I’m not coming out tonight, or any time soon. And don’t come back to town. I need some space. We need some separate time away from each other. Don’t call. I’ll be in touch when I think it’s time to talk.
That’s it. Just a few lousy sentences. The words at first have the effect of instant paralysis. His throat tightens and his hands shake in uncontrolled frenzy. He sits without moving while the engine idles and he feels the heat in her voice. He plays the message over. Then again. One part of him might even have expected something like this after the way things were going, but not today. God, not today. He doesn’t want to go back to the house, but he has to. He can’t follow her back into the city much as he’d like to. He’ll have to wait till she’s ready. And maybe he’s forgotten to clean up something back at the house. He drives back in a state of semishock, yet calms down enough to rationalize that it’s better this way, isn’t it? What would he say to her if she was here? If he told her the truth, she wouldn’t believe him in a million years, not after all her recent suspicions. No, it’s better this way. Just as long as it doesn’t last, but he can’t worry about that now.
Three hours earlier, Amos had driven east to a scenic overlook parking area nearly three miles past the village of Montauk, a right-hand turnoff on the road to Montauk Point State Park. The overlook had views of the water and dunes, but at seven o’clock on an early May evening, dusk had begun to settle. A stand of pine trees at one end of the parking area had already morphed the asphalt into dark shadows when Posner pulled his car into the area.
The lot was empty. He drove to the darkened end where the car was largely hidden from the main road. He shut off the engine and rolled down the window. A few stray birds hooted into the dusk, but otherwise everything was quiet. This was the last moment he had to decide. He could still change his mind, but he had already thought everything through. There was no turning back.
He chose a level site more than a hundred feet away from the lot amidst a dense thicket of woods. The ground was covered with pine needles and other forest debris. This was why he brought the rake as well as the shovel. He worked quickly, as there was always the odd chance that his car mightbe spotted. He raked an area clean and then began to dig. The ground was soft from spring rains and he surprised himself when he managed to excavate to a depth of nearly three feet in only a half hour. His clothes were covered with soil and sweat stains by the time he walked back to the parking area. He almost expected to see a police cruiser waiting alongside his car, and slowly peered around a set of pine trees at the edge of the lot, but the area was quiet. Darkness had already fallen heavily across the overlook.
He opened the trunk and stared at the silver plastic package. That’s all there is now, he told himself, just a package to be disposed of. The form was much heavier, much more rigid than when he first moved it to the car. He needed to partially squat to prop the body on his back. At first he staggered under the unbalanced load. He teetered backward three steps before he somehow switched his weight forward and stumbled ahead until he bumped into the open trunk. He steadied himself and cautiously shifted the weight across his right shoulder until he felt secure. He closed the trunk and began to walk into the woods, but his gait was uncertain. He wobbled as if drunk, barely able to control his motion until he realized that he could manage his movements far better by going from tree to tree.
He stopped after ten feet, leaned against a tree, and pulled the flashlight from his left-hand pocket to check on the location. The woods were dark now, although a faint twilight glow was still visible through the trees when he looked up. He was nearly back to the spot where he dug when he stumbled over a surface tree root. He fell forward and the body pitched to the ground as his arm lost its grip. The flashlight flew from his left hand. He heard a crack as it landed against a rock and everything turned black. He was engulfed in darkness.
He scrambled about in a panic. The bag was still there, just to his right, but he needed light to finish what he started. He had to finish. He couldn’t just stop. He had to protect himself. There was no other way. He crawled to the left and stretched his hand in an arc that swept up branches, pebbles, twigs and pine needles. He kept on with his search. The flashlight couldn’t have fallen too far. A tightness rose in his throat. He was about to stop and cry when his fingers touched a cylinder. He pulled it forward and sat up. He did the first thing he thought of. He shook the flashlight. Nothing except a rattle. Loose, he thought. Something was loose. He slid his right hand to the lens cover and slowly tried to turn the end that emitted the light. It moved. Nearly two turns later the light jumped out at him. He saw everything, the silver bag that rested on the ground, and only a few yards away, a mound of dirt that surrounded a trench.
He stood, but was so dizzy with relief he stumbled over the dark bag. When he rose again he began to drag the bag forward with one hand. There was no other way. He didn’t have the energy to lift her anymore. He was nearly at the hole when the bag snagged on a root. He heard a rip and focused the light downward. He saw a patch of pink that surrounded the partially torn-off white heel of a shoe.
He propped the light on the top of a log and slid the bag into the hole as gently as possible. There was no time for ceremony, but he would say something for her every day as long as he lived. He filled the hole and raked the ground over with pine needles and twigs, gathered his tools and made his way back to the parking area. As he closed the trunk over the shovel and rake, he saw a crescent moon rise above the trees to the east.
As soon as he entered the car, the rearview mirror glared back at him with a red slash across his cheek. His face and arms were covered with soil. Bits of twigs and damp leaves clung to his shirt and pants. He checked his watch. There was barely enough time to get home to shower and change before he needed to meet Sara. He was already moving westward, toward his home, every mile confirming his innocence, when he stretched his right arm forward and opened the glove compartment to replace the flashlight. That’s when he saw the phone. Heidi’s cell phone was still there, a small gray oval he had yet to eliminate. He rechecked his watch. There wasn’t time to dispose of it the way he wanted. He laid it on the seat next to him. There would be time to do it properly tomorrow morning. There was no need to rush.
He opened the window and swallowed cool air. He started to relax as he neared the street where he needed to turn to reach his house. That’s when the cell phone began to ring.
CHAPTER 3
He stays in Amagansett and waits for the police to investigate. He has only had a few brief conversations with Sara and has not yet been back to the city, but she’s indicated that his banishment may only be temporary. All he can do is wait, yet the Heidi episode weighs him down so heavily that he barely thinks of anything else.
The police visit isn’t a surprise. Posner has thought about the possibility since it all happened. At one point, however, some four weeks after the accident, for that is what he had come to call Heidi’s death in his own mind, without waver or compromise, he almost believes that there will be no investigation. He has mentally willed himself into anonymity with the same absurdity that one buys a lottery ticket and believes, during the trip home that they will be the big winner.
His other self, the more rational corporate analyst, has decided within days after the accident that he will likely be contacted. There were probably no more than twenty people on the bus on that morning. The bus line keeps a computer record of all passengers for each trip. Someone will report her absence. Perhaps hospital staff would have already raised an alarm when she failed to arrive for her shift the next day. Perhaps she even had a date with Henry that night and he might have personally checked her apartment. A missing person’s whereabouts would be followed up. The authorities would discover her planned trip to East Hampton. They would endeavor to speak to anyone who might have had contact with her. Then there also was the conversation on the bus just before she exited. That might have also been observed, and it likely was.