan watched her from the doorway.
Denise rolled onto the bed. She settled on her back, on top of the madras cover, her legs apart, the panties caught on one ankle. As she looked at him now, with a contrived expression, eyes half-closed, she raised up on her elbows and spread her legs a little more.
“Come on, Ryan honey. You and God Honey, you know everything, don’t you? You prick. Come on, you sneaky little prick, let’s see if you’re any good.” She moved her hips up and down, twice.
Ryan moved to the side of the bed. “Lift up your can.”
“Like this?” She arched her back, raising her pelvis toward him. “You want some of that?”
Ryan pulled the spread and sheet to the foot of the bed and brought them back, letting the covers settle over her. He went out, closing the door. In the living room, as he sat down and reached for a cigarette, he heard her call him. Hey, Ryan, repeating it several times. He heard her call him a rotten motherfucker and heard her voice, sounds, but not the words clearly. Finally there was silence.
During the night he thought about Denise and would see her body again, the way she had showed it to him, her private nakedness that he had had to imagine before. He wasn’t worried about Denise now. That was a funny thing; he had a good feeling about her. She wasn’t down in a hole, depressed; she was mad, and that was something he felt he could handle. What he thought about most of the night, when he’d wake up sitting in the canvas chair with his feet on the edge of the low table, was Mr. Perez. Mr. Perez in his hotel suite. Mr. Perez speaking in his quiet, deceptive tone. Mr. Perez, shit, standing on this thing immobile, like a dead weight, and the bayou hillbilly helping him hold it down.
How did you go about pushing Mr. Perez, or faking him out? Leave him standing there with nothing.
In the morning, he heard Denise get up and go into the bathroom. She came out and went back to the bedroom. When she appeared she was wearing a raincoat, barefoot, her hands deep in the pockets of the coat.
“It’s cold in here.” Her voice was subdued: someone who had come out of a sickroom.
Ryan looked over. “How’re you doing?”
“I can’t find the Excedrin.”
“Oh, it’s in the kitchen. I’ll get it.”
He rose, pushing out of the chair and arching the stiffness from his neck. She was already in the kitchen, standing at the sink with the water running, her back to him as he came in.
“I’m sorry,” she said.
“You mean, for trying to seduce me?”
“I remembered-when I woke up I remembered things I said… what I did. I’m very sorry.”
“How do you feel otherwise?”
“Otherwise, shitty. I’ll thank you for one thing,” Denise said, “not letting me have any more last night. Beyond that, I’m not sure we have anything to talk about.”
Ryan turned her around by the shoulders, seeing her eyes briefly, before she looked away.
“We have quite a bit to talk about, after you have some breakfast.”
“Just coffee.”
“All right, just coffee,” Ryan said. “I’m not going to argue with you. I’m not going to try and force you to believe or do anything I say. But I’m going to ask you to listen to me. After that, if you want us to be friends again, fine. If you don’t, okay, that’s that. But you’re not allowed to think of something else while I’m talking, or what you’d like to say, or interrupt with some smartass remark. All right?”