“Tell me about it,” she says. She gives me a serious look, like a cartoon psychologist.
“It’s just my ex,” I say. “She twisted my heart like a bendy straw.”
“My mommy always says you have to stand up for yourself,” she says. “That’s the only way people will respect you.”
I take another gulp of whiskey, shrug my shoulders. She keeps asking me questions, and all I can say is that I don’t know how things ended up like this. I don’t know anything. I get a refill of whiskey and offer Petunia another juice box.
“You need to tell her how you feel, right now!” she says suddenly.
“We should wait here while the cement dries,” I say, waving my hand toward the window.
“No!” Petunia shouts. “Right now, mister.” She gives me this face that makes me think, Out of the mouths of babes, you know?
I scribble a note for the mother on the door with the relevant details.
“Road trip!” Petunia says, her little hands filled with plastic-wrapped snacks.
I check on the cement. I’d forgotten to take out the floaty duck, and its yellow butt is popping right out of the gunk.
We peel out of the driveway in my truck. I turn on a little rock ’n’ roll on the radio.
“This okay? I don’t know what the Barney station is.”
Petunia is opening a pack of Oreos. I can feel the whiskey working in me, and I roll down the windows, let the summer air in. I take a left at the light and then a right after the children-crossing sign.
“How much farther?” Petunia says.
“Not much,” I say, but after we’ve been driving a while, I realize I can’t remember the way. I know Sarah now lives on a road named after a kind of tree. Is it Sycamore or Sugar Maple?
We keep driving through the flat suburban grid. I try to sneak a look over the fences for possible clients.
“I’m tired,” Petunia says.
“Did we already pass that house?” I ask. I stick my head out the window, try to remember if I’ve seen those garden gnomes already. The phone starts ringing in the loose change pit of my car.
“Sarah. Speak of the devil.”
“Sarah? This is Cynthia Hartman,” a female voice says. “Is this Burt the cement man?”
“The very same.”
The voice gets louder. “Where the hell are you? And where is my daughter?”
“Don’t worry, we’ll be back in a jiffy,” I say. “We’re just finishing a little errand. Can’t talk now.”
I turn the wheel this way and that. We drive past dogs and children running around well-trimmed yards. Some of them try to wave at us as we pass.
“I want to go back,” Petunia says. All her snack wrappers are empty and shining on her lap.
“Come on, Petunia,” I say. “It’s right around the corner, I’m sure of it.”
We turn on Spruce Street, take a left onto Sapling. I’m drumming on the steering wheel in anticipation. We can’t go back now. I’ve got things I need to say to Sarah, things that need to be said right now.
“I want Mommy. I want to go home,” she says.
The phone keeps jiggling around in the dish.
“It has got to be right around here,” I say.
I turn onto Sequoia Street. Petunia’s face is getting red and starting to crinkle.
“It’s gonna be great, Petunia,” I say. “Don’t you worry. The two of us will let Sarah know what’s what,” I say. “You and I will show her she needs to reconsider things. And if she doesn’t answer the door, we’ll use the mixer and pour it right onto the doorstep. Cement her right in!” I give a little laugh. “Can you imagine? I can’t wait to see the look on her face!”
HIKE
Cheryl huffed off, which she could do because Paul had a gimpy knee. They were strolling through the yellowed leaves of fall. Cheryl thought sometimes the only way to talk to Paul was to march away in silence.
The trail went all over the place, moving up and down the hills, turning back on itself.
Cheryl came across an overweight man lying in the middle of the path. His son was sitting on a log, playing a game on his cell phone.
“Just go around me,” the man said, panting. Were these the same people Cheryl raced against to get to the shortest line at the grocery store?
She looked the other way as she skirted past. Cheryl had grown up in this town, left, come back, left, and come back again so many times that even seeing the welcome sign made her dizzy.
God, she was thirsty! Why had she left the water bottle with Paul? There was a thin creek worming beside the path. She stopped to splash some water on her face.
Paul materialized around the bend.
“Cheryl!” he said, waving his hands. “You’re going the wrong way. This is the Robin trail, we agreed on Blue Jay.”
He always had to say something like that.
“Wait. I’ve got the granola.”
Cheryl ran back to the signpost. This time she took the path with two blue lines painted on the oak tree. Small birds sat in the trees singing songs like bratty children. Cheryl looked straight ahead and tried to forget herself and blend into the woods.
There was something uncanny about the changing mood of the land. One second you were in an enchanted forest, the next you emerged on a ruinous pile of broken rocks. It was like walking through sets of different Hollywood films.
Paul would never understand the way you have to impose your will on the land.
Here is another thing Cheryl hated: the way Paul dug his knuckles into the dimple of her tailbone when he thrust from behind.
Cheryl passed an elderly couple holding hands. They didn’t know which way to move, and she ended up ducking beneath and knocking their hands apart.
“Slow down!” the old lady shouted.
Instead, Cheryl descended into the shade of the valley. The trees looked like cancer patients in their yellowing leaves. Tumorous fungi lined the damp trunks.
The trail rounded a bend and split into two more trails. You can never really reach the end of anything!
Cheryl felt sad and tired. She hoped Paul was sadder and even more tired. Maybe they could tire each other out enough that they could shut up and go home and take a hot bath or watch a movie. She couldn’t even remember what Paul had said, or what she thought he had said, or even what he had thought she had said that made him say it to begin with.
Someone was whimpering behind her. Cheryl turned and found a woman in a red windbreaker crouched in the leaves. When she looked at Cheryl, her face was pink and wet.
“I followed him here, and he did it again!”
“Who are you? And how do you know Paul?” Cheryl demanded.
“I’m not talking about Paul. I’m talking about Eric.”
The woman led Cheryl a little way through the woods to a secret swimming hole. Cheryl stood on a boulder to get a better look. The pool’s water was black in the shade. On a flat rock beside the water, she could see one pale body bouncing up and down on another.
“He said he loved me. Don’t words mean anything anymore?” The woman wiped her tears on Cheryl’s sweatshirt and tried to hug her. Down on the rock, the couple humped away.
Cheryl was not thinking of Paul when she picked up a stick and tossed it in a blind arc. It spun around down onto the man’s clenched buttocks, causing him to yell and roll off the woman. He fell into the swimming hole with a quiet splash.
“Perverts!” the naked woman shouted, pointing at them. She was scrambling for her clothes. “The woods is full of perverts!”
Cheryl felt relief flow through her. She turned and smiled at the woman next to her, her new sister in a world of shitty men.
“Why did you do that?” the woman said. Her face scrunched up as she stepped backwards.