“Sweeney—he’s going to kill us!” She grabbed me, her eyes wild. “Come on—”
Before us stood Balthazar and Robert Dvorkin. Their hands hung limply at their sides and their eyes were wasted-looking. As I looked at them, Balthazar raised one hand and held it out to me.
“It is my fault,” he said, his voice so low I could scarcely hear him. “I thought Angelica was too young when the lunula came to her. I thought she could never be anything more than what Magda was—smart, ambitious, cunning. I thought—I thought she was just a girl. Just a woman…
“Even after that night at the Orphic Lodge—I never dreamed how powerful she might become. I never dreamed she would turn so completely from her father, from all of us—”
He looked at Annie. “From all of you,” he said. “From her friends. And from her own son.”
He fell silent. I thought I could hear my heart beating inside me, and in the stillness Annie’s heart as well, and Balthazar’s, and Robert’s. I looked away from Balthazar and stared at the floor, trying to find some pattern there in the slate tile. Trying to find an answer; something to believe in.
“Sweeney.” I raised my head and Balthazar was there, his hand still held out to me. “You are our last hope.”
“You are Dylan’s only hope,” murmured Robert.
Annie yanked my wrist. “No, Sweeney, this is insane—”
With an effort I shook her from me. “No,” I whispered. “Wait—”
The room was utterly still, save for the exhausted buzzing of a fly against the window. I could feel their eyes upon me—Balthazar’s brilliant yet restrained gaze; Annie’s fury and confusion; Dr. Dvorkin’s pleading. I took a deep breath. Then I took Balthazar’s hand.
“I will help you,” I said in a low voice. “Not because I think you’re any better than Angelica. I don’t. You murdered Magda Kurtz and Oliver Crawford and god knows how many others. You stood by and did nothing while Angelica slaughtered my friends. You let her take Dylan, and—”
My voice began to shake. “—and you tossed me aside, like I was nothing! Like I had no place in your beautiful perfect world, your perfect Divine! Because I wasn’t one of your golden children, one of your goddamn scholars. One of your fucking chosen ones.”
I tried to yank away from Balthazar, but he tightened his grip with one hand.
“No,” he said. “You’re wrong. All these years, here—”
He indicated the walls and ceiling of the carriage house, the garden outside. “All this time, Sweeney: you have been under our protection.”
A chill ran through me. “No—”
“Yes.” Beside him Robert Dvorkin nodded. “We have been taking care of you, Sweeney—”
“No—”
“Watching out for you. Protecting you…”
The blood was thrumming in my ears but I could only shake my head, saying no, no, no as he went on.
“All those years ago at the Divine, Sweeney—we were wrong. Or, at least, we were only partly right. We knew that Angelica and Oliver were part of the equation; later, we knew that Othiym was as well.
“But we did not understand that there might be someone who would love Angelica and Oliver both. Someone who would not just come between them, but who might, somehow, serve to bring them together again.”
I groaned. “No…”
“And Dylan—We did not know that he was going to be born, that he would grow, perhaps, to become the real, the true Chosen One—
“We did not foresee that, Sweeney. And we did not foresee you.”
Silence. My legs buckled, but Balthazar pulled me to him, his hands surprisingly strong.
“Do you understand now?” he asked, his voice desperate. “Do you see, Sweeney? The pattern was there all along! It wasn’t just Angelica and Oliver—it was you and Angelica and Oliver—you were there, all along—”
“But what can I do?” I cried. I could feel Annie next to me, her cold hands tight on one arm, Balthazar’s on the other.
“You can save Dylan,” Robert said. “If we haven’t waited too long.”
“But how—where is he?”
I pulled away from Balthazar, and pushed Annie aside. “Do you know? Is he hurt? Because if you hurt him—if anyone hurts him—I’ll kill you with my bare hands. I swear to god by all that’s holy, I will—”
Balthazar opened his mouth to speak. But before he could say anything, Annie erupted into laughter.
“What?” I shouted, whirling to face her. “What’s so funny?”
“N-nothing,” she gasped.
“Because I’m not kidding, I’ll kill anyone—”
“That’s what I mean,” Annie said, and wiped her eyes. “I think that’s the point, Sweeney—”
She turned and stared at the two Benandanti. Then, to my surprise, she made a little bow. Her husky voice rang out as she announced, “Well, guys—whoever you really are, and whatever the hell you’re doing—
“I think you finally got the right girl for the job.”
I said nothing; what could I say? But at last Robert Dvorkin sighed and murmured, “We can’t wait. Are you ready, Balthazar?”
Balthazar turned to me. I couldn’t bear to look at him, so I stared at my feet and nodded. “I’m ready. But where is he? How are we going to find him?”
Balthazar took my hand. “This way, Sweeney,” he said, and pointed at the front door of the carriage house. Abruptly Annie was there between us, shaking her head furiously.
“Hey! If you think you’re taking her off somewhere—”
“No, Annie,” I said. Adrenaline and dread and exhaustion had pumped me up so that I hardly even felt afraid anymore. “This is—well, I don’t know what it is, but you better not come.”
“Don’t you dare—”
“Annie!”
“Let her go.” Robert’s calm voice cut through the anger. “One way or another, it won’t matter.”
Annie turned to him. “Oh, right, like I don’t—”
I grabbed her. “Shut up, Annie. Balthazar, tell me what to do.”
I looked into his eyes: those half-feral eyes, with their mockery and menace always waiting, waiting, like a patient wolf. I saw no mockery there now, or menace; but neither did I see any warmth. Only a cool, measuring regard, as though he were looking at a heated glass and wondering if it was strong enough not to shatter.
After a moment he nodded. “That way.” Once again he pointed to the door.
I shook my head. “That’s the front door of my house.”
“That’s right, Sweeney.” A very small smile appeared on his face. “Go,” he urged, and gave me a gentle push.
“But—”
“Go.”
All the bravura I’d felt moments before was gone. I felt sick and numb with fear; but then I thought of Dylan. Somewhere, Angelica had Dylan; but where? I could only trust Balthazar now.
“Okay,” I said. I walked toward the door, forgetting Annie stumbling behind me, forgetting Balthazar and Robert and even Angelica.
Dylan, Dylan, I thought, and reached until my hand pressed against the screen. Oh, Dylan.
The door bulged open, the bottom catching on the floor sill and groaning as I pushed. Dylan. Dylan. Then, with a sound like water bursting from a broken dam, the door gave way. Before me was a dazzling vista, gold and crimson and argent, nothing but radiance, and so brilliant I could not bear to gaze upon it. I closed my eyes and stepped forward. My hands flailed helplessly as I plunged. Before I could draw another breath I tumbled head over heels and struck the ground. I lay there for a moment, groaning.