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You see yourself change.

You feel yourself get hungry.

You hear yourself howl.

You tear through your house

and watch yourself going wild

out into the night.

You become primal

and all night you act so bad

and it feels so good.

The beast inside you

that you always thought was there

has come out to play.

You run from your yard

as a beast into the night,

looking for some fun.

You want to find food,

you want to tear things apart,

and you want your Rose.

Howling at the moon

never makes much sense to you,

but it feels so good.

Now, for some reason,

all you want to do is kill

your next-door neighbors.

The first thing you eat

is a cute little rabbit

who lived in your yard.

The next thing you eat

is a cute little old man

who lived down the street.

You kill a pet cat

and go straight to Rose’s house

to give her a gift.

Nothing shows true love

like a pile of dead house cats

left on her front porch.

Everything’s a blur

mixed with dirt, hair, pain and blood

until the sunrise.

The next thing you know,

you’re normal, naked, outside,

and your stomach’s full.

When you transform back,

it’s not nearly as painful…

you just shrink and shed.

Your nose, ears, eyes, teeth,

pinky fingers, nails and gut

all grow back in place.

You must then decide:

Do you first wash off the blood

or cover your junk?

Your next dilemma

is how to make it back home

without being seen.

Once inside your house,

you find your love mix CD

smashed into pieces.

And now here you sit,

with a neighbor-filled stomach,

writing poetry.

…I didn’t make it.

Writing those last few haiku

made some puke come up.

My dog is missing,

but he must have found those bones

and brought them inside.

I’ve got that all wrong.

Those bones were inside my dog.

I remember now.

When one loves one’s pet -

typically, eating that pet

is not considered.

If one can get past

all the desperate barking,

raw dog tastes awesome.

His meaty dog thighs

were like eating chicken legs

but with bloody hair.

I’ll miss my Lupé,

but with this indigestion,

I might see him soon.

A terrible stench

is seeping out from my pants.

I think it’s Shih Tzu.

I should call in sick

and do some work on my house

and on my colon.

Don’t worry, my friend.

I will write you again soon,

dear haiku journal.

Dear haiku journal,

Are there three full moons a month

or is there just one?

Do werewolves transform

more than just one night a month?

I’ll find out tonight.

Not taking chances.

I should drive way out of town

to not hurt people.

Out in the country -

late afternoon, in my car -

wearing a sweatsuit.

Praying clothes don’t rip.

Praying not to kill again.

Praying I don’t change.

Prayer didn’t work

and neither did the sweat suit.

Now, where did I park?

Naked once again.

Therefore, no keys once again.

Hope the car’s unlocked.

A distant farm house

with four parked ambulances

brings back memories.

All those EMTs

won’t be needing those stretchers.

Maybe some baggies.

I find my car locked,

but that’s not a big problem

since the windshield’s gone.

Naked on the hood,

I climb through the broken glass

and find my car keys.

As I drive back home,

I’m glad I have sunglasses

to help block the wind.

A few cars pass me

as I try to look normal,

windowless and nude.

Why is murder wrong?

The more I think about it,

the better it sounds.

That soul inside you -

it’s what is inside that counts.

I want your outside.

Souls are eternal

and don’t need bodies to live,

so why the upkeep?

Souls go to heaven.

Bodies are just part-time homes.

Let me help you pack.

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If heaven sounds nice,

I’m doing you a favor.

Have fun. I’m eating.

With all this killing,

it helps to justify it

for guilt-free dining.

Please do not judge me.

It’s not my fault I’m this way,

dear haiku journal.

Dear haiku journal,

A third full moon is coming.

I need to prepare.

I wait in my house

and sit on my couch naked,

so I don’t rip clothes.

The werewolf in me

can’t care less about our stuff.

I keep losing doors.

I take down the screens

and prop a few doors open

to better my odds.

The morning after

a night of eating people

can be a bit rough.

You feel hungover

after a werewolf evening,

but with more remorse.

That guy I ate last,

I need to get out of me

and in a toilet.

When people eat corn

and spot them in their feces -

teeth are that way, too.

The full moon peeks out

above the horizon line.

Here we go again!

Is it terrible

that I am so excited,

dear haiku journal?

Dear haiku journal,

Sorry I haven’t written.

It’s been a few months.

That werewolf problem

where three days a month I kill…

it’s still going strong.

For the past eight weeks,

I have delivered the mail

like my life is fine.

Though mostly normal,

I have werewolf tendencies

that last through the month.

My new unibrow

is not as embarrassing

as my new tongue hair.

My curved fingernails

are perfect for back scratching

but bad for wiping.

All of my senses

seem about five times stronger -

which has pros and cons.

I can hear better,

even though both my ear holes

are clogged with whiskers.

Spiders have eight legs,

each of which I hear stomping

on my hardwood floors.

With heightened hearing,

current pop songs hurt my ears

more than they used to.

Nothing is blurry.

I no longer need glasses

to find my glasses.

With heightened eyesight,

Iwatch microscopic bugs

on my eyelashes.

My new swinging stride

speeds mail delivery time -

with my wider steps.

I must remember,

when I’m about to shape shift:

Wear clothes I don’t want.

I now notice scents

seeping from old couch cushions

as I watch TV.

My new sense of smell

makes for a rough addition,

with my messy house.

Constant gag reflex,

thanks to new strands of long hair

growing in my mouth.

I’ve gained new habits

that make delivering mail

more complicated.

Strangers seem surprised

when a distant car alarm