‘She never got your little message, though. Her ill daughter picked it up and thought it was meant for her.’
‘Oh, shit.’
‘So you and Josh knew where she lived?’
‘Yes.’
‘Did you go there at other times?’
‘No. Not really.’
‘Not really?’
‘I might have stood outside every so often. To see her.’
‘Did you see her?’
‘No. I saw her kids, I think. It all made me feel a bit sick, if you want to know. Poisoned.’
‘Is there anything you haven’t told me?’
Ben shook his head miserably. ‘Josh is going to be mad at me. He made me swear not to say anything.’
‘That’s what happens when you start breaking the law. People get mad at you.’
FORTY-SIX
Frieda had got Judith’s email address from Chloë, and sent her a short message, saying she would be waiting for her at four o’clock the next afternoon at Primrose Hill, by the entrance just minutes from Judith’s school. The weather had changed: it was blustery and the clouds were low and grey, threatening rain.
She saw Judith long before Judith saw her. She was in a knot of friends, which loosened and dispersed as they went, and finally it was just the girl making her way slowly towards the gate. She was wearing her clumpy boots, which made her legs seem thinner than ever, and she had an orange scarf tied several times round her head, like a turban from which wild tendrils of hair escaped. Even her walk was unsteady, her feet in their heavy boots tripping on the pavement. She looked hunted, her eyes darting from side to side, and she kept putting her hand to her mouth, as if she was stopping herself saying anything.
As she came into the park, she noticed Frieda sitting on the bench and her step quickened. A series of expressions flickered on her face: bewilderment, anger, fear. Then it hardened into a mask of hostility. The blue eyes glittered.
‘Why is she here?’
‘Because it’s not me you need to speak to. It’s DC Long. Yvette.’
‘I don’t know what you’re talking about. I don’t need to talk to either of you. I don’t want to. I want everyone to fuck off. Leave me alone, all of you.’ Her voice cracked. A hoarse sob forced its way out of her mouth and she lurched where she stood, as if she would fall.
Frieda stood up and gestured to the bench. ‘You’ve been under terrible pressure. You must feel as if you’re about to explode with it.’
‘I don’t know what you’re going on about. I don’t want to be here. I want to go home. Or somewhere,’ she added.
But she didn’t move, and for a moment she looked so young and so full of uncertainty and terror that Frieda thought she would burst into tears. Then, as if her legs would no longer hold her, she crumpled on to the bench beside Yvette and pulled her knees up, wrapping her arms around them, hunching her body up protectively.
‘Tell Yvette why you’re so scared.’
‘What do you mean?’ whispered Judith.
‘You can’t protect him.’
‘Who?’
‘Your father.’
Judith closed her eyes. Her face became slack, suddenly like that of a middle-aged woman, defeated by tiredness.
‘I sometimes think I’m going to wake up and this will be just a dream. Mum will still be there and we’ll be arguing about stupid stuff, like staying out late and makeup and homework, and all the horrible things won’t have happened. I wish I’d never had a boyfriend. I wish I’d never met Zach. I feel sick when I think about him. I want to be like I was before all of this.’ She opened her eyes and looked at Frieda. ‘Is it because of me he’s dead?’
‘You tell me.’
And then Judith did at last burst into tears. She leaned forward and covered her face with her hands and rocked her body to and fro and wept. Tears dripped through the lattice of her fingers and snorts and groans and gasps shook her.
Yvette stared at her, then tentatively put out one hand and touched her on the shoulder, but Judith reacted violently, lashing out and pushing her away. It was several minutes before the sobs got quieter, and at last they ceased. She lifted her face from the sieve of her hands; she was blotchy with weeping; there were streaks of mascara running down her cheeks. She was barely recognizable. Frieda took a tissue from her bag and, without a word, handed it over. Judith dabbed at her sodden face, still making sniffling sounds.
‘I told him about Zach,’ she said at last, in a whisper.
‘Yes.’
‘Did he kill him?’
‘I don’t know that.’ Frieda handed her another tissue.
‘But you did right to tell us,’ added Yvette, decisively. ‘We would have found out anyway. You’re not to feel responsible.’
‘Why? Why shouldn’t I? It’s my fault. I had sex with him.’ Her face puckered. ‘And then I told my dad. He just wanted to protect me. What’s going to happen to him? What’s going to happen to us? Dora’s just a little girl.’
‘Yvette’s right, Judith: you’re not responsible.’
‘He’ll know it was me who told you.’
‘He should never have put you in this position,’ Yvette said.
‘Why is this happening to us? I just want to go back to when it was all right.’
‘We should take you home,’ said Frieda.
‘I can’t see him, not now. I just can’t. My poor darling dad. Oh, God.’ And she ended on a juddering sob.
Frieda made up her mind. ‘You’ll come to my house,’ she said, thinking of how her calm, orderly home had become like a circus for other people’s grief and chaos. ‘You and Ted and Dora. We’ll call them now.’ She nodded at Yvette. ‘And you’ll have to speak to Karlsson.’
When Yvette told Karlsson what she’d learned from Judith, he just stared at her for a moment.
‘Stupid, fucking idiot,’ he said finally. ‘Who’s going to look after his family now? What a mess. Russell Lennox knew about Judith and Zach. Josh and Ben Kerrigan knew about their father and Ruth Lennox. All those secrets. Where’s this going to end?’ His phone rang and he snatched it up, listened, said, ‘We’ll be there,’ then put it down again.
‘That was Tate in forensics. He’s invited us for a guided tour of Zach’s flat.’
‘But –’
‘Have you got anything better to do?’
James Tate was a small, stocky, dark-skinned and peppery-haired man with a peremptory manner and sarcastic sense of humour. Karlsson had known him for years. He was meticulous and dispassionate, very good at his job. He was waiting for them and when they arrived he gave them a small nod and handed them both paper shoes and thin latex gloves to put on, before they stepped into the scene of the crime.
‘You couldn’t have just told me on the phone?’ Karlsson asked.
‘I thought you’d like to see it for yourself. Like this, for example.’
He pointed at the doorbell. ‘Nice clear prints.’
‘Do they match –’
‘Don’t be in such a hurry.’ He opened the door into the little entrance hall. ‘Exhibit number two.’ He pointed at the muddy footprints on the floor. ‘Size forty-one shoes. We’ve got a clear image. And three: signs of some kind of struggle. This picture has been dislodged.’
Karlsson nodded. Yvette, following them past the disordered kitchenette into the bedroom, had the strange sensation that she would find the body all over again.
‘Four. Blood splash. Here, here and here. And substantially more there, of course, where the body was. Exhibit four, or should that be five: in that bin there,’ he pointed, ‘we found a very dirty kitchen towel covered with more blood. We took it away for DNA testing. Somebody had used it to clean himself up.’
‘And that would be …’
‘Exhibit six: fingerprints, containing traces of the victim’s blood, all against that wall. There. What do you think?’