“Your father, then?” I asked.
“In my eyes, my father was a weak man, a frightened man. I didn’t value him. He taught us how to swing a sword or strike with a spear, but with little enthusiasm and less skill. I was embarrassed for my father. And for myself. And so, being a foolish boy who failed to appreciate what he had, I routinely mocked him, and did everything to incur his wrath, which rarely showed, despite my best efforts.
“Still,” he said, with a sweep of his hand, as if wiping away an unpleasant memory, “I was excited to be going to a Sanctuary with him. And when I saw a black squirrel on the way there and pointed it out, my father laughed and said the day promised good things indeed. The morning was cold, the ground colder, but the sun was out, and many of the Vorlu attended, eager to see what goods the foreigners brought this year, glad to be able to venture out after huddling around fires for so many months. The camp was small-several pavilions, a few wagons, little else. But it wasn’t the size that made an impression, it was the inhabitants. For most tribals, their birthplace is their death place, their lives lived and lost in a ten mile radius. But at Sanctuary, we were exposed to grand foreigners, soldiers who had once been as we were, tribals, but who now traveled across seas, roamed over continents, conquering and trading and exerting their influence in countries far and wide in ways we could not possibly imagine.”
“Were they so very different in appearance?”
“Oh, yes. Some fair skinned, with ruddy cheeks and beards like bird nests, who shaved their heads from the crown back but braided the front down along their ears. Men with skin like dark clay who pierced their faces and carved runes into their cheeks. A few who shaved their entire bodies, arms, head, eyebrows, and dyed their ears yellow.”
I thought about the Syldoon in his company, a mixed group to be sure, but without any wild flourishes. “But your own crew-?”
“Ahh, yes, picked in part to appear innocuous, yes? These Syldoon at Sanctuary were chosen to awe with the wild diversity.”
“You’d seen them before though? The Syldoon?”
“As I said, they came every three years. But they never failed to impress. Many of the Syldoon were similar to my own people, swarthy and dark-haired like the Vorlu, but others clearly hailed from distant lands and climes, with a wild variety of skin tones, physiques, and features. In that respect, it was the greatest menagerie in the world. And my first Sanctuary was the first opportunity to see them up close.
“Our father pointed out the Syldoon commander, a small man with gray eyes and cropped hair. He was squatting in front of a map and glanced up as the tribes filed into the encampment, but made no other sign of recognition.
“Tables and benches were laid out with Syldoon wares on top of them. Wineskins and fantastic bottles made of colored glass-blue, brown, green, red. I had never seen the like before. Bolts of cloth as strange and foreign as the races that wove them. Stirrups. Sharp fruit that looked like misshapen purple stars. Pungent spices in tiny bleached boxes. All things from lands we had never seen before, designed to awe and amaze. Which they did, provincial barbarians that we were.”
I asked, “Did the tribes bring their own wares?”
“Yes. We had nothing the Syldoon hadn’t seen before, of course, but tradition is tradition. Scabbards and belts, boots lined with marten fur. Sealskin cloaks. Jugs of mead. Combs carved from bone. Torcs of silver and gold. Harps, flutes. Quivers decorated with shells and antler. And my father with his honey.”
He said this last bit with an edge, but it slipped away as he continued.
“The Syldoon and the tribes greeted each other as dogs do, warily, unsure what the relationship might be. The tribes eyed each other suspiciously, the Syldoon looked on with closed expressions. A few greetings were spoken, without warmth. But slowly the haggling began. And with each bid and counter bid, even those requiring an interpreter, the tension seemed to disappear. Our father approached a man with large ears who he seemed to know. There were reserved smiles on both parts. The man exchanged a few words with our father and then lifted a crate of lemons, which I had never seen before. My father pulled a clay jar of honey out of his satchel, and both began examining the other’s wares, chatting like morning birds. I had no interest in fruit, odd or no, and still less in honeycombs, so I turned away to see what else I could see.”
He took his eyes off the branches overhead, no longer interested in squirrels of any color.
“I walked toward a table crowded with colored bottles. Soff moved off to inspect some of the rich cloth. I was holding a small vial the color of swamp water in my hand when I heard something in my father’s voice that caused me to turn around.”
While his eyes were open, it still felt as if the captain were almost narrating one of the stolen memories, living or reliving it in excruciating detail, even though this day must have happened decades ago.
“There was a young Syldoon,” he said, “standing between my father and Lemonman-short, patchwork stubble on his face, dark of hair and eye. The young Syldoon looked angry, my father looked confused. The Syldoon swore, stepped closer to my father and knocked the clay jar out of his hands. It hit the dead grass and didn’t break. Lemonman yelled the younger Syldoon’s name-Slinger-and said something else I couldn’t make out. My father bent over to pick the jar up. The young Syldoon kicked the jar away before my father could reclaim it, and this time it hit a rock and cracked. Honey began oozing into the dirt. My father looked up at the Syldoon, shook his head sadly, and took a step to grab the jar. The Syldoon grabbed my father’s sleeve and pulled on it hard enough that my father almost lost his balance.
“Lemonman cursed the younger Syldoon, pointed toward their encampment, yelled something else, and my father straightened up, red-faced. The Syldoon flipped his cloak back and reached for his sword, and my father’s eyes grew wide and then he fumbled for his. Not being a martial man, he would have been doomed even had he drawn his blade, even against a clearly drunken opponent, but he never got the chance. My father grabbed the hilt and pulled, but the peace cord was still tied and the sword didn’t move. But the young Syldoon had no such problems.”
“He didn’t have his cord tied?” I asked, and silently cursed myself, afraid any interruption would still him.
“No,” he replied. “He did not. The bastard’s blade slid free clean, flashed in the morning sun, and disappeared in my father’s belly. My father stared down in disbelief.
“It’s said that when some events occur, time stops. This moment was such a moment for me. Every detail-the mud on the hem of the Syldoon’s cloak, the stitching on my father’s satchel, the stillness of the air, the skeletal bareness of the trees in the distance, the yellow grass at their feet-all in my mind now as if I saw it this morning. In this way, the moment does last forever. But on that day, it didn’t, and time eventually returned, and chaos with it.
“I screamed, the Lemonman stepped back, his crate upended on the ground next to the broken jar, his hands waving in the air in front of him as if he could ward off what he was witnessing, I heard Soff wail, though I didn’t see from where. I wanted to grab a bottle off a table, to smash it and grind it in the Syldoon’s face, I wanted to run to my father, I wanted to run away, to do something, anything. But I couldn’t. I stood there, watched as the Syldoon pulled his sword out of my father’s belly, transfixed as my father dropped to his knees and fell forward, hand still on the hilt of his sword. I listened to the screaming, absently wondering if it was mine. And then my uncle Sirk moved past me, sword in hand, walking slowly, deliberately, heading toward the boy who had just stabbed his brother. And he looked like he belonged on a frieze himself-his face and eyes were stone.”