I wanted to see him. Reaching down to the hem of his shirt, he stopped me. “No,” he said boldly.
“Why not?”
“Because I said no.” What the hell? I could be fully naked and laid out on his desk, but he wouldn’t take his damn shirt off.
A feeling in the pit of my stomach told me something wasn’t right, but in the moment, I just didn’t give a shit. Instead of his shirt, I reached down for his pants, unbuttoning them and sliding them down.
“Don’t worry, it’ll fit.” Deke’s voice came out as if he was reading my thoughts. His cock was nothing like I remembered. He was big—huge—and right now, it was as if I wrote about him in my books, hoping for my fantasies to come true.
“You sure about that?” I eyed him wearily.
“Yeah. It’ll feel good. I promise.” Smiling up at him, I watched as he fitted the condom over himself. It barely fit, and I couldn’t help but panic a bit.
Deke brushed his lips against mine. “It’s okay.” His kisses continued to be rough, and I loved every minute of it.
Feeling Deke’s cock at my entrance, I closed my eyes, enjoying every second. This was what I wanted for so long, and it was finally here. I needed this. I needed him. Pulling away from his mouth, my eyes captured his. I swear I saw something in his for a brief moment before he diverted his gaze.
Deke pushed fully inside of me and I couldn’t help but gasp. I had never felt so full before. It was as if he was pushing against my insides, hitting spots I didn’t know existed, but so happy he found them.
My hips began falling into sync with Deke’s thrusts, and he was right, I could take all of him. “Deke!”
“You like that?”
“God, yes.” Deke began pumping relentlessly inside me causing my body to coil, ready to spring at any second.
Closing my eyes, I relished in the feeling.
“Come Vann.” Looking up at him, he read my mind. “You can come. Come. Now.”
And I did, screaming his name throughout the small office. My body flew off into another world. The electricity coming out of it was burying me alive. I felt my body jump and move. I had no control over it. It was flying on pure instinct, my brain totally shutting off.
I felt Deke’s dick grow even thicker inside of me, which I didn’t think was possible. With a few more solid thrusts, he threw his head back, groaning, but I couldn’t make out what he was saying.
Coming back down to Earth, I looked up at Deke’s beautifully chiseled face. His blue eyes met mine, and for a moment, I couldn’t help the smile that spread across my face. “Thanks, I needed that.” Deke pulled out of me, disposing of the condom while pulling up his pants.
“Yeah, thanks,” I said, scrambling off the desk in search of my clothes, the air in the room changing and not for the better. What was once lust and passion was now something else that I couldn’t put my finger on. I just knew I needed to get dressed. Now.
With my back to Deke, I threw all my clothes on, just wanting to get it covered up, somehow feeling unbelievably exposed.
“That was great, Vann. Only a few more times and you’ll be worked out of my system.” Deke’s words cut right through me.
Ice flushed through my body, making it impossible for me to move. He wanted to work me out of his system? I stood there, mute, not able to find my voice, the shock seeming to have eaten it up.
“That was so much better than our first time, don’t ya think? You were so responsive, following all my directions. That was seriously hot. I can’t wait for round two.”
“Wait.” I turned, looking him square in the eye. “You want to work me out of your system?”
Deke’s stare was intense, but I didn’t shy away. I gave it back tenfold. “Yeah. That way we can both move on. We had so much that was unfinished; we need to finish and be done with it.”
Shaking my head, I said in disbelief, “You can’t be serious.”
“I’m dead serious. You came all the way back here, and you can’t tell me that it’s not been on your mind.”
Hurt and anger surged through me, but I found I liked the anger better. Who in the hell did he think he was?
“You asshole! What the fuck is your deal? First, you never tell a woman you want to ‘work her out of your system’ by fucking her, at least not this woman. Second, what makes you think for a minute that I will go along with this idiotic, second-grade scheme? Huh?” I began edging closer to him, but what I once felt was attraction had evaporated, and all I wanted to do was kick his fucking ass. “You’re out of your fucking mind!”
Deke laughed. “You’re so hot when you’re mad.”
“Fuck you. You can shove this ‘plan’ of yours up your ass because it’s not happening. You want to work me out of your system? I’ll help you with that. I’m out of here.”
Reaching for the door handle, Deke’s voice boomed, “Wait!” My body immediately halted as if Deke’s command demanded my obedience. “You’re not going anywhere.”
I swung around to face him. “The hell I’m not. You don’t own me, and you will never have me.”
“I just did.” Deke smirked.
“It’ll be the last time. Didn’t you say you needed closure? There it was. One last fuck before we part ways … how Romeo and Juliet of us. Too bad you’re not dying at the end of this story.”
“I don’t know why you’re so bent out of shape. I don’t usually fuck women more than once, and I’m offering you that. You should be grateful.”
“Grateful? Are you fucking kidding me?”
“No.”
He so did not get it. What in the hell happened to him? “Deke, I wouldn’t fuck you again if you were the last man on the planet. Go find someone else to be your ‘toy,’ ‘cause it’s not me.” Deke grabbed my arm as I flinched away.
“You don’t touch me…ever again.”
“Oh. I’ll touch you and you’ll beg for it.”
“Now you’re in dreamland.”
Deke leaned in close to my ear, “I’m not dreaming. It will happen.” His words sending shivers down my spine, but I refused to let them show. “Come on, we can both get off, have some fun, and move on. You know it’s the best scenario.” Deke actually sounded like he meant what he said.
What the hell was he thinking? How dare he think I would go along with a plan like this. No woman would agree to this … would they?
Deke knew how to kiss, but he’d probably kissed many women throughout the years. The thought made my heart ache. If he would have just called and talked to me, then we wouldn’t be in this position right now.
But, I wouldn’t do this to myself. I deserved better.
Grabbing the door handle, I wretched my arm away and pulled the door open with as much force as I could muster and headed straight back to the bar. The crowd was still in full force, but I ignored every single one of them. I didn’t want to see any of them, not to mention I probably looked like I’d just been fucked. I needed a drink.
Pushing my way up to the bar, I called Ace over and ordered tequila. Lots and lots of tequila. I began shooting, not giving two shits what any of these people thought.
“Hey babe. Need a partner?”
Turning, Z was standing behind me. “Go away,” I barked at him.
“Come on, cuz. What’s the deal? Why you drinking all by yourself?”
“Get. Lost,” I bit off, turning around to do another shot. I motioned to Ace, handing him a fifty. “Keep ‘em coming.”
Z pushed his way in next to me, and shit if that didn’t piss me off. “Come on, Vann. You’ve had enough.”
“I’m a big girl. I can handle it.” Bringing the glass to my lips, the cool liquid burned on its way down my throat. Every shot made Deke disappear just a little bit more.