“Can you hear me, Marsha?”
“There’s static, but I can still read you.”
“All right. Going undercover now.”
He slipped the phone beneath his shirt, where it lay cradled against the thin ridge along the top of his belt line.
“Can you hear me now?”
“Yes, and quit the clowning.”
Cavanaugh had parked fifty yards from an enormous Bucyrus electric shovel. With its long neck and open-jawed bucket, the machine reminded Cork of a great dinosaur ready to feed.
He parked near the Escalade. Cavanaugh got out and met him halfway between the two vehicles. Cork closed to within two feet of Cavanaugh, who looked weary, like a man who’d run a thousand miles.
“I’m here, Max.”
“You wanted to know why,” Cavanaugh said.
“Everything else I pretty much understand.”
Almost wistfully, Cavanaugh eyed the mine walls, which terraced toward the reddened evening sky. “My family made its fortune from this earth,” he said. “I know that a lot of people look at the damage that’s been done to the land here and judge us. Me, I look at this mine and I see the generations of families it’s supported. I see the enterprise it’s fed. I see the wars this nation fought and won because of it. It seems to me that sometimes you have to choose to do some harm in the hope-no, the belief-that it’s for a greater good. That’s how I’ve lived my life anyway, most of it in mines not much different from this one. That big shovel over there? I can work it. I can drive a truck that hauls three hundred tons. I’ve prospected and drilled and blasted. Mining’s been my life, and it’s been a good one.”
“What about taking care of Lauren?” Cork said. “That’s been a part of your life, too.”
Cavanaugh eyed him dourly but didn’t reply.
“It couldn’t have been easy covering for her all these years.”
“That’s what you do when you’re family.”
“What kind of family was she, Max? Hard to love, I imagine.”
“You’re wrong. She was easy to love. Too easy. She walked into a room and she brought the sun with her. She was full of life, ideas, energy. Next to her, most people were like pieces of wood.”
“Then why did you kill her?”
“I’m not entirely certain I did.”
“Tell me about it.”
“There are things you need to know first. Before he died, my father told me about my mother. Horrible things.”
Cavanaugh fell silent and looked down at the hard rock beneath his feet.
“Was she involved in the Vanishings, Max?”
He gave his head a vague shake. “My father couldn’t say for sure, but he suspected. She was capable of it, he believed. At least after they moved here.”
“What made this place different?”
“She met a man, a truly evil man.”
“Indigo Broom.”
Cavanaugh lifted his gaze to Cork, apparently surprised that he knew the name. “Yes, Broom. My mother had had relationships before, a lot of them unconventional, but this was different. This was beyond bizarre. Where there’d been only, I don’t know, narcissism in her, there was cruelty, brutality. The change in her frightened my father. He was preparing to go to the police with his suspicions when she disappeared and the Vanishings stopped. For him, it was like being freed from hell. My grandfather was long dead, every family tie here ended, and so we left Aurora and all the awful memories behind.”
“But then you came back.”
“The worst decision I ever made.”
“Tell me about Lauren, Max.”
Cavanaugh looked away, and his gaze ran across the whole devastated landscape around him. “On his deathbed, my father made me promise to be responsible for her because she was, in many ways, like my mother.”
“What ways?”
“She was beautiful and smart, just like my mother, and just like my mother she had no heart. She loved no one.”
“Not even you?”
“She needed me, needed me desperately. But love? I don’t believe she understood the word. Not in the way you and I might understand it.”
“What about you? Did you love her?”
“I’m not sure I can explain. We shared blood, history, a lifetime of memories. That was part of it. But more important, I understood that she had no choice in who she was. Some people come into the world missing a limb or without sight or hearing. We don’t blame them for the way they’re born. How could I blame Lauren because she came into the world without a heart? She was her mother’s child.”
“You’re not like that.”
“Luck of the draw. It might just as easily have been me. Or both of us. What a curse that would have been for my father.” He let out a breath that may have carried a whisper of a laugh. “It was Dad who pointed out to me that I was the lucky one. He told me I had to share my heart with Lauren. And that’s what I’ve tried to do. Pick up the pieces, fix what she broke, mend the wounds she delivered. Hers was a lonely existence, really. She used people and threw them away, and afterward she was alone. Always alone.”
“Except for you. She came to you for companionship and comfort, yes?”
He breathed deeply, sadly. “She always came to me crying.”
“Manufactured tears?”
“Real enough. But always for her, never for anyone else. In her world, there was no one else worth crying over.”
“Not even you.”
“Not even me.”
“A hard love, Max. Is that why you killed her?”
“I told you. I’m not certain I did.”
“What happened that night?”
“First you have to understand something. Lauren was always self-centered, and I’d come to expect that. But when she moved here and moved back into that awful place we’d lived as children, she began to change. I saw her becoming cruel. It wasn’t simply that she didn’t care about other people, she began to enjoy inflicting pain.”
“Physical?”
“I don’t know. Emotional pain, certainly. But because of what my mother was, I began to be afraid.”
Evil finding evil, Cork thought.
“That night she called me at the Four Seasons, hysterical. I tried to calm her, but it was clear that she needed me. I left.”
“Without a word to anyone.”
“I thought a few minutes with her would be enough. Over the years, I’ve learned exactly what to say to her.”
“Did you know she’d been shot?”
“She said something about it, but she often lied to be certain I’d come when she needed me. When I got there, I saw that it wasn’t a lie. She’d bled, although she wasn’t bleeding anymore. She told me what happened, told me in a fury, told me she was going to kill the Stillday girl. She was a mess. Partly hysterical with tears, partly in a hysterical rage. She was waving a gun around. She kept a small firearm somewhere, but this wasn’t it. This one I’d never seen before. I had no idea where it came from. The gun scared me.”
Cavanaugh stopped talking. The entire sky had turned vermilion, and everything beneath it was cast in the same hue. If fire could bleed, Cork thought, this would be its color.
“I couldn’t get her to calm down,” Cavanaugh finally went on. “And I was angry, too. Angry at the disruption of my evening, angry at Lauren because, hell, she probably had gotten what she deserved, angry at a whole lifetime of bending to her selfish whims and putting up with her crazy, selfish behavior. It seemed to me in that moment that two crazy people were in the room, and I said that to her. God help me, I said, ‘We’re both better off dead.’”
Recalling it, Cavanaugh seemed stunned, and he fell silent.
“What did she do, Max?”
“Stopped her raving,” he said in a distant voice. “Walked to me. Walked to me with that gun in her hand. Pushed herself against my chest with the gun between us. Reached down and brought my hand up and put my finger over her finger on the trigger and whispered, ‘Do you want that, Max? Do you?’”
Cork waited, then pressed. “What happened?”