Dear Connor. Don't Die. XXOO, Meryl. P.S. Nice going on that whole end of the world thing.
I smiled. I guess I was wrong about the relentlessly cheerful smiley face owner. I placed the card back on the nightstand. It slid off and fluttered to the floor. I didn't even try to catch it.
"We have to stop meeting like this," said Briallen.
Exhausted, I moved only my eyes to look at her. She was sitting up straighter, but however long her nap had been didn't erase the fatigue from her face.
"How's Murdock?"
"He's fine. He's two floors down."
I frowned. It was unusual for Avalon to treat humans. "Why's he here?"
"Power backlash of some kind. It's playing with his essence, but he appears fine. He doesn't remember anything after showing up at the fort. Want to tell me what happened?"
"First, tell me about the others."
She leaned forward. "Shay's exhausted, but fine, at least physically. When they brought him here after Castle Island, he woke up screaming. Apparently he was having blackouts and his memories came back. He was at some of the murders. Gillen found the remnants of a possession spell on him."
"Makes sense," I said. "I couldn't figure out why Shay kept having so many connections to what was happening. Gethin must have used him to find victims and gain access to Corcan Sidhe."
Briallen nodded in agreement. "He's blaming himself for what happened, but, really, he was defenseless against someone like that."
Poor Shay. I hoped he was strong enough to get past it. "What about Corcan?"
"I'm told he's healthier than ever. The ritual had a positive effect on him." She paused.
"Keeva's dead," I said.
Briallen took my hand and squeezed. "No, hon'. She's alive. Why did you think she was dead?"
Relief swept over me. "I thought I watched her die. What did she say?"
"She said she put a barrier over the fort to contain the spell."
'That's it?"
"That's it."
I nodded. Keeva being modest was interesting.
"Okay. Me. What's wrong?"
"Let's see… a ruptured spleen, a collapsed lung, torn knee ligaments, your arm is fractured in three places, a concussion…" She smiled. "You've been out of it for nine days. Let's just say for now that you're not dead and leave it at that."
I didn't say anything for a moment. I could feel emotional heat rise in my face. Briallen knew me pretty well. She knew I didn't like crying. "I had my ability back, Briallen. It's gone again, but I had it back and I still failed."
She rubbed my hand. "You didn't fail. You beat the thing, averted a catastrophe, and everyone escaped relatively unharmed."
"Relatively."
She rolled her eyes. "Fine. I won't argue with you today."
"Was that really you at the end?"
She leaned back in her chair. "Yes and no. Your sending blew the door off my sanctum. I knew I wouldn't get to you in time. So, I sent as much of my essence to you as I could.
"I almost killed you, too, didn't I?"
She smiled. "I won't lie. I took a huge risk and drained myself almost to nothing. But you didn't almost kill me."
"How did you send the image of the moon when you were in a trance?"
She gave me a curious look.
"I saw a full moon when there shouldn't have been any. A gargoyle told me it wasn't my moon. It's what made me think of you. I thought you sent it."
She shook her head. "I don't know what you saw. You were in a dimensional vortex. Who knows where you really were at that moment? The Wheel turns as it will, Connor. I have no idea why a gargoyle would know that about the Power of the Moon, but I'm glad it did."
We didn't speak for a long moment. Talking of the moon brought me back to the fort. I remember watching the fireworks and the flits and the thought crossing my mind that it felt familiar. It wasn't just Meryl's dream either. She had seen the end — the bodies and the injuries. I had seen flashes of everything else before that. The lights. The sword. And the bug-eyed monster. In retrospect, I realized what that meant.
"I dreamed the whole thing," I said. "Well, not the whole thing. Most of it. Just not enough. Like you said, I'm not a Dreamer, at least I wasn't that I knew of. I didn't understand that I was dreaming the future until just now. I thought I was just having nightmares."
Briallen tilted her head to the side and pursed her lips. "Maybe this mystery thing in your head is forcing your abilities in new directions."
"I don't want new directions. I want my abilities back."
She sighed. "One of these days you're going to be pleased by the curves that life throws you, Connor, and I, for one, can't wait to experience the novelty."
I smiled at her. "So tell me about this dagger that turns into a sword."
She shrugged. "Actually, it's a sword that turns into a dagger."
"And…?"
"And, that's it. Don't look a gift horse in the mouth."
I let it lie. Briallen would tell me what she wanted me to know in her own good time. I glanced down at the still-sleeping Stinkwort. "What happened to Gethin?"
"I'll let Joe tell you. It's his story."
There was a knock, and Keeva stuck her head in the door. "Oh, sorry, I can come back."
Briallen stood. "No, I was just leaving. If Gillen Yor finds me still here, he'll raise bloody hell. He's a little territorial." She bent over and kissed me on the cheek. We looked at each other in silence for a moment, small smiles on our faces.
She turned and nodded at Keeva. Keeva lowered her gaze and bowed as though she were at court. It was nice to know she respected somebody. She waited until Briallen was gone before she dropped herself into the armchair. She placed an envelope on her lap.
"I thought you died," I said. She looked like hell. Not as pale as Briallen, but definitely not her usual vibrant self.
She gave me a disgusted look. "That spell you gave me ricocheted and bound me into the damn wall." I suppressed a smile. Of all methods I had envisioned torturing Keeva with over the years, trapping her in a wall hadn't come up. She ran a hand through her hair. "Fortunately, the binding broke when you killed the Fomorian."
I tried to sound reasonable. "So, I did a good thing."
"And when the seawall fell, I got sucked out into the harbor in the backlash. I had no energy left to fly, and it took me three hours to swim back in."
"Trapped in a wall and swept out to sea. Bad day." I lost the battle with the smile. We both laughed. It felt good.
"I thought you died, too," she said.
"I don't know why I didn't."
She grew very serious. "Never question life, Connor. Question its point all you want, but not life itself."
"So now you're a philosopher, too?"
"I'm just saying we don't always get to know why things work out the way they do."
She opened the envelope, pulled a picture out, and handed it to me. It was a black-and-white of a crowded street. One figure's face was circled. Gethin macLorcan.
"That was taken in Munich early last fall," Keeva said. "He lived there with his mother. That's her next to him." Gerda Alfheim looked tall and elegant just standing in a long dark coat. Her eyes had a furtive look but she didn't seem aware of the photographer. I didn't particularly go in for elves, but I could see why macDuin had been attracted to her.
"As a known terrorist, Gerda Alfheim was under surveillance. From what macDuin told me, Gerda lured him to Germany because Gethin was dying. MacDuin refused to help with the blood ritual. It was all a ruse though. They knew he would refuse. Gethin secretly came here while Lorcan was there, somehow got his hands on some passwords, and gained access to the Guildhouse. He stole the stones and a couple of old grimoires."
"So why didn't macDuin tell anyone?"