“I was going to do it alone before.”
“But you’re not alone, are you?” It was her turn to speak between words, and Aldrik’s expression let her know he’d heard her.
The prince’s hands fell from hers, and he started for the door to the left. She focused only on him, ignoring the opulent sitting area he’d led her into. Even if they were never anything more than they were now, would she be happy?
Aldrik poked his head out of the main door, glancing up and down the hall. He motioned for her to follow, and Vhalla walked on air over the plush white runner that went the length of the hall. They crossed to a door opposite.
As he opened the second door, Vhalla realized that she had been in this hall before. The day Baldair had invited her to the gala, he had taken her to the same room she now faced. But it didn’t have the same brightness as then. Now it was cast in darkness, with vials—empty and full alike—littering nearly every surface. The room smelled strongly of herbs and salves.
A blanket was thrown over one of the couches in the sitting area, a pillow keeping it company. A semi-circle of books stood in defense of the cleric’s equipment that encroached in on a set of parchments with familiar handwriting on them. As she put the books down with the others, Vhalla wondered how long the elder prince had been living with his brother.
Aldrik held out a length of cloth to her. She noticed he’d already covered his own nose and mouth with one. Vhalla brought it to her nose and covered the lower half of her face with it.
They walked over to a secondary door that was almost entirely gilded. Aldrik knocked twice lightly, then paused. There was rough coughing barely muffled by the door. Vhalla braced herself, as if she was headed into battle once more.
“Enter,” came a tired voice from within. Baldair faded into another fit of coughing as Aldrik pushed open the door.
“Brother.” The older prince took a few steps in, holding the door open. “I brought a guest.”
“A guest?” Baldair wheezed. There was a rough and raspy chuckle after a short pause. “Vhalla, come in.”
“How did you?” she mumbled as she inched into the room.
“Who else would my brother bring at this hour of the night? Without prior word? Directly into my room?” Baldair reclined in a large bed with a golden canopy.
Vhalla noticed a chair set by his bedside and glanced back knowingly at Aldrik. These brothers were impossible, and it was almost hilarious how the world thought they hated each other. How they tried to insist sometimes that they did.
“How do you feel?” she asked gently, crossing over to the edge of the younger prince’s bed, leaving the chair for Aldrik.
The crown prince lit the candles at the bedside tables with a thought, then sat.
“Almost like the time I had a sword through my shoulder.” Baldair coughed. “But closer to my chest.”
“Here, cough into this for me?” She took a small piece of cloth off his bedside table and handed it to the prince.
“Coughing is not a problem.” Baldair chuckled, and it sent him into another fit.
Vhalla sat directly on his bed and held out her hand for the cloth when his coughing subsided. She looked at the mucus; it had a distinctively red tinge. Her heart sank.
“What is it?” Aldrik read her face without difficulty.
Vhalla wanted to scream at the cloth and burn it, as if that would make its truth disappear. Blood, the blood was starting. It would get worse from here. She took a deep breath and forced herself to remain calm, to not panic. Aldrik had brought her for her experience, but her experience was only death once the blood set in.
“You need to eat.” She looked back at Baldair. His usually glowing face was hollow and pale. “When was the last time you ate?”
“Do I have a new cleric?” Baldair asked his brother with a tired grin.
“She had Autumn Fever when she was a girl, Baldair,” Aldrik answered. “She has seen it, she has lived through it. You know how the clerics are.”
Vhalla glanced back at the cloth in her hand. She had lived through it. She had also lived with her mother dying from it.
“Food,” she said again, not entertaining the memories of her ailing mother. “You have to eat, Baldair.”
“Vhalla,” he groaned. “It hurts to breathe, and you want me to eat?”
“It will get worse, if you . . .” Vhalla shook her head, trying to part the flood of emotions that assaulted her. “Don’t stop eating. Keep up your strength,” she insisted. “Aldrik, can you get him food?”
“I can find something.” He nodded, standing. “Will you stay here until I return?”
“I’ll stay with him.” Aldrik’s concern for his brother was not lost on her, not for a moment. The prince left the room briskly, without further word.
“Vhalla.” Baldair struggled to sit.
“Lie down.” She placed her hands on his shoulders.
“If I’m going to eat, I need to sit a little.” Even his coy grins looked tired. Vhalla relinquished his shoulders and helped him adjust his pillows. The covers fell to his stomach, and Vhalla saw his skin had truly lost its luster. He was starting to thin. “What are you doing?”
“I’m helping you.” Vhalla had assumed that much to be obvious.
“With Aldrik,” Baldair clarified.
“He asked me to come and help.” Vhalla sat back with a sigh.
“My brother went to you?” Even exhausted and sick, Baldair managed skepticism.
“Not entirely . . .” She suddenly remembered the original reason she’d sought out the prince. With all that was occurring, how could she broach the subject of crystals, taint, and his family being targeted from within? “I had something I needed to speak with him about, and then he asked me to come here.”
“What were you going to speak with him about?”
“It’s personal,” she avoided answering.
“With you two, I bet it is.”
“You know, I don’t think you’re that sick after all.” Vhalla peered at the prince.
“I’m trying to help.” Baldair was unrelenting.
“And I’m trying to tell you to focus on nothing other than getting better.” She crossed her arms over her chest.
“Fine.” Baldair’s eyes lingered on her chest and Vhalla knew he wasn’t checking out her figure. She tucked the watch under her shirt as she unfolded her arms. “Well, whatever the reason, I am happy to see you around again. I was worried about Aldrik.”
“Has he fallen into any . . . bad habits?” she asked delicately.
“Surprisingly not,” Baldair praised his sibling. “He’s held himself together, done what he’s supposed to do and then some. He’s the man I always knew my brother could be, and he did it on his own this time. And yet, it feels so empty.”
Vhalla stared at the candles, flickering with Aldrik’s flames.
Baldair continued in her silence, “When he fought for you, he fought. It was bad, it was ugly, but he fought. The man I knew to have fire in his veins now does nothing more than simmer. I know I said everything between you both was a bad idea.”
“It was,” she interjected.
“It was,” he affirmed. “But you did it anyway, and now I don’t see him ever being happy again without you. He may be the best Emperor the Empire will ever know, and he’ll be empty inside.” He paused before adding, “I know, I am a hypocrite for this . . . But, I’ve gained some new perspectives since I’ve been trapped in this bed. Don’t leave him now, Vhalla.” Baldair wheezed, “Especially, if something happens to me. He’d have no one else who knows that the Fire Lord is capable of joy.”
“Don’t say that.” Vhalla brought her eyes back to the golden prince. “Please, don’t say things like that.”
“I know what this illness does.” Baldair shifted uncomfortably. “Especially in adults who contract it with no history.”