“Ari, are you happy with Jason?”
Ari sat up and looked at me confused. She sat there too long….almost like she was really trying to think long and hard about this question.
“Of course I’m happy with him! I mean he is my…..well he’s my boyfriend…..oh god….I’m so fucked up. I have a boyfriend and I’m pinning over a guy who is not my boyfriend. Jesus Mary and Joseph I’m headed straight to hell!”
I let out a giggle…she probably was! “Ari, if Jefferson said to you right now…be my girlfriend, leave Jason….what would you say.”
“I would say Jason who?!” Ari said as we both busted out laughing! It was clear that Ari had feelings for Jefferson, she always had.
“How long will you wait for Jefferson?” I asked as I raised my eyebrow up at her.
She let out a sigh and fell back on her bed. “I really want to say forever but….” Just then we heard a knock on the door. I hollered for whoever it was to come in.
Gunner poked his head in and said dinner was almost ready. I jumped up because I wanted to help Emma with the salad. Ari slowly sat up and reached her hand out to mine. I laughed as I pulled her up. As I walked by Gunner he slapped my ass and OH MAN! OUCH!
“OWWW! That hurt!” I said with a giggle. Gunner let out laugh.
“We need to get you over that and back in the saddle tomorrow young lady.”
Dinner was amazing. My goodness Gunner’s grandmother sure knew how to cook. All Ari and I did was put together a salad to go along with the lasagna and Gunner gushed over it nonstop! Jefferson talked mostly to Garrett and I noticed he never once looked over at Ari. He was smiling at her when we first came downstairs until her phone beeped. Somehow Ari got a signal and a text message from Jason came through. Honestly, I think she was more excited about getting a signal than the fact that she got a message from Jason. Jefferson didn’t see that though and his smile quickly changed to a frown. Maybe I could ask Gunner to beat some sense into my brother. The thought made me smile and Gunner looked up at me and winked. Cue the butterflies in my stomach.
Tonight the girls cleaned up the dishes while Garrett, Gunner, Jefferson and Drake sat on the porch and talked about the ranch. Gunner had already told his grandparents six months ago that he was planning on moving out to the ranch full time once he graduated from college which was less than a year away. I heard Garrett talking to Emma about it earlier. The thought made my stomach hurt. That meant he would be leaving me. I tried to ask Gunner about it at the dinner table but his face turned white as a ghost and he just changed the subject. I’m not sure why but Emma and Garrett gave each other a serious look before the conversation got changed.
After the dishes were cleaned up we all went outside to sit on the porch. Even though it was damn near close to 100 degrees during the day the nights were wonderful out at the ranch! The breeze that blew was just enough to cool you off, that and a glass of Emma’s sweet tea. Good god she made the best damn sweet tea I had ever had. Jefferson and Garrett seemed to be in a deep conversation as I noticed Gunner standing up against the railing looking out into the dark pasture. I felt a warm sensation run through my body when I thought about what I did to him in the river this afternoon. I felt my face blush and I looked around like everyone might know what my thoughts were. Gunner turned right then and tilted his head and smiled at me.
“Penny for your thoughts?”
I laughed. “I don’t think you really want me to talk about my thoughts out loud Mr. Mathews!”
Gunner looked confused and then I swear I saw him blush. He grabbed me and pulled me to him as he whispered I love you in my ear.
“I love you too.” I would never get tired of saying it to him or hearing it from him.
“Ellie are we going too fast sweetheart? I’ll slow things down if this is moving too fast for you. The last thing I want to do is spook you.”
I hugged him closer to me and leaned up to kiss him. “I love that you worry about me but trust me to let you know if I think we are moving too fast okay.”
“Okay….but really all I want to do it sneak away and go up to your room for a little bit and make out with you!” Gunner said has he wiggled his eyebrows up and down.
I let out a giggle and slapped his arm. “Behave Drew Mathews!”
He leaned down and the heat from his breath against my skin was pure torture. “Fuck it turns me on when you say my name….”
