Nago! screamed my father’s voice in my head. Oolom for "evil." Tico, nago, wuto! Crazy, evil, dangerous.
The Peacock fluttered in the air, shivering. Shivering with emotion. And the emotion was fear.
"What’s wrong?" I demanded. "What’s so bad?" Tico. Tico, nago, wuto. "That’s not an answer."
"Are you having a conversation with a pocket universe?" Festina asked.
"Yes. But it’s precious skimpy on explanations." I turned back to the Peacock. "Tell me what’s behind the door."
Tico. Tico botjolo. Crazy. Crazy cursed.
"Fine. I get the message." I glanced toward Festina. "The Peacock is all worked up over whatever’s in the next room. Says it’s crazy, evil, dangerous." I sighed. "Maybe the smart thing is to back away and call the cops…" Boom.
Silent, inside my head, but boom. I was hit with a jolt of shuddery weeping frustration: a jab from the inside out, some high-proof hormonal punch that was pressure-pumped into every muscle of my body. I screamed — not pain, not anger, just screaming because I had to scream, deluged-drenched-drowning in teary-eyed floods of emotion. My head was clear enough to think, "What the bejeezus is this?" But still I screamed.
Festina grabbed me. Locked me into a grip that was two-thirds hug, one-third grappling hold. "What’s wrong, Faye? What is it?" I didn’t fight her. I just started to cry. Wrapped my arms tight around her and sobbed. Not understanding it, scarce even feeling it, as the clear part of my brain kept thinking, "This isn’t me, this is something else. Something else is crying through me. What’s doing it?"
The answer came, not words, just realization.
Xe. Xe, Xe, Xe.
Weeping as if her heart would break.
Here’s the thing: I’d been assuming the Peacock was Xe. An alien whatsit hooked into our world-soul AI. Tied in with my father and me and Tic and God knows what else.
But. (Hard to think when you’re bawling your eyes out and wiping your nose on an admiral’s shoulder.) The Peacock spoke to me in simple Oolom words, sounding in my head with my father’s voice. Xe hardly ever spoke in words at alclass="underline" just emotions, realizations, facts showing up in my brain.
Xe sent thoughts through my link-seed. The Peacock spoke words — telepathically, if you wanted to call it that.
Two different beings. Entities. And what was behind the hidden door?
Xe. Xe, Xe, Xe.
The Peacock didn’t want me going through the door. Crazy, evil, dangerous.
But Xe spilled me wet with tears of frustration the moment I considered walking away. Sad, desperate tears.
"Stop it," I blubbered into Festina’s shoulder. "Let me think. Let me think."
"Shh," she said. We must have looked clown-stupid, me so much taller, crumpled against her. "Shhh. Shhh." She stroked my hair, not looking at me. Her cheek was against my head. "Shhh. Shhh."
Slowly, the gush of heartbreak eased away. Quiet. A drained-weary calm. Mine? Xe’s? Or just the afterwash from the hormones Xe sent swelling through me?
Peace is when the adrenaline goes away.
"That wasn’t me," I murmured to Festina, still holding her tight. "My body got hijacked by someone else."
She kept stroking my hair. "Shhh. Shhh." I’d dropped the torch-wand. Now the only light I could see came from the Peacock, looping quick circles around Festina and me like an anxious dog. Dizzying, dappled ripples of color.
"Shhh. Shhh. Shhh."
At last I pulled away… one hormone cocktail played out, another too precious eager to surface. Festina let me go, not meeting my eyes.
The Peacock had drawn in tight around us, an Ouro-boros ring only a handbreadth from touching our backs. Now it loosened, opening a gap that would let us scuttle back up the tunnel… but still blocking the way forward like a glittery wall of light.
"Do you want to tell me what’s going on?" Festina asked. She was still very close.
"Xe," I said. "She… it… is a consciousness laced through all the digital intelligences on Demoth. Including my link-seed. When I suggested maybe we shouldn’t keep going forward, Xe hit me with that colossal crying jag. Or maybe Xe herself had the crying jag, and I just got caught in the backwash."
"So," Festina muttered, "this Xe desperately wants us to press on. And the Peacock doesn’t. Dandy." She looked down at the Bumbler, clipped to her belt. "I suppose we could take a discreet peek from a distance…"
Carefully she drew back from the Peacock, slipping out through the gap it’d left for us. With the slow steps of someone who doesn’t want to rile a hair-temper dog, she walked around the edge of the ribbon-tube of light. The Peacock fluttered jumpitty-jittery, but didn’t stop her. As long as I stayed safe, the Peacock wouldn’t prevent others from sticking their heads in the noose.
Xe, I thought as Festina approached the hidden door, she’s a friend. Don’t be tico, nago, wuto.
No response.
Festina lifted the Bumbler and pulled out the scanner on its umbilical again. She took time for a glance back at me; I nodded. Then she planted the head of the scanner against the wall and gave a light push.
It went in. Straight into a wall that looked like solid granite. The nanites of the stone slipped out of the way, yielding enough to let the scanner pass through — centimeter by centimeter, like pushing a wooden stake into soft mud. Half a meter in, Festina said, "Okay. We’re through."
"See anything?" I asked.
She looked at the Bumbler’s vidscreen. "A short corridor and another room beyond. They’re both lit up, though I don’t see the light source. Oh, here’s something interesting." She turned a dial for better magnification. "My, my, my."
"What?"
"It’s an anchor. A Sperm-tail anchor. A machine that generates fields for holding Sperm-tails in place."
The dipshits had mentioned something about anchors — they were amazed the Peacock could stay stable without one. "These anchors lock down Sperm-tails?" I asked.
"Right. Whenever Explorers ride Sperm-tails on planet-down missions, we send an anchor out first to hold the tail in place."
"No wonder the Peacock is jumpy," I said. "A machine that can chain him down? That’s enough to give anyone the trembles."
"On the other hand," Festina replied, "you have to wonder what an anchor is doing down here." She fiddled with another dial on the Bumbler. "Let’s get more magnification and we’ll… holy shit!"
"What?"
She didn’t answer; she just stared at the Bumbler screen, her body blocking the view. "What is it?" I kept asking. "Festina? What?"
Twenty seconds later she stepped back from the wall. With a bit of huffing and puffing, Festina tug-of-warred the scanner out of the false granite. Then she carried the Bumbler back to me, her face deliberately emotionless. "I’ve recorded what’s in the next room. Here’s a playback."
She held the vidscreen in front of my eyes. The Peacock rippled nervously, flowing like Whitewater rapids between Festina and me, but not blocking my view of what the Bumbler showed.
Like Festina said, the other side of the door was a corridor leading to a larger room. In the mouth of the corridor, a boot-sized machine sat on the ground — the anchor thingy. The view moved in for a close-up: a black box with a horseshoe-shaped inset of gold embedded in its lid. More golden horseshoes circled the box’s sides, all glinting faint as a whisper. Incandescent. Every surface clean, not a speck of dirt or corrosion.
Then the view lifted away from the anchor, aiming out into the room beyond — a room with a huge black machine in the center, a great whopping obelisk stretched from floor to ceiling… and all around the obelisk, lights glowed.