Richard could never be grateful enough to Cara for all the times she had protected Kahlan when he couldn’t be there. Cara, perhaps better than anyone, recognized the importance of a Lord Rahl who not only loved a woman, but loved life. It had been a very long time since that had been true. That was one reason why Cara had fought so fiercely to protect him. She instinctively knew that he, like Kahlan, had come into the world for a purpose. Cara’s purpose, taken up of her free will, had been to be part of that cause by protecting him.
Now, Richard felt numb. He could hardly believe that she was gone. Cara had been at his side for so long, fighting for him and with him, that she had come to be a sister to him, an ever-present protector and companion. It hurt all the more knowing that she had given up her life so that he might live.
He felt guilty, felt responsible, for her death.
Richard knew that most of the soldiers were more than a little astonished that he was actually back from the dead, that he was really alive and among them again, but for these men of the First File it was also expected that the Lord Rahl could do the kind of remarkable things that they could not imagine. After all, while they were the steel against steel, he was the magic against magic. That magic was a largely alien mystery to them, but they had many times seen its power.
The soldiers had been stunned when Richard had charged out the broken doorway, once again alive and once again coming to help them fight off the half people that had flooded into the citadel. Though there had been a large horde of the half people invading the place, they hadn’t been what Richard had at first expected. They were not Shun-tuk sent by the spirit king and Hannis Arc.
These had been a tribe of half people who had come out to hunt for souls now that the walls closing off the third kingdom had been breached. They were just as intent on devouring the living in the hope of stealing a soul for themselves, but they were not as good at fighting as the emperor’s legions of Shun-tuk. Even so, besides invading the citadel, they had also killed a number of people down in the city of Saavedra.
Richard had led the soldiers down into the city to root out the last of them. They weren’t hard to find. They didn’t run from soldiers. They came out of buildings and alleyways, seeing Richard and the men of the First File as more opportunities to gain a soul for themselves. Instead of getting a soul, they had been cut down with the ruthless efficiency that only the men of the First File and Richard’s blade could deliver.
Unlike Cara’s farewell, a pit had been dug for the hundreds of dead half people. No one said words over them. No one would miss them. No one would remember them.
As Richard turned to the three Mord-Sith behind him, he reached up and lifted Cara’s Agiel off from around his neck.
“I have worn the of Agiel of a number of women who have died for me,” he said, trying to keep his voice steady. “I can’t bear to wear this one. It will only remind me of all the ways in which I failed her. I would like to pass it on to you, Cassia, in the hope that, instead of pain, some of her strength will pass on to you.”
Cassia nodded, fearing to test her voice. Like most Mord-Sith, she didn’t know quite how to react to being treated with respect. Once captured as young women and trained as Mord-Sith, they were treated as little more than savage hounds on a chain, beaten to keep them vicious and make sure they followed orders.
Richard placed the chain over Cassia’s bowed head, and then, after rolling the red Agiel in his fingers for a moment, he carefully let it lie against her chest. He reached back and pulled her blond braid out from under the chain so it could rest around her neck, then arranged her braid over the front of her shoulder, admiring Cara’s Agiel at the end of the chain.
“Lord Rahl,” she finally said when she found her voice and looked up, “I am not the equal of Cara. I am not–”
He put his fingers to her lips, silencing her. “Yes you are, Cassia. You and Laurin and Vale made the same choice as she did to be free. That shows your strength. You are an individual, strong in your own way, with unique talents and abilities. We will be well served if you are simply yourself and don’t try to be like someone else.”
Cassia nodded, looking a little relieved. “I will carry it with honor. It will give me strength as I remember her strength.” She gestured to Laurin and Vale. “The three of us together will be as strong as Cara was.”
Richard smiled. “Let’s hope you are not three times the trouble.”
Her brow twitched with a little frown. “As long as you allow us to protect you as only we can, then we will not be any trouble at all.”
Mord-Sith always thought they knew best how to protect the Lord Rahl. Richard shared a knowing glance with Kahlan. She returned a small smile. He was heartened to see her smile.
Cassia flicked her own Agiel, hanging on a fine gold chain from her right wrist, up into her hand. She hesitated for a moment. “But, Lord Rahl, I don’t understand. You are back and seem well again, yet our Agiel still do not work. The bond is not there to make them function. We still feel nothing.”
At hearing this, Nicci abruptly stepped forward. “What do you mean they don’t work?”
Cassia shrugged. “They don’t work. We can’t feel the bond to the Lord Rahl, so we can’t feel any power from our Agiel. It is the same as it was before Lord Rahl died.”
Nicci glanced at the other two Mord-Sith. They shook their heads, confirming that they didn’t feel the bond, either.
The sorceress turned a suspicious scowl on Richard and without asking placed a hand against his forehead. She jerked her hand back almost as soon as she had touched him.
Looking shaken, Nicci pushed her long blond hair back over her shoulder. “You still have the poison in you from the Hedge Maid’s touch.” She gestured to Kahlan. “When she came back, it was gone–left in the underworld. You still have it.”
It sounded like an accusation. Although he was doing his best to ignore it, Richard could feel the pain of that deadly sickness deep inside. When he had come out of the bedroom to fight the invaders, the rage of the sword had blocked the ache of the poisonous infection. But now that the sword was back in its sheath, he again felt the full weight of the sickness.
“I took that touch of death out of Kahlan when I was there with her in the underworld. I can’t explain how I did it. I just did. But I couldn’t take it out of myself. I still carry it.”
In alarm, Kahlan seized his arm. “You still have that infection in you? You came back to the world of life only to die? Richard, you can’t–”
“I came back,” Richard said, cutting her off. He had more important things on his mind and didn’t want to get into it right then and there. “That’s what matters. Even though I carry that same taint of death, I came back so that I can stop Emperor Sulachan and Hannis Arc.”
“If you live that long,” Nicci said under her breath. “Richard, you know better than me that if it’s not removed, that poison is fatal.”
“I do.”
“But I don’t understand why you couldn’t leave it in the world of the dead,” Kahlan said, her exasperated expression darkened by fear and dread. “That is the perfect place to leave that vile poison. The world of the dead is the perfect containment field for the touch of death.”
“I couldn’t do that.” He waved away further discussion of the topic. He was already in a bad enough mood over Cara. “Look, I’m back. That’s what matters for now. Sulachan is like that poisonous touch of death loose in the world of life. We have to stop everyone from dying, not just me. I came back to do that. That is the priority.