“I expect he’s in at the Glass Slipper.”
“Pony and Calhoun and Friendly’s in town,” Carl said. He leaned back in his chair, stiffly. “See them?”
“No.”
“And your brother,” Carl said.
Gannon went over and sat down in the chair beside the cell door. The key was in the lock and he withdrew it, and hung the ring on the peg above his head.
“They are in the Lucky Dollar, I heard,” Carl said. He chewed on the end of his mustache; he stretched. “Well,” he said, in a shaky voice. “He handled the whole bunch at once, I don’t know why he can’t four of them.”
“I expect he can,” Gannon said. At least Cade was not in, he thought, and despised himself.
“I don’t know,” Carl said, rubbing a hand over his face. “Seems like I face up to it every night as soon as I close my eyes. But damn if I can—” He shook his head, and said, “When you see a real man it surely shames you for what you are, don’t it?”
“Meaning Blaisedell?”
“Meaning Blaisedell. You know, I had got to thinking that if I didn’t go up against McQuown sometime I would know I was dirt. But maybe that’s wrong. Maybe he is the one — I don’t know, maybe I mean big enough or clean enough or something — to do it. My God damn how I have chewed myself to ribbons over that bunch. But maybe McQuown is Blaisedell’s by rights.”
Gannon said nothing. It seemed to him that hate was a disease, and that he did not know a man who didn’t have it, turned inward or outward. He had felt the hate when he had walked along Main Street tonight, hate for him because he was suspected of being friendly with McQuown; he wondered if McQuown, in San Pablo, could not feel the hate all the more. Maybe McQuown had gotten used to it long ago. Carl hated both McQuown and his own self, and that was the worst kind, the pitiful kind.
“Dirt,” Carl said. “Me”—he laughed breathlessly—“that thought I was the finest thing to walk the earth when I put this star on here. Not because of Bill Canning exactly, either,” he said. “But because I was ashamed of every damned man in Warlock. And hating that red-bearded son of a bitch so much. And Curley.”
Gannon looked down to examine the little scar in the fold of flesh stretched between his thumb and forefinger. It had healed quickly. “Why, Carl, I believe you have the Saturday night jim-jams!”
“Something awful,” Carl said, laughing and stretching again. “Well, I have never seen one yet that didn’t pass on by come Sunday morning. And a damned comfort when they do.”
After a long time Carl spoke again. “Had a delegation from the Citizens’ Committee come to call this afternoon. Buck and Will Hart.”
“What did they want?”
“Wanted some action about all this road-agenting. I told them there’d been some starch took out of us running any more posses, since Keller hadn’t got pay sent down yet for those boys that run the last one for me. It turned out they had a proposition, which was the Citizens’ Committee guaranteeing posse pay.”
“That will make things easier,” Gannon said. “It is good to know we can jump if we get another clear shot.”
“It is,” Carl said. He leaned back in his chair again. “I told them it was fine and public-spirited and all, but Buck is hard to get along with sometimes. We got along better when I rode shotgun for him; he was always afraid I was going to quit. We had some words.”
Gannon saw that Carl had flushed; Carl avoided his eyes, and he thought that Carl and Buck Slavin might have had words over him.
“Well, I told him if he didn’t like the way I did my job he could hang this star on himself and welcome,” Carl went on. “I told him and Will to look at those names over there,” he said, nodding toward the scratchings in the whitewash. He glanced toward Gannon now, and his deep-set eyes looked very hot. “Like I have to every time I turn around in here. See if they could count a man on there didn’t turn in his star and run, or get shot out from behind it. And I told them they wouldn’t see me run. I might not maybe go out on the prod for Curley Burne or any of them, but I won’t ever run. Made a damned fool of myself,” he said, flushing more darkly.
“Curley?” Gannon said carefully.
“Well, there is a lot that thinks high of Curley. Will Hart is one. Said he didn’t think Curley ever robbed a coach in his life. We had some words on that, too.” Carl scrubbed his hands up over his face. “I don’t know — I am pretty down on Curley, Johnny,” he said, in a washed-out voice. “I guess it is a laughing backshooter makes me madder than any other kind. I don’t know. Or maybe it is McQuown is Blaisedell’s size, but maybe Curley is mine.”
Speaking very carefully again, Gannon said, “Like you said, there are a lot that don’t think bad of Curley.”
Carl nodded jerkily. “Part of it, too. For he is what the rest is and can fool folks to think he is not. And so he is worse.” He glanced at Gannon again with his hot eyes, and Gannon knew enough had been said.
He nodded noncommittally.
Carl sighed and said, careful-voiced now in his turn, “Well, it was sure a surprise to me when it was you come in here with me, Johnny. I guess you know there is some that won’t take to you kindly, right off.”
“Surely,” he said, and he felt the questions Carl wanted to ask, but hadn’t yet.
“Well, you come in and that’s the main thing,” Carl said. “But I guess you don’t really hate San Pablo the way I do, do you?”
“I guess not, Carl.”
“Don’t mean anything by mentioning it,” Carl said apologetically. “But I remember there was some talk at the time — I guess it was Burbage. How what happened to that bunch of greasers down in Rattlesnake Canyon that time wasn’t Apaches’ doing.”
Gannon didn’t reply as footsteps came along the planks outside. Carl stiffened in his chair, slapped his hands on the shotgun, started to rise. Pony Benner came in, with the marshal a step behind him.
“This one is getting a little bit quarrelsome,” Blaisedell said, putting Pony’s Colt down on the table before Carl. “Maybe he’d better cool off overnight, Deputy.”
Carl got to his feet. The Colt rattled as he slid it into the table drawer and closed the drawer with a slap. Pony looked past Carl to meet Gannon’s eyes. He spat on the floor.
Blaisedell said, “If the judge comes in tell him this one was picking away at Chick Hasty in the Lucky Dollar. It looked like trouble so I took him out of circulation.”
“Surely, Marshal,” Carl said. Blaisedell nodded to Gannon, turned, and went out, tall in the doorway before he disappeared.
“Well, Mister run-chicken, pee-on-your-own, Deputy Bud Gannon,” Pony said, his small, mean face contorted with fury and contempt. “Why didn’t you get down and kiss his boots for him?” he cried, swinging toward Carl. “Gimme that damned hogleg back, Carl!”
Carl straightened his shoulders, hitched at his shell belt, and, with a swift motion, picked up the shotgun and slammed the muzzle against Pony’s belly. Pony yelped and jumped back. Carl said, “G-get in there before I blow you in!”
Pony retreated into the cell before the shotgun, and Carl slammed the door. His face, when he turned to take the key Gannon handed him, was blotched with color.
In the cell Pony was cursing.
“Hear anything?” Carl said, winking at Gannon. “I believe it is those rats moaning in there again. One of these days we are going to have to clean them out, I expect.”
“All right!” Pony cried. “All right, Carl, you have chose the way you are going to choke yourself. All right, Bud Gannon, God damn you to hell — we’ll see, God damn you all!”
“Damned if that one rat don’t squeak just like old Pony Benner,” Carl said.