Outside the front door of her tower block he pressed a button and announced himself over the intercom system. There was no reply, only the abrupt sound of the door buzzing open. Roddy took a last look at the estate – kids playing noisily in a sunbaked recreation area, young mothers pushing prams up the hill from the centre of town, weighed down by bags of shopping – and then stepped into the hallway. It was damp and evil-smelling, and the lift looked especially gruesome; but walking all the way up to the eleventh floor would have meant arriving bedraggled and out of breath, and he was determined to make the best possible impression. So he gritted his teeth, blocked his nose and was relieved to find the ride relatively quick and painless. Next he had to negotiate a gloomy corridor, lit only by a series of feeble 40-watt bulbs which gave no hint of the brilliant Saturday afternoon sunshine he had left behind; but just as he was on the point of getting lost, the door to one of the flats opened and Phoebe herself appeared, beckoning. At once his spirits rose: against these surroundings she looked more ravishing than ever, and the doubts he had been entertaining all day on the drive up from London evaporated in a haze of desire.
‘Come on in,’ she said. ‘I’m almost ready. Kim’s just made a pot of tea.’
Roddy followed her inside and was surprised to find himself being led into a light and spacious sitting room. A young man in T-shirt and frayed jeans was slumped on the sofa watching television, flicking channels between Grandstand and a black-and-white comedy film on BBC2. He didn’t look up.
‘This is Darren,’ said Phoebe. ‘Darren, this is Roderick Winshaw.’
‘Pleased to meet you,’ said Roddy.
Darren grunted.
‘He’s driven all the way up from London,’ said Phoebe, reaching for the off button on the television. ‘I’m sure he’d like to relax.’
‘Oy, I’m watching that!’
The television stayed on, and Phoebe retreated to her room to finish packing. Roddy drifted into the kitchen, where a tidy, sandy-haired woman was pouring out four cups of tea.
‘You must be Roddy,’ she said, and handed him a cup. ‘I’m Kim. Phoebe and I share this flat together. For our sins.’ She giggled. ‘Do you take sugar?’
Roddy shook his head.
‘We’re all so excited that she’s finally got someone important on her side,’ said Kim, helping herself to three spoonfuls. ‘It’s just the break she needs.’
‘Well, I certainly intend to … do whatever I can,’ said Roddy, thrown off balance.
Phoebe reappeared from her bedroom, carrying a large folio under her arm. ‘Will there be room for this in the car?’
Roddy drew in his breath. ‘Might be a bit of a squash.’
‘Well …’ Phoebe looked doubtful. ‘You did say you wanted to see them. That’s why you came, isn’t it?’
‘I thought they were all on slides.’
‘Not all of them.’ She brightened. ‘We could look at them now, if you like. It would only take an hour or two.’
This, of course, was the last thing he wanted.
‘Actually I’m sure it’ll fit in. We’ll just have to put the seats forward a bit.’
‘Thanks.’ Phoebe flashed him a smile. ‘I’ll get my bag.’
Darren shuffled in from the sitting room. ‘Where’s my tea?’
‘I thought you were going to Sainsbury’s,’ said Kim, spooning sugar into his cup.
‘It doesn’t close till six.’
‘Yes, but there won’t be any stuff left by then.’
‘The rugby starts in a minute.’
‘Darren, what are your weights doing in my room?’ Phoebe was standing in the hallway, ready to leave.
‘There’s more space for them there. Why, are they in the way?’
‘Of course they’re in the bloody way. I want them out when I get back, OK?’
‘Fine, if you want to make a big deal out of it.’
‘Well, thanks for the tea,’ said Roddy, who hadn’t drunk any. ‘We seem to be off.’
‘Nice jacket,’ said Darren, as Roddy brushed past him in the kitchen doorway. ‘Looks like it’s from Next or somewhere, is it?’
The jacket in question, a sporty, cream linen number, had been tailor-made and had cost more than five hundred pounds.
‘It’s from Charles of Jermyn Street,’ said Roddy.
‘Oh. Yes, I thought so. I thought it was probably one of those places.’
Phoebe blew him a contemptuous kiss, and said: ‘Goodbye, Kim. I’ll give you a call when I’m coming back.’
‘All right, take care. Have a good time, and don’t do anything … don’t do anything you’ll regret.’
Roddy, fortunately, was out of earshot.
∗
‘He’s an idiot, that guy,’ said Phoebe, as they drove up the A1 towards Thirsk. ‘And he’s round at the flat all the time nowadays. It’s really beginning to depress me.’
‘Your flatmate seemed very nice.’
‘Don’t you think it’s upsetting, though, when your friends choose totally unsuitable partners?’
Roddy accelerated to within ten feet of the car in front and flashed his headlights impatiently. So far he had been averaging about ninety-five miles an hour.
‘I know what you mean, actually,’ he said. ‘Take this friend of mine. He was engaged to this woman for two years – cousin of the Duchess of ——, as it happens. Not much of a looker but she had the most fabulous contacts. He was hoping to get into opera, you see. Anyway, suddenly, without a word of warning, he breaks the whole thing off and shacks up with this complete stranger: a primary school teacher, if you please. Nobody, but nobody had ever heard of her. Next thing you know, they’re married. Come to think of it they seem very happy, but I still think he should have bitten the bullet and stuck with Mariella. Probably be running the ENO by now. D’you get my point?’
‘I don’t think we’re talking about quite the same thing,’ said Phoebe.
They drove in silence for several minutes.
‘Seems pretty similar to me,’ said Roddy.
∗
It was getting on for six o’clock when they drove through Helmsley and then struck out in the direction of the North York Moors. The sunshine was still bright and Phoebe found that the moors themselves, which she had visited many times before and had always considered overpoweringly bleak, today seemed cheery and welcoming.
‘You’re so lucky,’ she said, ‘having a home out here. It must have been a wonderful place to grow up.’
‘Oh, I didn’t spend much time here when I was a kid. Thank God. This is the dreariest place on earth, if you ask me. Never come here now if I can avoid it.’
‘So who lives in the house at the moment?’
‘No one, really. There’s a minimal staff – a couple of cooks and gardeners, and this old butler who’s been with the family for about five hundred years, and that’s about it. So the place is pretty much empty.’ He took out another cigarette for himself and gave it Phoebe to light. ‘Oh, apart from my father, of course.’
‘I didn’t realize he was still alive.’
Roddy smiled. ‘Well, as far as anyone can tell.’
Not knowing quite what to make of this, Phoebe said: ‘Do you know that John Bellany portrait of his father? I love that painting: it’s so rich and detailed – it tells you so much about the man, and at the same time it’s done with such warmth and affection. It positively glows.’
‘I know his work, yes. I’m not sure I’d recommend it to anyone as an investment these days. Look,’ he said, fixing Phoebe with a half-humorous, half-admonitory stare, ‘I hope you’re not going to want to talk about painting all weekend. I get enough of that down in London.’
‘What else are we here to talk about?’
‘Anything.’
‘ “I live and breathe art”,’ said Phoebe. ‘ “What other people refer to as ‘the real world’ has always seemed pale and insipid by comparison”.’
‘Well, that’s as may be. Personally I find that sort of attitude rather affected.’
‘Yes, but I didn’t say it: you did. Observer magazine, April 1987.’