A lump formed in my throat as I thought about one slip or one distraction costing Lisa her life.
"Jesse's a Zeklos, " I said, suddenly realizing Dimitri had just thrown around a relative of his former friend and charge.
"I know."
"Does it bother you? Does he remind you of Ivan?"
"It doesn't matter how I feel. It doesn't matter how any of us feel."
"But it does bother you. " It suddenly became very obvious to me. I could read his pain, though he clearly worked hard to hide it. "You hurt.Every day. Don't you? You miss him."
Dimitri looked surprised, like he didn't want me to know that, like I'd uncovered some secret part of him. I'd been thinking he was some aloof, antisocial tough guy, but maybe he kept himself apart from other people so he wouldn't get hurt if he lost them. Ivan's death had clearly left a permanent mark.
I wondered if Dimitri was lonely.
The surprised look vanished, and his standard serious one returned. "It doesn't matter how I feel.They come first.Protecting them."
I thought about Lisa again. "Yeah. They do."
A long silence fell before he spoke again.
"You told me you want to fight, toreally fight. Is that still true?"
"Yes.Absolutely."
"Rose…I can teach you, but I have to believe you're dedicated.Really dedicated. I can't have you
distracted by things like this. " He gestured around the lounge. "Can I trust you?"
Again, I felt like crying under that gaze, under the seriousness of what he asked. I didn't get how he could have such a powerful effect on me. I'd never cared so much about what one person thought. "Yes.
I promise."
"All right.I'll teach you, but I need you strong. I know you hate the running, but it really is necessary. You have no idea what Strigoi are like. The school tries to prepare you, but until you've seen how strong they are and how fast…well, you can't even imagine. So I can't stop the running and the conditioning. If you want to learn more about fighting, we need to add moretrainings. It'll take up more of your time. You won't have much left for your homework or anything else. You'll be tired.A lot."
I thought about it, about him, and about Lisa. "It doesn't matter. If you tell me to do it, I'll do it."
He studied me hard, like he was still trying to decide if he could believe me. Finally satisfied, he gave me a sharp nod. "We'll start tomorrow»
CHAPTER 10
"Excuse me, Mr Nagy? I can't really concentrate with Lisa and Rose passing notes over there." Mia was attempting to distract attention from herself-as well as from her inability to answer Mr. Nagy's question-and it was ruining what had otherwise been a promising day. A few of the fox rumors still circulated, but most people wanted to talk about Christian attacking Ralf. I still hadn't cleared Christian of the fox incident-I was pretty sure he was psycho enough to have done it as some crazy sign of affection for Lisa-but whatever his motives, he had shifted the attention off her, just as he'd said.
Mr. Nagy legendary for his ability to humiliate students by reading notesaloud, homed in on us like a missile. He snatched the note away, and the excited class settled in for a full reading. I swallowed my groan, trying to look as blank and unconcerned as possible. Beside me, Lisa looked like she wanted to die.
"My, my, " he said, looking the note over. "If only students would write this much in their essays. One of you has considerably worse writing than the other, so forgive me if I get anything wrong here. " He cleared his throat. "'So, I saw J last night, begins the person with bad handwriting, to which the response is,'What happened, followed by no fewer than five question marks. Understandable, since sometimes one-let alone four-just won't get the point across, eh? " The class laughed, and I noticed Mia throwing me a particularly mean smile. "The first speaker responds:'What do you think happened?
We hooked up in one of the empty lounges. "
Mr. Nagy glanced up after hearing some more giggles in the room. His British accent only added to the hilarity.
"May I assume by this reaction that the use of 'hook up' pertains to the more recent, shall we say,carnal application of the term than the tamer one I grew up with?"
More snickers ensued. Straightening up, I said boldly, "Yes, sir, Mr. Nagy. That would be correct, sir.»
A number of people in the class laughed outright.
"Thank you for that confirmation, Miss Hathaway. Now, where was I? Ah yes, the other speaker then asks,'How was it? The response is,'Good, punctuated with a smiley face to confirm said adjective. Well. I suppose kudosare in order for the mysterious J, hmmm?'So, like, how far did you guys go? Uh, ladies, " said Mr. Nagy, "I do hope this doesn't surpass a PG rating.'Not very.We got caught.'And again, we are shown the severity of the situation, this time through the use of a not-smiling face.'What happened? 'Dimitri showed up. He threw Jesse out and then bitched me out. "
The class lost it, both from hearing Mr. Nagy say «bitched» and from finally getting some participants named.
"Why, Mr.Zeklos, are you the aforementioned J? The one who earned a smiley face from the sloppy writer? " Jesse's face turned beet red, but he didn't look entirely displeased at having his exploits made known in front of his friends. He'd kept what hadhappened a secret thus far-including the blood talk-because I suspected Dimitri had scared the hell out of him. "Well, while I applaud a good misadventure as much as the next teacher whose time is utterly wasted, do remind your 'friends' in the future that my class is not a chat room. " He tossed the paper back on to Lisa's desk. "Miss Hathaway, it seems there's no feasible way to punish you, since you're already maxed out on penalties around here.
Ergo, you, Miss Dragomir, will serve two detentions instead of one on behalf of your friend. Stay here when the bell rings, please.»
After class, Jesse found me, an uneasy look on his face. "Hey, um, about that note…you know I didn't have anything to do with that. If Belikov finds out about it…you'll tell him? I mean, you'll let him know I didn't-"
"Yeah, yeah, " I interrupted him. "Don't worry, you're safe."
Standing with me, Lisa watched him walk out of the room. Thinking of how easily Dimitri had thrown him around-and of his apparent cowardice-I couldn't help but remark, "You know, Jesse's suddenly not as hot as I used to think."
She only laughed. "You'd better go. I've got desks to wash."
I left her, heading back for my dorm. As I did, I passed a number of students gathered in small clusters outside the building. I regarded them wistfully, wishing I had the free time to socialize.
"No, it's true, " I heard a confident voice say. Camille Conta.Beautiful and popular, from one of the most prestigious families in the Conta clan. She and Lisa had sort of been friends before we left, in the uneasy way two powerful forces keep an eye on each other. "They, like, clean toilets or something.»
"Oh my God, " her friend said. "I'd die if I was Mia."
I smiled. Apparently Jesse had spread some of the stories I'd told him last night. Unfortunately, the next overheard conversation shattered my victory.
"-heard it was stillalive.Like, twitching on her bed.»
"That is so gross. Why would they just leave it there?»
"I don't know. Why kill it in the first place?»
"You think Ralf was right? That she and Rose did it to get kicked-"
They saw me and shut up.
Scowling, I skulked off across the quadrangle.Still alive, still alive.
I'd refused to let Lisa talk about the similarities between the fox and what had happened two years ago. I didn't want to believe they were connected, and I certainly didn't want her to either.
But I hadn't been able to stop thinking about that incident, not only because it was chilling, but because it really did remind me of what had just happened in her room.