Why am I still here? The rest of them are gone. Why haven’t they pulled me out with the others? The questions boil in my mind and I have to force myself to focus on surviving. I know very little about the colony on this planet. Our mission parameters were very specific. Attack an enemy compound. Another Widow Battle Group had been tasked to deal with any human prisoners recovered. The Battle Group commander wouldn’t have been told much more, just what he needed to know for the mission. The rest of us are always told just enough to fight. That’s the way our mission parameters work—a closed-cell network so we have nothing to give to the enemy.
Right now, it leaves me nowhere. Comms are down: there is no uplink with the Penrose. Maybe that’s why I haven’t been disconnected and pulled out. I’m in a basin and it’s conceivable the ridgeline is having some effect on the uplink, causing some unexplained electromagnetic corruption of the signal. It seems unlikely, but I get the feeling that moving to higher ground might help. It will sure as hell tell me a little more about the planet, and maybe even the colony.
How did they know we were coming? I suddenly find I can’t stop asking myself that single foolish question. What does it matter now? My priority is to contact the Penrose and get off-planet, preferably with my Widow intact. If possible, the Penrose can evac the other Widows, depending on how hot the area is. Maybe the other Widow Battle Group has had better luck and they still have comms. I somehow doubt it—if They knew we were coming, They probably knew the other Battle Group was coming too. But there might be functioning Widows left. I have to get moving. Sitting in the mud isn’t going to get me anywhere.
This valley is the worst place to be. From above, an attacking force has a clear tactical advantage. Despite this, I have so little power remaining I can’t afford to waste it driving heavy metal up the sodden mountainside. I need to save power for the long climb to the only place I have any hope of a long-range signal getting through the atmospheric interference. I’ve been walking for hours and still the radio signal is being corrupted. I have convinced myself it’s something in the terrain because there is no other explanation.
I cling to the shadows, moving as quickly and quietly as I can. The contours of the landscape have changed. Night has begun to recede as dawn breaks across this hemisphere of the planet. A harsh and wearying sepia light spills from the sky, even though the sun is imprisoned behind a thick pall of ash-coloured cloud. The once-bright hues of the landscape are muted and washed out—the jungle’s green seems more like grey, and the rolling steppes ahead are stained an insipid yellow. The mountains are vast, sprawling waves of lustreless amber, sage and grey that rise up forever on either side of me like the dunes of an endless desert. Craters of snow huddle in the frozen shadows of the crevasses between them. Down here, in the valley, the grass reaches to my knees. Scattered in between are flashes of white flowers that tremble in the wind. The rain continues to fall in sheets, rolling off the armour in rivulets of glistening silver, but I don’t stop.
For the first time since the drop zone ambush, a red mote appears on my sensor array. A single contact, within my combat sphere, picked up by the proximity sensors arranged all over the Widow’s armoured carapace.
Battle systems hum as they kick into life. A series of automated stadiametric targeting reticles vector across my vision, rotating as they hunt for threats. Every servo, gear and mechanical muscle is flooded with energy in anticipation of an engagement.
I back away, seeking cover in a hollow in the rock behind me. The signal is coming from a ridge directly above and across. The sunrise is angled behind the ridges, so I am protected by the shadows cast by the walls of the shallow depression. It’s the only advantage of being down here in the valley.
The signal moves. Not towards me, not down into the valley, but along the ridge.
The purr of my railgun as it cycles comforts me, readying itself, but the knowledge that I have only a few seconds of ammunition fills me with dread. I’m not afraid of dying—I’ve died too many times to feel anything like a fear of death—but I am terrified of failing. If I am caught, the Widows in the marshland drop zone are lost, and we can ill afford to lose so many. I am consumed by a yearning to make it to the second Battle Group. I have convinced myself I can save those machines and help them free those who have been enslaved by the enemy.
It is my only purpose. I must not fail.
The signal disappears.
I wait to see if it is truly gone, if I am still in immediate danger. As I scan the horizon of the ridges which run either side of me, the slender green reticles dart across the rock and ice like insects on carrion. But they flicker and lose focus as they move, and I have to accept that this might be yet more interference. I am more than concerned—if the automated targeting systems are failing, then I may not even be able to see the enemy.
I wait silently, sure there will be more signals; that the first has found me and is telling others.
But there’s nothing.
I know it’s bad judgement, but I decide to make some ground instead of waiting any longer.
I have hardly moved from the hollow when I catch a flash of colour amidst the grass—a subtle glint of orange which stands out against the white and green. Was it there before? How could I not see it? Inexplicably, I am drawn to it and almost without realising, I find myself next to it. I reach down and gently part the grass to see it better. It’s a flower. It captivates me and, for a moment, I can do nothing except stare at it.
Something flickers in the back of my mind. An image I can almost remember, but which remains out of focus. It is familiar—warm, soft, loving. The touch of soft lips on my own. That same flower, a face hidden behind it and framed by long, brown hair which smells of a woman’s perfume and summer coffee beans. Its sudden familiarity chokes me.
I am on my knees before I realise what’s happening. My consciousness is still inside the Widow, but suddenly the pathways through which it surges are twisting and bucking, trying to kick it free. The Widow is suddenly alien to me. It wants me out. I fight to control it—I’ve never seen it react this way before, as though I am a virus and its immune system is gathering to eradicate me.
As suddenly as it began, the Widow stops fighting. Familiar sensations charge through my muscles and I know I am not alone. I was wrong to move prematurely. Whatever the Widow’s problem, it has been overridden. It is now more concerned with the immediate danger it has detected. Dozens of red motes dance on the periphery of my vision, but the targeting reticles are struggling with the interference.
I huddle into the shadows and bring my right arm up. The weapon begins to purr as it cycles again. I tell myself I need to make that few seconds of ammunition count. But for what? What will I achieve except a few more dead in a war where billions have already died? There are dozens of signals all around, lining the ridges which encircle me. I look up and see the familiar flashes of light.
They are here.
The Widow feels cumbersome in my mind. I haven’t passed, because I am not dead. I understand that, but there’s something else happening, something I don’t understand. The Widow is different. It’s been coming, I know—a change I have noticed more and more since I hiked away from the jungle and into this valley. The growing interference messing with the core Visual Combat systems. Coupled with this momentary collapse in our symbiosis—something which is unheard of—the Widow seems more of a stranger to me than it has ever been; even more so than when I first passed into it, weeks ago.