03: 42. I need to sleep; otherwise, I will lose consciousness again from exhaustion.
Bye, Diary.
Hello, Diary.
Today is January 6, 2069, Friday.
On the street -6, clear.
07:51. I had a dream.
Dean and I met in the Park and went for a walk, walking around the city and talking about things as usual.
It was getting darker outside, and He suggested that we look at the night city from a height. We went up to the balcony of a high-rise building, then looked at the lights for a long time, until I remembered that we had already been here. I wanted to tell him about it, but Dino wouldn't let me say a word, pushing me off the balcony.
I remember flying down and looking into His eyes all the time. Those eyes again.
It was definitely that night on December 6, 2068, and I realized it in a dream.
But because of this, is it necessary to throw people off the balcony?
Dreams are so strange. My grandmother told me that people used to try to predict the future from them, which is as stupid as the influence of stars on the fate of a person or divination. In my dream, when we were crossing the bridge, I saw swans and rainbows; although that night none of these things happened or could have happened. Can I ask my grandmother what this might mean?
09: 42. She gave me a dream book and told me that there I would find answers to all my questions.
11:36. The dream book says that swans mean joy, happiness and well-being, and the rainbow – good news and false fear. How am I supposed to understand all this?
16: 12. Sammy called again, but we only talked for 5 minutes, which is weird. I hope he's all right.
18:41. Will Dino come to me every day, so I don't forget about Him? Each of our “dates” ends the same way, and as soon as I reach out to touch Him, He disappears.
19:11. My parents are coming to pick me up tomorrow, and I'm going back to the city, and I don't want to go back to a place where I can't meet Him.
02:43. I need to sleep.
Bye, Diary.
Hello, Diary.
Today is January 8, 2069, Sunday.
On the street -4, windy.
13:52. Sammy's worried about me, and he doesn't believe my excuses anymore.
16:43. We arrived home.
18: 12. Yoru gets in the way, again.
19:55. I did my homework. I don't want to go to school tomorrow, but I need to give my new year's gifts to the kids.
23: 49. Need to sleep.
05:10. I Wake up every hour. My head hurts.
Hello, Diary.
Today is Monday, January 9, 2069.
It's -3 outside, cloudy.
07:51. On the way to school, I ran into a young Girl, usually our paths did not intersect, because I went there through the Park. She cares about me too much.
09:52. Sammy follows me around all the time, which is annoying, and he gave me a little motorcycle keychain.
Today will be my first class.
13:42. I didn't want to have dinner, but Yuna persuaded me to go with them.
16:34. The class will start at 17:00. I hope I don't crash on the same day.
19:40. Everything went well. In the first week, we will be explained the rules of driving, after which we will have to pass a test, passing which you can go to practice.
After class, Sammy walked me home, even though I told him I wanted to be alone. Annoy. Because of him, I couldn't go to the drugstore for sleeping pills.
20:52. I remembered the gift from Yuna, and it's time to unpack it.
21:55. There were bath bombs with different smells and a book that I had long wanted to read, but could not find the time to do so. I need to thank her tomorrow.
21:14. How did Sammy find out the address of my blog? His behavior is beginning to frighten me.
02:22. I saw Him again. This time I didn't run outside, and we just played peek-a-Boo through the window, then I picked up a graphics tablet and drew until Dino disappeared again.
03:17. I'll go to bed, but it won't be any use.
Bye, Diary.
Hello, Diary.
Today is January 12, 2069, Thursday.
On the street -5, snow.
13: 56. The Guys spent the entire lunch discussing how we would celebrate my birthday, but I had to upset them. I have driving lessons tomorrow and I won't have any free time, especially since I've already arranged with my sister to go to the movies to see a horror movie, because I was born on Friday the 13.
16: 13. Sammy walked me out, again. Why is he doing this? It annoys me.
16:54. I bought a sedative.
18:34. Mary is coming tomorrow. I hope she doesn't bother me with questions about how I feel.
19:21. Now I communicate with Yuna every day, we go to school, spend time together at big changes. But I don't want to talk to anyone right now.
21:06. Why does everything in my room remind me of Dino? I've tried several times to throw away albums with His photos, but I can't do it. These memories are too precious for me. Their loss will cause me more pain than I'm feeling right now, missing Him. I don't want to forget His face, his voice, his smell. I want to go back to the days I spent with Him. I want Him around.
22:52. Dino is standing under the window, again. It's just an illusion, but I'm willing to run after her just to look into those eyes. The eyes of a loved one that I can only see in dreams, and all because of the system. We could be together, become a family, raise a child and live happily if the education system enrolled him in a professional qualification institution for an athlete.
02:41. I decided to go to the Park where our first meeting and last goodbye took place, I just need to check again if the light is on in his room.
04:06. I've taken my medicine and I'll finally be able to sleep properly.
Bye, Diary.
Hello, Diary.
Today is January 15, 2069, Sunday.
It's -4 outside, cloudy.
18:42. I woke up in the hospital. Nurses were running around and doing scans, and then the doctor and my parents came in. It turned out that I had an overdose of a sedative. How did this happen?
I don't remember anything. I went to bed at home, and woke up already under the IV.
19:23. It's hard for me to go and do anything. The doctor said it was the effect of a blood transfusion.
20:12. I slept through my birthday! Tomorrow my parents will definitely bring me gifts to the hospital; they must have been terribly scared when they realized that I might die.
21: 01. Forces there is no.
Bye, Diary.
Hello, Diary.
Today is January 16, 2069, Monday.
On the street -5, Sunny.
18: 23. Sammy, Yuna and other classmates, visited me, and they were told at school that I was in the hospital. They brought me gifts, bouquets of flowers, fruits and sweets and told me how they celebrated the New Year.
I guess I did make some real friends.
Yuna said that she took 62nd place in the annual photo project competition. I am happy for her, because now she will be able to enter the EOPQ as a photographer. And Sammy gave me a book called over the cuckoo's nest.
I've heard of this book, but its description didn't catch my eye. This is a story about a psychiatric clinic and a man who struggles with its rules.
I don't understand why you need to fight them. People based on the experience of the past and wanting a stable future created them, and stability is the key to a happy life. But since it's a gift, I think it's worth reading.
18:45. I was sorting through the gifts and noticed one small and inconspicuous, but very valuable for me bouquet of forget-me-nots. Did Dino come in when I was unconscious? No, no, no! Dino is currently in another city. Then who brought them?
19: 12. I have a terrible headache again, and the nurses won't give me painkillers because of a recent overdose. Annoying!
23:33. Tomorrow will come, Nora, Mary and parents.
Bye, Diary.
Hello, Diary.
Today is January 17, 2069, Tuesday.
It's -6 outside, cloudy.
19:38. My parents took me away for a day to celebrate my birthday. I'm glad of that. The hospital walls pressed down on me. The beds, the doctors, the view from the window, and the forget-me-nots in the vase all remind me of Him, and it's terrible.