None of the encyclopedias had any listings for Damar, nor the atlases, and she didn’t have time to queue for a computer. They had added more computers since she had been here last, but it hadn’t changed the length of the queue. She went reluctantly to the help desk. Geography had never been a strong suit, and by the time she was standing in front of the counter, she felt no more than ten and a good six inches shorter. “Er—have you ever heard of a place called Damar?” The librarian’s eyes went first to the row of computers, all occupied, and she sighed. She looked up at Hetta. “Yes,” said Hetta. “I’ve tried the encyclopedias and atlases.”
The librarian smiled faintly, then frowned. “Damar. I don’t recall—what do you know about it?”
It has eleven Sandpales and a Watcher named Zasharan at the fourth. “Um. It—it has a big desert in it, which used to be ancient forest.” The librarian raised her eyebrows. “It’s—it’s a crossword puzzle clue,” said Hetta, improvising hastily. “It’s—it’s a sort of bet.”
The librarian looked amused. She tapped Damar into the computer in front of her. “Hmm. Try under Daria. Oh yes—Damar,” she said, looking interested. “I remember . . . oh dear. If you want anything recent, you will have to consult the newspaper archive.” She looked suddenly hunted. “There’s a bit of a, hmm, gap . . . up till five years ago, everything is on microfiche, and in theory everything since is available on the computer system but, well, it isn’t, you know. . . . Let me know if I can f ind . . . if I can try to find anything for you.” She looked at Hetta with an expression that said full body armour and possibly an oxygen tank and face-mask were necessary to anyone venturing into the newspaper archive.
“Thank you,” said Hetta demurely, and nearly ran back to the reference room; her half hour was already up.
Daria. The Darian subcontinent in southwestern Asia comprises a large landmass including both inland plains, mostly desert with irregular pockets of fertile ground, between its tall and extensive mountain ranges, and a long curved peninsula of gentler and more arable country in the south. . . . Its government is a unique conception, being both the Republic of Damar under its own people and a Protectorate of the Homeland Empire and legislated by her appointed officers. See text articles. . . .
Damar. It existed.
She had been nearly an hour at the library. She ran out to the car park and banged the old car into gear in a way it was not at all used to. It gave a howl of protest but she barely heard it. Damar. It existed!
The ice cream had started to melt but her father never ate ice cream, and there were scones for tea with the eggs and sausages because scones were the fastest thing she could think of and her father wouldn’t eat store bread. She ignored more easily than usual her mother’s gently murmured litany of complaint when she took her her tray, and in blessed peace and quiet—Dane and his girlfriend, Lara, were having dinner with her parents, Jeff was doing homework in his room, their father was downstairs in the shop, and Hetta had firmly turned the still-resident TV off—began washing up the pots and pans that wouldn’t fit in the dishwasher. She was trying to remember anything she could about Daria—they had been studying the Near East in history and current events the year her grandmother had died and her mother had first taken seriously ill, and the only thing she remembered clearly was Great Expectations in literature class, because she had been wishing that some convict out of a graveyard would rescue her. This had never struck her as funny before, but she was smiling over the sink when Ruth—whom she hadn’t heard come into the kitchen—put her hand on her arm, and said, or rather whispered, “Hetta, what is with you? Are you okay?”
“What do you mean?”
“You haven’t been yourself since the storm. I mean, good for you, I think you haven’t been yourself in about eight years, except I was so young then I didn’t know what was going on, and maybe you’re becoming yourself again now. But you’re different, and look, you know Mum and Dad, they don’t like different. It’ll turn out bad somehow if they notice. At the moment Dad’s still totally preoccupied with the storm damage but he won’t be forever. And even Mum—” Ruth shrugged. Their mother had her own ways of making things happen.
Hetta had stopped washing dishes in surprise but began again; Ruth picked up a dish-towel and began to dry. They both cast a wary look at the door; the hum of the dishwasher would disguise their voices as long as they spoke quietly, but their father didn’t like conversations he couldn’t hear, and the only topics he wished discussed all had to do with business and building furniture. “I—I’m embarrassed to tell you,” said Hetta, concentrating on the bottom of a saucepan.
“Try me,” said Ruth. “Hey, I study the sex lives of bugs. Nothing embarrasses me.”
Hetta sucked in her breath on a suppressed laugh. “I—I’ve been having this dream—” She stopped and glanced at Ruth. Ruth was looking at her, waiting for her to go on. “It’s . . . it’s like something real.”
“I’ve had dreams like that,” said Ruth, “but they don’t make me go around looking like I’ve got a huge important secret, at least I don’t think they do.”
Hetta grinned. Hetta had always been the dreamy daughter, as their father had often pointed out, and Ruth the practical one. Their grandmother had teased that she was grateful for the eight-year difference in their ages because telling stories to both of them at the same time would have been impossible. Hetta wanted fairy-tales. Ruth wanted natural history. (The two sons of the house had been expected to renounce the soft feminine pleasures of being tucked in and told stories.) The problem with Ruth’s practicality was that it was turning out to have to do with science, not furniture; Ruth eventually wanted to go into medical research, and her biology teacher adored her. Ruth was fifteen, and in a year she would have to go up against their father about what she would do next, a confrontation Hetta had lost, and Dane had sidestepped by being—apparently genuinely—eager to stop wasting time in school and get down to building furniture ten hours a day. Hetta was betting on Ruth, but she wasn’t looking forward to being around during the uproar.
“Do you know anything about Daria?”
Ruth frowned briefly. “It got its independence finally, a year or two ago, didn’t it? And has gone back to calling itself Damar, which the Damarians had been calling it all along. There was something odd about the hand-over though.” She paused. International politics was not something their father was interested in, and whatever the news coverage had been, they wouldn’t have seen it at home. After a minute Ruth went on: “One of my friends—well, she’s kind of a space case—Melanie, she says that it’s full of witches and wizards or something and they do, well, real magic there, and all us Homelander bureaucrats either can’t stand it and have really short terms and are sent home, or really get into it and go native and stay forever. She had a great-uncle who got into it and wanted to stay, but his wife hated it, so they came home, and you still only have to say ‘Daria’ to her and she bursts into tears, but he told Melanie a lot about it before he died, and according to her . . . well, I said she’s a space case. It’s not the sort of thing I would remember except that there was something weird about the hand-over when it finally happened and Melanie kept saying ‘well of course’ like she knew the real reason. Why?”