“What did you forget?”
I shrug.
I forgot to threaten your uncle.
“It’s not important. You ready to go home?”
Home.
Where we live together.
For now.
Her eyes widen at the word and she nods immediately and without question.
“Yeah.”
She drives and the night blurs past us outside the window. I don’t mention her uncle and neither does she.
The quiet is all encompassing, but it isn’t uncomfortable.
Finally, I look at her.
“You ok?”
She smiles, a small tiny movement.
“Yeah. You?”
“Of course.”
She smiles wider and pulls into the drive. “Let me go in and get your crutches. You’ve been without them all night. I know your knee must be killing you.”
I shake my head. “It’s fine. I can walk.”
I limp, but I walk unassisted into the house. I’m no pussy, goddamnit. Although I can’t deny that pain streaks from my knee down to my ankle.
Fuck it.
As soon as Nora walks through the door, she starts shedding clothing. First her shoes, then her dress, then her bra, then finally her panties. When she stands in front of me stark naked, she smiles, her first real smile of the night.
“Ready for bed?”
I smile.
“Always.”
We tumble into bed together and Nora presses her body into mine, limp against me, warm and soft. She runs her fingers down my chest, over my hips, and cups my balls.
I close my fingers over her hand.
“Not tonight, sweetheart.”
Because you need to know that you’re more than a fuck.
I hear her sudden intake of breath. “What?”
“Not tonight. I just want to lie here with you. Does that work for you?”
I pull her even closer, until her hips are pressed to mine and our legs are twined together.
“I guess,” she grumbles, “But I was hoping for a little more of this.”
She strokes my dick.
The traitorous bastard springs to life, but I ignore it.
Cold Fish. Cold Fish. Cold Fish.
“Not tonight,” I remind her. “We don’t always need to do that, you know.”
Because she’s more than just that. Whatever happened to her… I have the feeling it skewed her perception of herself.
Her eyes narrow in the night.
“I know we don’t have to,” she says finally. “I just like to. With you.”
After that clarification, she puts her head on my chest and is silent for a few minutes, until finally, her voice is small in the night.
“Thank you for going with me tonight.”
“You’re welcome.”
I wrap my arms around her and hold her until we fall asleep.
Chapter Seventeen
Nora
He doesn’t want me.
I gulp hard, trying not to move because Brand thinks I’m sleeping.
I shouldn’t have taken him to dinner tonight because now he knows what I am. I don’t know how, but he knows. I saw it in his eyes earlier, and now he doesn’t want me.
I hold a fist to my mouth to keep the sounds from slipping out.
I want to go outside and scream to the moon¸ but I can’t.
I’m tainted.
I’m used.
I’m unworthy.
He knows.
He knows.
He knows.
Without meaning to, I whimper. Brand stirs in his sleep, his heavy arm strewn across my waist.
I’ve got to get out of here. The walls are closing in. I’ve got to move.
I quietly try to slip from bed, but Brand’s arm tightens, pulling me even more closely to him. Even if he knows, he’s still here. He still wants to share this bed with me. He still wants to touch me.
So I’m even more curious now. What exactly does he know?
I wait, inhaling and exhaling deeply, calmly. After a few minutes more, I try to move again. This time, I’m able to slip away.
When I reach the door, I grab Brand’s shirt and put it on in lieu of a robe. The sleeves fall way past my hands, so I shove them up as I grab a bottle of wine and uncork it in the kitchen.
I don’t bother with a glass. I simply take the bottle and start to walk outside, when my phone buzzes on the counter.
Dread fills me, instantly and completely.
Which will it be? My father or my uncle?
I force myself to look, only to find William’s name.
You fucked up. So did your boyfriend.
Startled, I stare at the words. So did your boyfriend. What did Brand do?
I grab my phone and the bottle of wine, and head outside for some air. I walk down to the beach, dropping into the sand, not worried about the fact that I don’t have underwear on and sand will get into all of my business.
It doesn’t matter.
Nothing matters.
The words on my phone threaten to burn my hand, so I drop the wretched phone and take a swig of wine. Directly from the bottle. My mother would be so proud.
I take another.
Then another.
Then, when the liquid courage has begun circling through my veins, I pick the phone back up.
What do you mean?
I don’t even have time to put the phone back down before there’s an answer.
You should’ve known not to fuck with me.
Chills run down my spine. I didn’t fuck with him. I do know better.
I can’t breathe.
He’s threatening Brand.
I stare at the words again and they run together and I can’t breathe.
So instead, I drink because I don’t know what else to do. I won’t know what he intends to do until William actually does it, so all I can do is wait.
Wait for the other shoe to fall.
I sit in Brand’s shirt in the sand, smelling his scent on my skin and drinking wine as I stare at the stars.
Before long, after most of the bottle is gone, my nose goes numb and my fingertips get cold.
I take the last drink left in the bottle, then cast it aside.
I don’t know when I fall asleep.
All I know is that the sand feels ever so good against my cheek.
Chapter Eighteen
Brand
I wake up in the middle of the night alone, although it doesn’t take long to find Nora.
She’d left the front door wide open. Her car is still in the drive, so I wander down to the beach.
That’s where I find her passed out in the sand. She’s wearing my tuxedo shirt, and an empty bottle of wine is about a foot away from her, resting in the dirt.
She’s had a hard night.
Obviously.
I ignore the twinges in my leg and bend, scooping her up and carrying her back into the house. Each step is torturous with the added weight on my knee, but there’s no way I’m leaving her outside.
She nestled into my chest without waking, and I find that one side of her face is covered in sand. As are her arms and legs.
With a sigh, I carry her into the bathroom. I bend and lay her in the tub, and remove the hand-held sprayer before I turn the water on. I let it get warm in the sink, before I pick it back up and rinse off her legs, her feet, her arms.
She doesn’t stir until I’m wiping her face off with a washcloth.
She wakes with a start, her hands automatically flying up to shield her face.
“No!” she protests wildly, her eyes glazed, striking out at me, clenching her hands into fists, blows raining onto my chest.
“It’s just me,” I grab her hands, restraining her. “Shhh. It’s ok. It’s only me.”