Kilometer
One more ki-ki
Every week Jeanne would now drag along Victoire, stubbornly trailing at the back of the group, so that she could fill her lungs with the sea air. It was the time when bathing started to become fashionable. The Guadeloupeans were beginning to appreciate the splendors of their beaches. The children in their panties cheeped and splashed about without venturing too far from the sand. Jeanne and Victoire did not go swimming. They sat on the beach and, both wincing from the sting of the sun, shared a rubber cushion. Jeanne boldly laid her head on her mother’s lap and her love for her welled up and suffocated her. “Why has she always been so cold toward me?” she asked herself. “So distant? So reserved?”
Victoire awkwardly caressed her mop of hair, smoothing out the tiny peppercorn curls around her temples. Everything seemed so peaceful and death so far away. However, if Jeanne imagined that the end was far from Victoire’s thoughts, she was mistaken.
One morning, out of the blue, Victoire asked Jeanne to invite Anne-Marie, Valérie-Anne, and Boniface Jr. to lunch on Sunday. Whereas everything prompted her to refuse such a proposition, she did not have the heart to reject it, convinced perhaps deep down that the guests wouldn’t come. They hadn’t seen one another for years. They no longer pretended to be united. To her surprise, all the guests hurriedly accepted; Valérie-Anne, who was pregnant and coming all the way from La Regrettée, even insisted on bringing her husband, Maximilien. A date was set, therefore, for the following Sunday after the sacrosanct high mass.
I am going to call this meal “The Last Supper.”
It could be the subject of a painting with Victoire in the center, surrounded by the people she had cherished throughout her life. But on that particular day she did not simply reunite those who were dear to her before death carried her off. It was her way of writing her last will and testament. One day, she hoped, color would no longer be an evil spell. One day, Guadeloupe would no longer be tortured by questions of class. The white Creoles would learn to be humble and tolerant. There would no longer be the need to set a club of Grands Nègres against them. Both would get along, freely intermingle, and who knows, love each other.
The days preceding the lunch, Victoire went into action. She set off back to the market. Slipping on again her old habits, she bargained hard the price of shellfish and fowl. She did not let herself be fooled about how fresh the fish was or how tender the meat. No need to say that on this occasion she outdid herself. Up at four in the morning, she spent the whole of Saturday and most of Sunday morning in the kitchen, since she wanted this meal to remain a lasting memory on the palate and in the heart. My mother wrote out the menu of this memorable day on one of her exercise books that she carefully kept, scribbled with bits of her diary, memos, class timetables, and her children’s height and weight.
Conch and freshwater fingerling pie
Sea urchin chaud-froid
Fatted chicken caramelized in juniper
White rice
Rindless pork with breadnuts
Yam puree
Lettuce salad
Coconut flan
Assortment of sorbets
Plus champagne, Auguste’s fine wines, and his excellent Courvoisier cognac.
And it could be said, according to one of his favorite sayings, on that day Lucullus dined with Lucullus.
When it came down the rue de Condé, the Walbergs’ Cleveland, although less gleaming, nevertheless caused the usual sensation. To say nothing of its occupants. White Creoles! Two men dressed in grayish beige linen suits, wearing pith helmets. Two women in mutton-sleeved, light-colored dresses, arms loaded with presents for the children. The neighborhood watched them as if they were Martians.
Where were they going?
To the Boucolons! Was Victoire about to pass away? They guessed there must be some sort of reconciliation around her deathbed.
Despite the sadness of the occasion, the meal began quite cheerfully. Auguste and Anne-Marie competed for everyone’s attention: the former describing his memories of the Universal Exhibition, which never failed to have an effect; the latter, her years at the Conservatoire in Boulogne. My mother and Boniface Jr. sat staring at each other, paralyzed by the desire to make love to each other. Despite his sulky expression, Boniface Jr. was more handsome than ever, his forehead fringed with a whitish blond lock of hair that his mother accused him of bleaching. Valérie-Anne and her husband sat quietly on the edge of their chairs, Valérie-Anne clutching Victoire’s hand and calling her “darling little maman,” which made Jeanne furious. When Auguste and Anne-Marie let him get a word in, Maximilien talked of the yacht he dreamed of buying. He would sail to all the islands of the Antilles, one after another.
“We live in the most beautiful region in the world,” he declared. “And we don’t know it.”
This nature lover was to make a name for himself as a photographer and later published illustrated albums with the somewhat weak-sounding names of The Garden of Islands and Discovering Eden.
Just as she was helping herself again to the rindless pork, Anne-Marie suddenly put down her fork and began to cry: noisy, indecent sobs that shook her like a hurricane shaking a tree. Victoire drew her up close and hugged this ill-assorted friend of hers with whom she had shared everything throughout the years. Valérie-Anne also began crying on Maximilien’s chest. Hiding her tears, Jeanne felt a painful feeling of exclusion.
MY MOTHER NEVER spoke to me about Victoire’s last months, out of fear, I imagine, of reviving feelings that would have been too painful. She preferred to talk about her third pregnancy — she was pregnant again — which she endured in a state of revolt. Physically, she was bursting with health and had the appetite of an ogre, which Victoire was only too pleased to satisfy. But all she wanted were simple, basic dishes. Nothing too elaborate. Spices such as cumin, coriander, basil, and paprika made her nauseous. She didn’t like the mixture of sweet and sour or hot and cold. In order to reestablish communication, Victoire had to abide by her tastes, like an author from the Editions de Minuit who prides herself on writing for Harlequin books. At breakfast, she had to have her cucumber salad and fried fish garnished with capers. For lunch she would eat three good-size red snappers in a court bouillon. One day she devoured a whole roast chicken. She was seized by irrepressible cravings and Auguste had to run from one end of La Pointe to the other looking for crab matété at a time when there were no crabs because of the torrential rains that season; orange shrubb liqueur when it wasn’t Christmas; féros when it wasn’t the season for avocados. Like a vampire, she developed a craving for blood and ate enormous fried slices sprinkled with parsley. Meanwhile, her skin was becoming velvety. Her hair grew strong from invisible juices and tangled over her forehead. She was lovely and vivacious, walking as far as Bas-du-Fort. According to the shape of her belly, not round like a calabash but pointed like a shell from the First World War, Auguste guessed it would be the daughter he so wanted. Moreover, he had dreamed of his late mother, Célanire Pinceau, who had promised him a surprise. Jeanne begrudged him his good mood just as she begrudged her healthy looks. She could not understand why God in His cruelty had made her body a temple bursting with life, whereas her heart was blackened by death.
At the Dubouchage school, since her mind was constantly elsewhere, preoccupied with Victoire’s temperatures, dizzy spells, and falling blood pressure, her class was no longer the model it once was, chosen by the principal to show the inspectors on their tour of the colony. For the first time in her career, she was poorly rated. Her iron fist loosened while her proverbial strictness mellowed. Paradoxically, never were her pupils more disciplined or affectionate. During recreation she dashed back to the rue de Condé. When she returned red-eyed, fifteen, sometimes twenty minutes late, the girls, sitting quietly behind their desks, would be reciting their verb conjugations out loud. Some of them offered her bunches of flowers. Others wrote her poems. I have found some of them carefully handwritten in purple ink on squared paper. I have chosen at random the one signed “To my beloved mistress. Anastasie Bonhome, fifth-year elementary school class.”