Oh….there went that ache between my legs. I desperately wanted to ease it now that I had a taste of what an orgasm felt like. I made sure to give Ari an earful first thing this morning when we woke up and I told her what happened with Gunner the night before. I thought her scream was going to wake everyone in the house up! She hopped onto my bed and told me to spill….so I did! Turns out miss smarty pants has only ever had one and it was self-induced while she was dreaming about Jefferson. EEWWWW that much I didn’t have to know but it was already out of her mouth before she could take it back.
Gunner was yawning like crazy. I knew he was tired. Emma said he and Jefferson both got up at four am to work on the fence.
“Gunner babe, why don’t you go to bed you’re exhausted.” I said as I looked up into those beautiful blue eyes.
“Will you come with me?”
“Ahh no…..”
“Can I come lay down with you then?” Gunner whispered.
“NO!”
Then I noticed Jefferson stand up and shake Garrett’s hand. He leaned down and kissed Emma goodnight and gave Ari a head nod with a faint goodnight. He walked up to me and kissed me good night has he slapped Gunner on the back.
Then it was like dominos. They all started dropping. Garrett and Emma excused themselves and said they were retiring to their room. Drake said he was going to kick his son Dewey’s ass…Gunner must have told him about this afternoon down by the river. Ari headed up right after Dewey left and all that was left was Gunner and me. I could see he was fighting to stay awake just to be with me. I started to fake yawn and said I was really tired. That was all it took. Gunner jumped up, turned everything off down stairs and we walked up the stairs hand in hand.
In my mind I imagined we were married and there was a little girl with curly hair running up the steps in front of us with Gunner promising to read her a bed time story. The thought made me smile and I glanced over at Gunner. He looked so tired.
What would life be like for him if he worked here full time? Would he always be so tired? God he even looked handsome when he was dead tired. Oh how I loved him.
Gunner walked me to the bedroom door and leaned down to kiss me. He deepened the kiss and it nearly took the breath from my lungs. He pulled away and pushed a piece of hair behind my ear.
“Ellie…….” That was all he said to me but it meant so much more. I could feel it in my heart. I smiled at him and I instantly got lost in his eyes. It was like he was trying to memorize every bit of me to take with him.
He leaned down and gave me a kiss that he pulled away from too damn quick. He turned and headed to his room.
I opened the door and stepped inside and as I closed it I leaned back against the door. My heart was beating so fast I could hear it in my ears…….This man has bewitched me…….I will forever be his…..God I hope he doesn’t get tired of me or fall for someone else. I would be devastated. This felt too perfect, too right….I was just waiting for the floor to fall out from underneath me. It was bound to happen…I just wish I knew when.
You will never be wanted by anyone……
CHAPTER FORTY FOUR
J eff……
Fuck! I could not sleep at all. All I could think about was Ari…..Ari in her bikini…Ari out of her bikini……Ari riding on that damn horse and racing with me….Ari smiling as she was just letting go while riding. It was clear to me she loved being on a horse and she was a damn good rider. We argued most of the damn day and I blamed myself for that. I just couldn’t help it. She was so fucking cute when she was mad. Even though we fought most of the day….the normal conversation we had while we sat along the river letting our horses cool down was probably the best damn twenty minutes of my life. We didn’t fight, didn’t call each other names…we just talked. She told me she wanted to live in the country, on a place not as big as the ranch but with plenty of land for horses. My heart soared. I planned on buying the property that backed up the Mathews ranch. It wasn’t anything like this ranch, only 250 acres but I had been talking to Garrett tonight and the family that owned the small ranch was desperate to sell it. I guess their grandparents owned it and they just wanted it gone so they could keep up their city lives in Austin. There was a small ranch style home on the property, two wells and three tanks. Perfect for horses and a few cattle and Garrett already said I could let my cattle grace on the Mathews ranch as well as the horses. It was a dream come true. I hadn’t even told Gunner about it yet.