"What I had last night," she said, plunging right in, "was the experience of being dead."
She watched Peter for a reaction, but he only nodded encouragingly.
"I mean, as far as I'm concerned, there was a period of time there when I was actually dead."
"I heard you," Peter said quietly. "Go on."
So, for the third time that day, she told the story. Once again she relived the emotions that had buffeted her when she left her body, when she waa in the tunnel, and when she was trying to get out. When she finished, Joana felt physically exhausted.
Peter reached across the low table and refilled her wine glass. "What made you decide to call me this afternoon?"
"I guess it was the accident. Or almost-accident. I was nearly run down in a-crosswalk in Westwood by some woman in a station wagon."
"Do you think it had anything to do with the business last night?"
"I don't know, probably not. It seems the woman had a heart attack or something. She dropped dead right after she got out of the car."
"Scary," he said.
"Yes, it was. And after that I just had to talk to somebody."
"Well, I'm glad you came. Now tell me, what can I do for you?"
"Do you mean in the way of psychic counseling?"
"Or any other way you have in mind." He caught her frown and grew serious. "Psychic counseling is what I do."
"I don't know what I wanted from you, Peter, I really don't. Just a sympathetic ear, I guess. I don't see that there's anything you or anybody else can do for me."
"Don't be too sure." He looked around the room speculatively. "Let me see, I don't think this is a job for the crystal. Ouija board?" He looked at her quickly, then shook his head. "No, we're not ready for the Ouija board. We don't have time to make a proper astrological chart for you." He rubbed his chin. "What would you say to a Tarot reading?"
"You mean fortune-telling cards? Like Gypsies?"
He held up his hands, palms outward. "No no no, not fortune-telling. Don't even say fortune-telling out loud. Fortune-telling is against the law. So are Gypsies, as far as I know. I am no Gypsy fortune teller, I am a psychic counselor." He smiled at her. "For this no laws have yet been written."
"I don't think so," Joana said. "I wouldn't be a very good subject. I really don't believe in all that stuff."
"Until last night, did you believe you could be dead and come back?"
"You've got a point there."
"Anyway, it doesn't really matter if you believe or not. It won't affect the reading. Why not give it a try? What have you got to lose?"
"Well… what the hell, why not?" Joana took out a cigarette and Peter reached across instantly to snap a flame for her from his lighter. "As you say, what have I got to lose?"
"That's the spirit." Peter stood up and walked over to a compact writing desk. From a drawer he took an oblong package wrapped in silk. He carefully unwrapped the silk kerchief and laid it aside. Joana saw the package was a thick pack of cards.
"You take good care of them," she said.
"Silk keeps out the discordant vibrations."
Joana searched his face for any sign that he was kidding, but found none. He came back and sat down beside her, spreading the cards out face up on the table in front of them.
Joana gazed down at the colorful picture cards. There were figures of humans, animals, and mythological creatures engaged in a variety of activities in different detailed settings. A few of them, kings and queens, vaguely resembled regular playing cards.
"First time you've seen a Tarot deck?" Peter asked.
"Yes, it is. Does each of these cards have a meaning of its own?"
"In a sense they do," Peter said smoothly, "but the symbolism is the important thing. That's the key to the Tarot. The meanings of the individual cards are different according to where they come up in the layout, whether they're upright or reversed, which cards come up around them, and most important, the vibes given off by the querent."
"Querent?" Joana repeated.
"That's you. I am the reader."
"If you say so." Joana picked out a card at random. It showed a tall, square-sided structure on the top of a mountain being struck by a bolt of lightning. Flames licked from the windows, and a man and woman, their faces contorted, plunged apparently to their deaths. "What does this one mean? It looks ominous."
Peter took the card from her hand. "This is The Tower," he said. "And you're right, this is usually bad news. Conflict, catastrophe, violent change, oppression. It all depends, though, on the total reading. With the right kind of vibes it could mean a new freedom of mind or body, though gained at great cost."
"What you're saying is it means just about what you want it to mean."
He smiled, not at all offended. "Not really, but there is always room for interpretation. That's what I'm here for."
"All right," she said, "let's do it if we're going to."
"Right." Peter moved the cards about on the table. "First we have to find one that will represent you." He picked out a card showing a handsome crowned woman sitting on a throne, holding in her hands an elaborate jeweled chalice. "How would you like to be the Queen of Cups?"
"Why not."
He placed the Queen of Cups face up in the center of the table. Then he scooped up the rest of the deck, squared it, and handed it to Joana. "Now you shuffle the cards."
She took the deck from him. "How much do I shuffle?"
"Just until you feel comfortable about it. And while you shuffle, think about some question that you'd like the cards to answer."
The Tarot cards were considerably larger than ordinary playing cards, and Joana found shuffling them an awkward task. She managed to mix them, however, and tried to come up with a question. She still thought this was a lot of foolishness, but as long as she was here, she might as well play the game.
The question. What should she ask the Tarot? There was only one thing of importance on her mind-her experience in that shadowy tunnel, and what came immediately before and after. The feeling stayed with her that she was not out of trouble yet. She concentrated on the question: How will this all end?
She finished shuffling the cards and placed the deck on the table between them. "What now?"
"Cut the deck into three piles, from right to left, with your left hand."
Joana followed his instructions, and felt a tingle of anticipation in spite of herself.
Peter took up the three piles in reverse order, using his left hand. "There are many different methods of laying out the Tarot," he said, "but we're going to use the one that's most common-the ancient Keltic method."
"If it was good enough for the ancient Kelts, it's good enough for me," Joana said. She was trying to lighten the mood, to lose the apprehensive feeling that this oversize deck of cards was actually going to tell her something.
Peter just smiled and peeled off the first card, which he placed over the Queen of Cups in the center of the table. As he laid the card he said, "This covers you." The next card he placed horizontally across the first, saying, "This crosses you." The next four cards he laid down in the form of a cross with the covered Queen of Cups at the center. As he carefully placed each card in its position, Peter spoke the ritual that went with it. "This is beneath you… This is behind you… This crowns you… This is before you."
Next he laid down four cards in a vertical row to the right of the cross, beginning at the bottom. "These, now, will build up to give us the final answer to your question."
He snapped down the tenth and last card. Joana flinched. The picture was of a skeleton in black armor mounted on a fiery-eyed white horse. Beneath the horse's hooves lay a dead king. Before it a woman and a child were on their knees. The legend under the picture: DEATH.